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Sophie_M Welcome to the Grief and Loss section
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Everyone’s experience of grief or loss is unique. You might experience all kinds of difficult or overwhelming emotions, and you might sometimes wonder if the sadness will ever end. This is a normal reaction to loss. There is no right or wrong way to ... View more

Everyone’s experience of grief or loss is unique. You might experience all kinds of difficult or overwhelming emotions, and you might sometimes wonder if the sadness will ever end. This is a normal reaction to loss. There is no right or wrong way to grieve, but it can help to allow yourself to: share your grief, and let others support you. This forum category is for all discussions relating to how grief and loss has affected you, providing a space for you to express your feelings, discuss difficult moments and anniversaries, and honour the memories of your lost loved ones. Please be aware that threads in this forum may contain discussions of self-harm and suicide.

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smallwolf Reflection on the death of Dad
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My father passed away last Wednesday after a short battle with Parkinson’s disease. He was only in palliative care for less than a week before he died, having moved into an aged care facility just two months prior. His health deteriorated rapidly tho... View more

My father passed away last Wednesday after a short battle with Parkinson’s disease. He was only in palliative care for less than a week before he died, having moved into an aged care facility just two months prior. His health deteriorated rapidly those last few days, and I said my goodbye on the Saturday before his passing. I even have a picture from this time. Grief is complex and personal, touching each of us differently. The famous stages of grief – denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance – were originally applied to those facing their own mortality, not grieving loved ones. Somehow that changed over time, and we now use those stages to understand mourning too. But it’s not so simple or linear. People oscillate between emotions, sometimes feeling several at once. For me, there is acceptance of my father’s passing, mixed with relief his suffering is over. But there is no anger or depression yet, though it may come. Our relationship was complicated. He was not one for heartfelt talks or confiding emotions. We had little in common, divergent worldviews and interests. He was not my closest confidant; we struggled connecting on a deeper level. Does that make him a bad father? No, just a product of his generation and life experiences. But it leaves me unsure how to feel about his loss. There is sadness, yes, but also distance. I mourn the relationship we could have had as much as the one we did. Still, his passing has affected me in unexpected ways. My sleep is disrupted, concentration wavering. I feel foggy, prone to mistakes and forgetfulness. These are only visible in action and behaviour. Minor frustrations set me off. And apologies to those concerned. This hypersensitivity and emotional deregulation catches me off guard. Grief manifests itself in the body and mind, even when the heart feels conflicted. The loss of a parent, however imperfect, shakes us at a core level. Right now, I have the feeling of a lump in my throat. It represents the loss of our youth, of the version of ourselves who still had a father. It is perhaps a reminder of our own mortality. Our bodies rebel against these existential threats through sleeplessness, agitation, and lapses in focus. And apologies to those concerned.

Friends_4good I just lost a friend
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My friend of more 40 yrs died suddenly, I'm consumed by my grief. We went to school together, we lived together during our wild party days. We'd fallen out over something silly, but in recent yrs we were friendly again. I'm devastated, I feel like th... View more

My friend of more 40 yrs died suddenly, I'm consumed by my grief. We went to school together, we lived together during our wild party days. We'd fallen out over something silly, but in recent yrs we were friendly again. I'm devastated, I feel like there's been a lot of death in my life the last 5 yrs.

white knight Understanding death
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We have many barriers in the grief process to leap over and that process is an individual journey. Religious beliefs, acceptance, personality, mental health, and so on all play their part in how long it takes us to recover... if we ever do. I've been... View more

We have many barriers in the grief process to leap over and that process is an individual journey. Religious beliefs, acceptance, personality, mental health, and so on all play their part in how long it takes us to recover... if we ever do. I've been following the videos (cassettes in the early days) of Prem Rawat "Maharaji" for over 30 years. This very insightful man I've included in my posts here like Maharaji sunset, maharaji the perfect instrument google then for relaxation periods. But this one deals with death and I found it beneficial. I hope it helps members in the grief process or the fear of your own passing. https://youtu.be/X31OXMDUZVw?si=tDbbufcYcLxwaz1y

indigo22 Gone but never forgotten
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Hi everyone, I had to bury my beloved 16 year old cat on Friday. I am numb, sad, and feeling a bit lost without her. Her absence is palpable, it is the first time I have been totally alone in this home and it just doesn't feel right. Those who love t... View more

Hi everyone, I had to bury my beloved 16 year old cat on Friday. I am numb, sad, and feeling a bit lost without her. Her absence is palpable, it is the first time I have been totally alone in this home and it just doesn't feel right. Those who love their pets deeply will understand the emptiness I am feeling this weekend. She was pure love, not a mean bone in her body, and got me through some of the worst years of my life. I knew the day she came into my life, that she was there for a reason, I just didn't know what that reason was until a couple of years later. She kept my heart open when I could have very easily closed it off to the world. Her unconditional love was the only thing that kept me going for a few years. We know when we welcome an animal into our lives that we will (most likely) outlive them, but we do it anyway because the bond we share makes us feel connected, particularly those with mental health issues. Animals are so intuitive and give us what we sometimes can't get from another human due to the traumatic events we have been through. This is not the first time I have been through this, there have been others in the past so I know I will recover from this loss. It is just difficult at present to accept that her physical presence is no longer here with me. To everyone who is going through the loss of a beloved pet, my thoughts are with you.indigo

Scared Better off without
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I know this will be met with opposition. Im suffering and angry at myself for not staying single. If you get involved with someone special it always ends in pain and suffering. You break up or they die or for what ever reason you cant be together. Th... View more

I know this will be met with opposition. Im suffering and angry at myself for not staying single. If you get involved with someone special it always ends in pain and suffering. You break up or they die or for what ever reason you cant be together. This forum is filled with people suffering over grief. Why do we do this to ourselves. Do people feel grief less than I do or have they got some secret I dont know about. For me grief terrifies me and I do question why I got involved at all. I know this can never happen again no matter how wonderful it can be. I will never give my heart again because thats how I need to take care myself. Its not like im sad for a week or two but months if not years.I really dont understand why we love only to get sick as a result. Its some paradox

ABC01 Losing another piece of him.
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Dear All,My cat passed 16 weeks ago in a terrible way(I won't go into detail). Today they pulled down one side of our fence in our backyard due to rot and old age. Plus the weather hasn't helped. I have been in tears for awhile now. He used to sit by... View more

Dear All,My cat passed 16 weeks ago in a terrible way(I won't go into detail). Today they pulled down one side of our fence in our backyard due to rot and old age. Plus the weather hasn't helped. I have been in tears for awhile now. He used to sit by that fence and peer through a tiny hole into next doors yard. I would fondly joke to him about being a little creep. It is a trigger for a good memory. But now the fence is down and that hole is gone. I don't know how to deal with things that have to do with him being erased from existence anymore. Rationally I know it is a fence and that it does need to be replaced. But it hurts to loss another physical piece of him. How do I deal/cope with losing another part of him and especially a part that triggered a good memory whenever I would see it? Thank you for listening.ABC01

Scared Unsure
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I was watching on tv the families of the 9/11 victims. Why cant i be strong like them. Im feeling ashamed and weak I cant be strong today.My girlfriend is angry with me most of the time because she has no money. I had to block her number because with... View more

I was watching on tv the families of the 9/11 victims. Why cant i be strong like them. Im feeling ashamed and weak I cant be strong today.My girlfriend is angry with me most of the time because she has no money. I had to block her number because with depression she is constantly hurting me with her frustrations of no money.She has gambling addiction and I wont enable her addiction.I already left her back in Thailand.The truth is im scared to break contact completely with her as she can be the only source of sunshine I get in my bleak life. It was her birthday so i sent little money to buy birthday cake and already she unhappy with me again. To send money i need take a bus along way to do this. I dont feel appreciated at all. I never know if Im grieving the loss of blocking my phone or if im depressed. I dont know how to tell.I thought my upping meds recently was helping but its not today. Things are worse if anything today.My Thai girl has an unusual disposition Ive never understood.Like a computer she reboots every morning and whatever happened yesterday is forgotten while Im still getting over what happened yesterday. I blocked her many times in the past and always unblock her.Today she would probably call but i havnt unblocked her number yet.I know people can advise to get rid of her but if you saw how bleak my life is and where I live a rounded person could understand why i hang on to this relationship.I really dont know what to do or the right direction to take.If my depression would leave me i might have a chance to help myself instead of hanging on to something thats unhealthy

jj-01034 do I breakup with him even tho I’m gonna be upset
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I’ve been with my current bf for over 4 months, and recently I found out that he has been cheating on me with this girl over the phone this is the second time I have seen things with her in their chats and I don’t know how to bring it up to him bc I ... View more

I’ve been with my current bf for over 4 months, and recently I found out that he has been cheating on me with this girl over the phone this is the second time I have seen things with her in their chats and I don’t know how to bring it up to him bc I did check his phone but it’s been bothering me for a while now but his also been acting off couple of times without reason and I don’t know what to do and I’ve been a pretty excepting and loving girlfriend to him. And I will miss him and I love him very much despite what his done

Guest_74960730 Losing my father who loved me most in my life
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The sudden loss of my father has left me shattered and unprepared. This morning, my cousin delivered the devastating news that he had passed away from a heart attack. The shock is overwhelming, especially since we had been planning to reunite at my g... View more

The sudden loss of my father has left me shattered and unprepared. This morning, my cousin delivered the devastating news that he had passed away from a heart attack. The shock is overwhelming, especially since we had been planning to reunite at my graduation ceremony this December—our first meeting since I came to Australia nearly two years ago to study. I knew my father was dedicated to his work and often reluctant to seek medical attention. Part of me believed he was taking care of himself, but our distance made it impossible for me to know for certain. Now, it's too late for so many things. It's too late to express how much I love him. It's too late to tell him what a wonderful father he was. It's too late to apologize for not visiting home more often. It's too late to do all the things I wished I could have done for him I feel so empty and desperate right now. Nothing seems to matter anymore, and I feel as though I lost the goal of my life. I fear that I'll be living with a void in my heart and crying in every moment when I miss him. I miss him. I love him.....

Ggrand Remembering our beautiful pets…🐕🐈🐓🦜🐇🐁🐄🐏🐖🫏🦘🦃🐠🦆🐣….🌈
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Hello everyone….… I recently lost one of my beautiful fur girls a month ago and the heartbreaking sadness is still so real… I thought I would start this thread to remember our beautiful pets who have left us to travel over the rainbow bridge….maybe i... View more

Hello everyone….… I recently lost one of my beautiful fur girls a month ago and the heartbreaking sadness is still so real… I thought I would start this thread to remember our beautiful pets who have left us to travel over the rainbow bridge….maybe it’s a way to remember them and cherish the beautiful memories we have of them…have you lost a precious pet and want to share some of the good times and beautiful memories you have of them….I know I would love to hear about them as I’m sure many others would…..and just to add we are all here to support each other both in our grief and the sadness we feel every day….living without them by our side… I was the midwife for your mumma and that ment that I met you the moment you were born, so tiny, no bigger then a golf ball covered with black fur you looked like a piece of black Ebony, that’s how you got your name…my Dear sweet Ebony, the last of the litter, smallest of all your brothers and sisters….but oh so very cute.. Your brothers and sister grew and were adopted by their new forever parents, but you sweet Ebony I couldn’t part with you, you captured my heart the first time I saw you…you stayed with me and your mum… You had a gentle soul, one that when anyone met you, they instantly fell in love with you… you loved to play with your little soft toys, you and mumma would play tug of war together…and broke many of them apart….when your mumma was tired you brought your toy over to me to play with you…you snuggled into my arms every night, you loved to touch me at night…as small as you were you would inch closer and closer to me…I even fell off the bed one hot summers night trying to cool myself down…you had a foot fetish anyone who had bare feet in my house had to endure your constant cleaning of their feet… You loved going for drives with mumma fur and myself, I often stopped and got you your favourite Kentucky popcorn chicken on a break when travelling to Sydney….You would watch the people passing, barking at them until they noticed you…can I pat them a few asked me…your little tail would wag so fast after I wound the window down so they could pat you…. Many times when I was desperately depressed, somehow knowing I was down you would walk up to me with those big beautiful brown eyes and just stare at me until I picked you up so you could cuddle me… When I came home from work, you, your mumma and adopted sister would get so excited, after a lot of pats n cuddles even before I put my bag down..you all would just sit in front of my cupboard waiting until I gave you all a snack….your mumma and sister still do…but I’m missing they way you would jump up and down excitedly when I opened the cupboard and make those funny little noises….until I gave you all one each Cancer found you, then it took you away from me on the ………my sadness is overwhelming…I’m hurting deep in my soul, my heart is breaking, I want to once again feel your soft fur against my face, hear your excited bark, feel your wet kisses, watch you run around and play outside….I am seeing that in my mind, but it’s just not the same….missing you sweet little Ebony… My kindest thoughts and hugs….Grandy..