I am a 32yo F in a leadership position in a large government
organisation and my job is killing me. I can barely get myself to go and
have used all my leave just trying to get by. I am getting more and more
depressed, my mental, emotional and physica...
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I am a 32yo F in a leadership position in a large government
organisation and my job is killing me. I can barely get myself to go and
have used all my leave just trying to get by. I am getting more and more
depressed, my mental, emotional and physical health is worsening. This
has been going on for two years at which point I decided to seek
part-time employment as I know this is the solution for me. For two
years, every week, I checked the bulletins and finally, the perfect job
came up (part time positions are essentially non existent in our
organisation!) Three days per week, a promotion and change of location.
Amazing! My skillset aligns, this is it, my light at the end of the
tunnel, my chance to get out of there! I had so much hope, it felt
right, the weight I had been carrying around lifted just with the
thought and, to my delight, I was offered the promotion!!!!! (Note: I
have been knocked-back on three occasions for an ongoing promotion at my
current location in the role I am in, however they continue to keep me
in this acting role as it suits them). But finally, alas, someone has
recognised my abilities and to add the icing on the cake it was part
time! I could not believe it! I'm going to buy some new work clothes to
celebrate! I was so happy. My partner was so happy for me that he cried!
Then I got the call. My General Manager decided not to release me for
this new position. They are "too understaffed", they need to keep me
acting in my current role (but I'm not good enough for it on an ongoing
basis?) They have released several others for promotions but due to my
skillset they are going to keep me? They then took the liberty of
informing my would-be new workplace that they will not let me go. And
so, all my hopes were shattered and I am back to working full-time, 9
days in a row. I begged, pleaded for them to let me go. For two years I
have been waiting for this opportunity to come along! This opportunity
won't come along again. I have done everything for you! I have never
asked for anything in my 8 years here. My mental health is worsening!
Please! But still "the answer is no, you are not going, end of story". I
am now as low as I have ever been and to make matters worse, as if to
punish me further, they have bumped me out of the role I have been
acting in and back to the rank below, as if to teach me a lesson for
trying to leave. I am so lost. I am so sad. I am so hopeless. What do I
do? How do I claw myself out of this hole???