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MsPurple LGBT+ members - got a question - need somewhere to start - here is the place
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Welcome LGBT+ members and ally to the community. A few LGBT+ forum users have questions and concerns they can't a find a place to ask it here on the beyond blue forums so I thought starting a place for questions and more serious/heavy conversations H... View more

Welcome LGBT+ members and ally to the community. A few LGBT+ forum users have questions and concerns they can't a find a place to ask it here on the beyond blue forums so I thought starting a place for questions and more serious/heavy conversations Here you can ask questions about anything from questioning your sexuality/gender identity, coming out concerns, dating, mental health etc. If you are an ally (an Ally is a person who considers themselves a friend to the LGBTQ+ community) you are also welcome to come here to be a support to our community and ask questions as well. This is a supportive place for people to discuss their questions and concerns, we are not a place of judgement. As Thumper from the movie Bambi said "If you can't say somethin' nice, don't say nothin' at all." If you are looking for a more social and light hearted conversation might I suggest joining us on the thread under BB social/rainbow cafe. Copy and paste the link: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/bb-social-zone/let's-chat-about-anything Feel free to introduce yourself below and ask any question/s I thought I'd answer one common question in the intro post and this is one I have heard a lot. What do the letters mean? When referring to the community it is shortened to LGBT+ as there are more letters than just the 4. I have put some of the common ones here: Lesbian Gay Bisexual Transgender Transsexual Two-spirited Queer Questioning Intersex Asexual Ally Pansexual Agender Gender Queer Welcome everyone and hope to see you around on this thread and around the BB forums MP

Chris_B IMPORTANT: Information and guidelines for posting in this section
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The Sexuality & Gender Identity space is a sub-forum within the wider beyondblue forum community. 1. Its purpose is to provide people who identify as lesbian, gay, bisexual, transsexual, transgender, intersex, queer or questioning (LGBTIQ) a safe spa... View more

The Sexuality & Gender Identity space is a sub-forum within the wider beyondblue forum community. 1. Its purpose is to provide people who identify as lesbian, gay, bisexual, transsexual, transgender, intersex, queer or questioning (LGBTIQ) a safe space to talk about how issues relating to gender identity and sexual orientation impact on mental health and wellbeing. 2. This includes discussion of and support around chronic illnesses such as HIV which disproportionately affect gay, bisexual and other men who have sex with men. 3. As this is a safe and affirming space for LGBTIQ individuals, please note this is not an appropriate space for debating the "rights and wrongs" of homosexuality, bisexuality, or gender fluidity itself. This includes use of terms such as "lifestyle" and "choice". 4. This sub-forum is and always will be a safe and supportive place for LGBTIQ people concerned with what we all need to do to stay well. That said, others are welcome provided they respect that this is primarily a LGBTIQ space. 5. If you do not identify as LGBTIQ, or are not currently supporting someone in your life who is LGBTIQ, and are curious about aspects of sexuality or gender identity, please read through beyondblue’s resources for and about LGBTIQ people here to educate yourself rather than posting in this section.

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ArcadianMind What to do?
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I came here in desperation as I have no idea what to do and have no one to talk to about all of this... In brief I am a 25yo female I've been more attracted to other girls for as long as I can remember... preteen I always admired the female character... View more

I came here in desperation as I have no idea what to do and have no one to talk to about all of this... In brief I am a 25yo female I've been more attracted to other girls for as long as I can remember... preteen I always admired the female characters while others girls pined over the males one. I adored the Charmed Ones and a huge Xena the Warrior princess fan I was already being abused and bullied for being "weird" without having them all know I fancied girls so I kept it a secret and tried to my best to ignore those feelings and faking it, lying to myself in the hope all those feelings would go away. Anyway, now I am nearly 26yo I am struggling to keep my secret; I find myself attracted very strongly to a new friend I've made and I can hear that damn clock ticking. The new friend is no good for me (questionably straight with a boyfriend) but she has made me realize that I need to seriously consider how I want to live my life. I feel I am comfortable in the prospect of having a girlfriend; I am lucky to have a very open and supportive family but it is the rest of the world that scares me. It's the idea of loosing friends and the trauma of my childhood scares me... it's like I don't want to give the world another reason to hate me. But at the same time I don't think I could live any longer lying to myself... it's effecting my anxiety like something shocking and I know I need to do something. But I don't know what... where do I go from here, what do I do, what's the next step?? Please, any ideas or suggestions would be great. I'm so tired of feeling so alone. Sincerely, ArcadianMind.

hotwheels47 Disabled lesbian depressed over loneliness
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I'm a lesbian in a wheelchair looking for love. Unfortunately, there are no support groups in my town, I live an hour north of a major city in Qld but I don't drive, or go out at night due to safety. I want to meet somebody special, but people can't ... View more

I'm a lesbian in a wheelchair looking for love. Unfortunately, there are no support groups in my town, I live an hour north of a major city in Qld but I don't drive, or go out at night due to safety. I want to meet somebody special, but people can't see past the wheelchair and are not interested. I find myself becoming more introverted, and feeling a bit down. Before, I was always extroverted, and outgoing, but now I see myself changing and I don't like it. How do I overcome feeling as if my life is over and I am still only 46 yrs old.

hevno-hadrim How to get over a married man
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I'm an 18 year old bisexual male who recently got out of a 2 month agreement with a 28 year old married man. I am unable to call it a relationship, because it wasn't anything like that and I was basically a boy toy. I knew what I was getting into, an... View more

I'm an 18 year old bisexual male who recently got out of a 2 month agreement with a 28 year old married man. I am unable to call it a relationship, because it wasn't anything like that and I was basically a boy toy. I knew what I was getting into, and I agreed with it all. He even told me himself, that I shouldn't get attached, mainly because I was only a temporary change from old routine. During the beginning of our agreement, I felt absolutely terrible. Not because I was attached, but because I felt objectified and worthless. I felt down, and lacked the motivation for simple tasks and all I wanted to do was sleep. Eventually, I did get attached and that made me feel even worse. I became impatient and reckless and even told him to run away with me. I didn't want a relationship, I just wanted to feel like something more.He just did little things which convinced me that he actually cared for me, when the truth is, he didn't. I came to realize who I was and what I was to him; as well as who I wanted to be and decided to end it. I felt terrible that day, and that was the motivation I needed to end things. ended it last week on Friday (I think) and on the first night the break up went smooth, but then he began sending me messages telling me im dramatic and over exaggerating and I haven't opened them yet because I don't want to. The second day of our break up was the worst, I couldn't stop crying and feeling as if I had made a mistake. I really just wanted him back. Now its Monday, and I'm feeling a lot better but I can't help and still regret my decision. I do miss him and I do want him back, but I am trying to keep it together. How do I overcome these feelings of loneliness?

pablopablo help
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hii am a gay man in my late 40's . I suffer from severe depression and anxiety for most of my life , i struggle to keep any relationships or friends and every day really is a struggle. I recently got made redundant and it really has just destroyed me... View more

hii am a gay man in my late 40's . I suffer from severe depression and anxiety for most of my life , i struggle to keep any relationships or friends and every day really is a struggle. I recently got made redundant and it really has just destroyed me i have been to interviews and i just freeze and just cant talk in one i even cried and i just feel at the moment that there is not much left to live for i feel like i have hit rock bottom and do not know what to do.i just dont know what to do , i have no one to talk to and just dont know where to turn have been to the Gp and he can only suggest talking to someone but i really find that so hard. Am i just weird can anyone suggest something . beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636. Normal 0 false false false EN-AU X-NONE X-NONE /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt; mso-para-margin-top:0cm; mso-para-margin-right:0cm; mso-para-margin-bottom:10.0pt; mso-para-margin-left:0cm; line-height:115%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font:minor-bidi; mso-fareast-language:EN-US;}

Marcello71 Out at last
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Hello everyone, I'm a typical man lilke everyone else but was born and raised in Malaysia. I came to Australia 11 years ago to study, finished my studies and been working since. I got married before I came to Australia, which was expected by my famil... View more

Hello everyone, I'm a typical man lilke everyone else but was born and raised in Malaysia. I came to Australia 11 years ago to study, finished my studies and been working since. I got married before I came to Australia, which was expected by my family ie to be a good son, brother, uphold the family name etc. I knew about my sexuality ever as long as I could remember. I have suppresed my feelings, sexuality, married with kids, I thought I done it well. Living in Australia opened my percerption and views about my sexuality. I started to explore my sexuality and started to like being with another man. I realised that nothing is wrong being gay (where it is not accepted in Malaysia) and I do can live my life as a gay man. But since I was married I thought I can keep it low and seek for pleasure whenver I need but everytime I do do it I feel guilty. There were weeks and days that I gone by sleepless and cried deep inside me for leading a double life. There were time I considered ending my life but again that does'nt solve anything. This was going on for couple of years , so September last the I came out after five sleepless nights and talking to a friend of mine who supported my decision to come out. I came to my wife and family members. No one took it well but slowly my side of family accepted me for who I am. My wife and her family took it hard. My wife and I visited a councillor and talked about the issues. Her emotions are up and down every now and then. All I want is a good life and I can carefor my kids and run my life that I wanted. The divorce is end of this year and I don't know what to expect during the process. What are my responsbilities for my kids? I need help as I done know who to approach. I need some guidence please.

Alumian Separation Anxiety
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Hi everyone, a bit about me before I start: I'm 22, gay and I've had this problem pretty much for as long as I can remember. So as the title of the thread suggests, I suffer from separation anxiety and to say the least, I'm extremely worried that it'... View more

Hi everyone, a bit about me before I start: I'm 22, gay and I've had this problem pretty much for as long as I can remember. So as the title of the thread suggests, I suffer from separation anxiety and to say the least, I'm extremely worried that it's going to damage or even cost me my relationship. I've recently found an amazing and supportive guy and I've discussed my problem with him and he's reassured me that he's going to help me any time I have any kind of anxiety related thoughts. This is my fourth relationship now and it just doesn't seem to be getting any better. Long story short, times when I'm not around him I start thinking stupid things that make no sense like he's angry at me (despite him just saying he loves me) or that he's in danger (for example, when he drives back to his house after seeing me, but it also happens in situations where I know he's perfectly safe such as him just going to the shops with his family). He wants me to tell him when ever I feel like this but I'm afraid that one day he's just going to say he's had enough, despite him saying he's never going to leave me just because I love him and care about him that much. I suppose the easiest way I can summarise my anxiety is I'm perpetually afraid that I'm going to lose him. I have previously seen a psychologist about it when I was in my previous relationship and we -thought- that I had gotten over it so we concluded our sessions together, but it turns out that I just fell out of love with that guy so the problem wasn't really solved. But it's odd because sometimes I'm perfectly alright, for example when he's at work or when I'm at work, I don't have any anxiety related feelings what so ever. Things that I tend to do which are triggered by my anxiety are things like, first of all like I said, thinking illogical thoughts, I find myself with an upset stomach, panicking and getting very emotional to the point where sometimes I just feel like crying just because he's not there. So for obvious reasons, you can see why I want to get to the bottom of this. Can anyone give me any pointers to coping with separation anxiety?

Petotje thinking about my younger years...is the grass greener on the other side???
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Hi All, A little story first...20 years ago I fell in love with a woman, my first love, my soul mate but the family disagreed and I cut myself loose from my then lesbian friends because according to my grandma that was just a foolish teenage act?! We... View more

Hi All, A little story first...20 years ago I fell in love with a woman, my first love, my soul mate but the family disagreed and I cut myself loose from my then lesbian friends because according to my grandma that was just a foolish teenage act?! We always kept in touch - she was my everything. Anyway, she met a nice girl, married her. I met a nice boy, married him. Everything was going great until we decided moving to Australia. Her marriage ended and in 2009 disaster happened, she committed suicide. My world ended that day. The first year was horrible. It was there and then that something broke in my marriage. I'm gently trying to crawl out of the closet. My husband and I are still together but it doesn't feel like we're a couple. We're more friends. and yet I'm so afraid to open my mouth and say it's over. I'm with every vain in my body a lesbian. Scared of his reaction... I know if I want something to happen I need to act... I think I played every scenario in my head and still...What do I do? We have an apartment, a good savings account, he arranges everything tho - don't know anything about our banking accounts. The only thing I want is stay friends, don't have the courage to fight...

Robbo_ I don't know what to do with my life
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I am 21 year old, I am unemployed and living with my parents. Feeling really depressed. I used to have someone to talk to but they're not around any more so I thought I'd post.I'm gay and I'm not out. I first realized it in high school. My parents ar... View more

I am 21 year old, I am unemployed and living with my parents. Feeling really depressed. I used to have someone to talk to but they're not around any more so I thought I'd post.I'm gay and I'm not out. I first realized it in high school. My parents are religious Asians so I never told them. At first I didn't wanna admit it to myself, or tell anyone. So in high school I became that guy that had no friends and pushed everyone away. I did so because I thought if I allowed people to get close to me, they would see me for who I really am. I pushed everyone away and kept to myself. I have completely stuffed myself up. Slowly since high school I've started getting really anxious when I'm around people. I find myself getting really uncomfortable in social situations, I can't even make eye contact with anyone without freezing up and completely humiliating myself. I have trouble keeping a conversation going. This has caused me to have troubles finding a job, being at school, getting an education. Everything pretty much.I completed year 12 and got a certificate luckily. Those last 2 school years were the hardest time in my life but I made it through. After that I tried to study IT and Chefing but didn't have as much luck. Studying those two courses required me to go to a new school and be around new people and I wasn't able to do that. I thought if I kept my eyes on the price (which was completing the courses) I could do it but very slowly my lack of social skills got in my way. I had to drop out of both. Now I am 21 years old, unemployed with very minimal experience in hospitality.I have been trying really hard to get a job but everyone just wants experienced people and good social skills and I just don't have any of those. I wish someone would just give me a chance. I would start at the bottom if I have to. I just need a chance. I check online regularly for jobs, it's become part of my routine. I sent out resumes almost everyday, I get phone calls at least once a week and attend interviews but I guess I'm just not good enough.My last job was an apprenticeship at a restaurant, It was hard on my first year, I didn't speak unless I had to.I was left alone and I did my job. Very slowly after my second year I made a friend at school and things got better. I eventually became friends with my workmates after only a year and I think it was because of that friend. She taught me how to be myself again. Now she's gone. I'm unemployed. I'm back where I started. Help?

foreigner_in_AU feeling sad...
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Hi all,, I hope you can help me. I feel sad very often and I don't sleep well. It's hard for me because I haven't told anyone about this, also, I migrated to Australia and my family is not here, I feel I never adapted completely to this country even ... View more

Hi all,, I hope you can help me. I feel sad very often and I don't sleep well. It's hard for me because I haven't told anyone about this, also, I migrated to Australia and my family is not here, I feel I never adapted completely to this country even I have been here for more than 7 years. I have been taking anti depresants and I exercise most days but still feel sad, well I am gay and don't have a partner, this is also affecting I think. Cheers

gibby3794 my last 3 years
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i have been suffering depression and anxiety since February 2011 (brought on due to moving away from my home town) but i have only recently been diagnosed, i am now wishing i did not let it get to this point and decided to get help earlier (i am now ... View more

i have been suffering depression and anxiety since February 2011 (brought on due to moving away from my home town) but i have only recently been diagnosed, i am now wishing i did not let it get to this point and decided to get help earlier (i am now seeing a psychologist) and possibly getting medication, it seems that ever since i moved everything has gone wrong, all of a sudden i ended up to my eye balls in debt with about 10 different debt collection agency's ringing daily to the point where i am now scared of answering my phone.i have also realized since moving that i am actually gay and while friends and co-workers dont have any issues with it as within my group of friends there are a few of us that are gay, lesbian and bi, and my work colleagues are all fine with it to as we have 4 people within the company (including me) that are gay i still have not had the courage to tell any family members about my sexuality, depression, anxiety or much about myself to be honest, i am close to most of my family but can not bring myself to tell them and every day i dont it is eating away at me making things worse.i used to love going to work but the last 2 months i find myself dreading going and the only reason i have not quit is because of financial stress.i have also gone out and brought expensive things (like a $1000 tv) ect thinking if i buy this i will love my life and feel great but it doesnt work, the novelty of the things i buy wears off then i have to sell them to pay bills or stuff and am still paying them off, so i end up worse off having a debt for something that the novelty had worn off and item has been sold. i also have bad tendencies to get angry at people really easy and instead of dealing with it like a normal person i either start yelling and screaming or just dont say a word and get in my car and drive very unsafely. and so far none of my methods have helped at all, infact they make things worse so please people do not do what i do as it just makes things worse..i dont even know if this makes any sense or why i am writing it but here i am so yeahh.. thanks for reading