Hi, welcome
I'm saddened by your post.
I wish I could list the many reasons to stay alive Qwerty.
So, I'm 69yo, at 40yo I separated from my 1st wife, 2 little kids. I wasnt aware I had mental health issues at the time (eventually... bipolar, anxiety, depression etc) but I'd been pushed too far by her for so many years. One week before I left I tried to end my life. My brother had suicided in 1978 and my uncle later on.
What came out of that was a new breath of fresh air, a new beginning. I was depressed for 8 weeks in a caravan park then on my daily walk I spotted a block of land. I secured it. My deposit was actually from my credit card. Anyway I built a kit home. I worked around the clock in security work and building the house. But then again I had a lot of ability as a tinkerer jack of all trades.
I decided when I moved into my home 12 months later that I'd never consider an attempt again. I would consider all options.
My advice is to talk to your GP and get a referral to see a psychologist. You can even get free visits. I've done that a few times and it has worked out well.
I think you know the answer to your last question. My daughters knew of my attempt so fast forward 21 years and about to walk my eldest down the aisle she said "thanks for making it here dad". I knew what she meant. Had I not made it there some other guy would have had to... not her father.
For these reasons please see your GP. Sort some issues out, little people are looking up to you.
We are here 24/7/365, just post and wait. If you need urgent help ring life line or the number at the bottom of the screen.
TonyWK
