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Sophie_M Welcome to the Grief and Loss section
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Everyone’s experience of grief or loss is unique. You might experience all kinds of difficult or overwhelming emotions, and you might sometimes wonder if the sadness will ever end. This is a normal reaction to loss. There is no right or wrong way to ... View more

Everyone’s experience of grief or loss is unique. You might experience all kinds of difficult or overwhelming emotions, and you might sometimes wonder if the sadness will ever end. This is a normal reaction to loss. There is no right or wrong way to grieve, but it can help to allow yourself to: share your grief, and let others support you. This forum category is for all discussions relating to how grief and loss has affected you, providing a space for you to express your feelings, discuss difficult moments and anniversaries, and honour the memories of your lost loved ones. Please be aware that threads in this forum may contain discussions of self-harm and suicide.

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DolfinRock Sophie
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Hi,I’m 61 and alone as alone can be.I live alone, have no friends and my entire family has disowned me because I’m, in their words “sick, depressed and boring”I have spent the last 7 years confused and wondering if this is a dream.I wasn’t always thi... View more

Hi,I’m 61 and alone as alone can be.I live alone, have no friends and my entire family has disowned me because I’m, in their words “sick, depressed and boring”I have spent the last 7 years confused and wondering if this is a dream.I wasn’t always this person. I had a moderately ok life, money, all my family seemed to love me , a great job and appeared to have plenty of friends.everything changed 7 years ago when my partner of 30 years left for someone else, this was followed by an accident that left me in hospital for 6 months and contracted an incurable bacteria and my illness/ disability, that I’ve lived with since age 21, got worse and became visually hideous. Of course I had to depend on the pension and finding a part time job. I have been to over 100 interviews but, I don’t think anyone would take a chance on me.My siblings, who was also my best friend throughout life, walked away and gathered the rest of my very large family around her, along with her new BF, SIL, BIL, and other new connections and didn’t see me as good enough to fit in this new family structure. I have spent endless days where they’re celebrating special occasions like my brother’s wedding, my mums milestone BD, as I sit staring at the sky with a crushed heart and tears in my eyes.I’m trying to find my new life without all the people I loved and lived for but it’s hard.I don’t fit in this world anymore and see it and the people in it as too good for me. I’m a burden, even to myself. I have been a kind, good, empathetic person that’s given my all to anyone who needed me. I just can’t understand my life anymore and why or how it took this turn.I hope to hear from you

Maggie56 My 18 year old cat died yesterday
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Maggie was my life, my world. It was just her and me. I'm now surrounded by all of her things and can't think of anythng else. I just arranged her cremation. I have no-one to talk to; no family or friends. I'm seeing my GP tomorrow but am so consumed... View more

Maggie was my life, my world. It was just her and me. I'm now surrounded by all of her things and can't think of anythng else. I just arranged her cremation. I have no-one to talk to; no family or friends. I'm seeing my GP tomorrow but am so consumed by grief and guilt, it feels like my heart is breaking. I don't know how to go on without her.

fred2018 Grief/care advice
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Hi, My mother passed away pretty abruptly a few years ago and now I live with my father. My parents were together for a long time. Who has any advice for what children ask their parents when they have lost a partner. I feel I have asked questions ie ... View more

Hi, My mother passed away pretty abruptly a few years ago and now I live with my father. My parents were together for a long time. Who has any advice for what children ask their parents when they have lost a partner. I feel I have asked questions ie are you alright and other questions but I wonder are there more questions to ask him or things to do that will help him in what his a new chapter of his life. Thanks

Aimee_Jo Being completely ostracised from my blood family after reporting my Childhood Sexual Abuse - The Silence is Deafening!
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In my 40th year, I finally found the courage to speak my truth and report my Childhood Sexual abuse from the ages of 6- 13 years old, perpetrated by my stepfather. I grew up in a very large extended family. My mother had 4 sisters all married with ch... View more

In my 40th year, I finally found the courage to speak my truth and report my Childhood Sexual abuse from the ages of 6- 13 years old, perpetrated by my stepfather. I grew up in a very large extended family. My mother had 4 sisters all married with children, so a large group of cousins and we were all very close. My relationship at around my 40's, with most of my family including my mother and 2 step brothers (born after my abuse) was extremely strained, to say the least. One of the biggest factors contributing to this breakdown was that my mother initially believed me when I finally told her when I was 15. She left my abuser, then apparently did a backflip after attending counselling sessions together. In those sessions in the mid 80's, he admitted the abuse to the Department of Families and Communities investigators and used a recent stint in jail for Heroin Possession as his reason. The department deemed me no longer at risk of the abuse as I was living out of home by then in various squat houses, on the streets and couch surfing, emergency accommodation, Juvenile lock up. Basically anywhere away from my abuser was apparently deemed safer. My mother spent around 6 months apart from him before asking me to allow her to go back to him and then stayed for another 18 years and had 2 kids to him. For the next 3- 4 years I really tried to live with my abuser in my life to keep the peace as he was still with my mother. At 17, I was pregnant with a child I was determined to keep. At 18yrs old, I had my daughter and my boundaries became very tight. I started pushing back on my mothers lie to live in denial. She never wanted to mention the abuse again and the rug she kept shoving stuff under was getting a really big bulge under it. I haven't spoken to my mother since 2010, next year it will be 10 years of no contact. From the snippets I have heard over the years, my mother has told my family that my abuse report to Police was a lie and I was only out to get money. My blood family not contacted me since my report and subsequent 5yr court battle until recently one of my cousins I was close to growing up called me and told me never to contact him again as he had to protect his children from people like me. I know that says more about him than it does about me, but man it still cuts deep and really hurts your heart. Day to Day now its not so bad, it shifts, if that makes sense? Id love to connect with others in this boat, How do you manage your estrangement?

Evarosie I have lost my sister and don't know how to cope
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Hi all, I have never posted in anything like this before but i just really need to pour my heart out. I lost my beautiful sister 8 weeks ago. She was 31. She died suddenly due to an accident. We were extremely close and spoke multiple times a day. We... View more

Hi all, I have never posted in anything like this before but i just really need to pour my heart out. I lost my beautiful sister 8 weeks ago. She was 31. She died suddenly due to an accident. We were extremely close and spoke multiple times a day. We shared everything and she is a huge part of who i am. I replay the morning she died over and over in my head. I will never forget it. I miss her terribly. I ache for her. I don't want to get out of bed anymore. I cry all day. I think of her constantly. I don't know how to live without her. She didnt want to die. I feel so awful for her. She would be devasted this happened to her. I want to protect her and i can't. I should of prevented this happening somehow. She was too important to be gone. I have 3 kids and i go through the motions every day but i have lost the best part of me. I feel sick that i am young and have to live through this for a long time. It cant be real. I talk to her all day. I write to her constantly. Of course she never responds. So many things we shared. So many things that only she would understand. ...its all lost. No one loves me like she does. No one understands me like she does. I just want this pain to go away and for her to speak to me. I dont know what to do anymore.

user complex grief with loss of mum
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i havent heard anyone talk about this and maybe its because i shouldnt feel this way. my mum died a few years ago when i was 14 and ive had a really difficult time with my mental health since. Before she died, i had supressed all my trauma that both ... View more

i havent heard anyone talk about this and maybe its because i shouldnt feel this way. my mum died a few years ago when i was 14 and ive had a really difficult time with my mental health since. Before she died, i had supressed all my trauma that both she and my dad (who is still alive) had caused me. its worth noting that me and my father have a very poor replationship, he is married to my mums ex-bestfriend. anwayway, when my mum died i obviously felt really sad, but then my memories of the trauma that she caused me came and now all i feel is conflicted. i miss her but also when she was alive,she broke me beyond repair, so i feel shameful that i dont miss her at the same time. its really difficult because its like being in conflcit with someone whos dead, like she is not here but i am still truamatised yet when she was alive we had an incredible replationship, but was it because i was supressing all the trauma????? anyway, hopefully someone related to this, or maybe i am just a bad person for feeling like this. idk anymore.

smallwolf Reflection on the death of Dad
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My father passed away last Wednesday after a short battle with Parkinson’s disease. He was only in palliative care for less than a week before he died, having moved into an aged care facility just two months prior. His health deteriorated rapidly tho... View more

My father passed away last Wednesday after a short battle with Parkinson’s disease. He was only in palliative care for less than a week before he died, having moved into an aged care facility just two months prior. His health deteriorated rapidly those last few days, and I said my goodbye on the Saturday before his passing. I even have a picture from this time. Grief is complex and personal, touching each of us differently. The famous stages of grief – denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance – were originally applied to those facing their own mortality, not grieving loved ones. Somehow that changed over time, and we now use those stages to understand mourning too. But it’s not so simple or linear. People oscillate between emotions, sometimes feeling several at once. For me, there is acceptance of my father’s passing, mixed with relief his suffering is over. But there is no anger or depression yet, though it may come. Our relationship was complicated. He was not one for heartfelt talks or confiding emotions. We had little in common, divergent worldviews and interests. He was not my closest confidant; we struggled connecting on a deeper level. Does that make him a bad father? No, just a product of his generation and life experiences. But it leaves me unsure how to feel about his loss. There is sadness, yes, but also distance. I mourn the relationship we could have had as much as the one we did. Still, his passing has affected me in unexpected ways. My sleep is disrupted, concentration wavering. I feel foggy, prone to mistakes and forgetfulness. These are only visible in action and behaviour. Minor frustrations set me off. And apologies to those concerned. This hypersensitivity and emotional deregulation catches me off guard. Grief manifests itself in the body and mind, even when the heart feels conflicted. The loss of a parent, however imperfect, shakes us at a core level. Right now, I have the feeling of a lump in my throat. It represents the loss of our youth, of the version of ourselves who still had a father. It is perhaps a reminder of our own mortality. Our bodies rebel against these existential threats through sleeplessness, agitation, and lapses in focus. And apologies to those concerned.

Friends_4good I just lost a friend
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My friend of more 40 yrs died suddenly, I'm consumed by my grief. We went to school together, we lived together during our wild party days. We'd fallen out over something silly, but in recent yrs we were friendly again. I'm devastated, I feel like th... View more

My friend of more 40 yrs died suddenly, I'm consumed by my grief. We went to school together, we lived together during our wild party days. We'd fallen out over something silly, but in recent yrs we were friendly again. I'm devastated, I feel like there's been a lot of death in my life the last 5 yrs.

white knight Understanding death
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We have many barriers in the grief process to leap over and that process is an individual journey. Religious beliefs, acceptance, personality, mental health, and so on all play their part in how long it takes us to recover... if we ever do. I've been... View more

We have many barriers in the grief process to leap over and that process is an individual journey. Religious beliefs, acceptance, personality, mental health, and so on all play their part in how long it takes us to recover... if we ever do. I've been following the videos (cassettes in the early days) of Prem Rawat "Maharaji" for over 30 years. This very insightful man I've included in my posts here like Maharaji sunset, maharaji the perfect instrument google then for relaxation periods. But this one deals with death and I found it beneficial. I hope it helps members in the grief process or the fear of your own passing. https://youtu.be/X31OXMDUZVw?si=tDbbufcYcLxwaz1y

indigo22 Gone but never forgotten
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Hi everyone, I had to bury my beloved 16 year old cat on Friday. I am numb, sad, and feeling a bit lost without her. Her absence is palpable, it is the first time I have been totally alone in this home and it just doesn't feel right. Those who love t... View more

Hi everyone, I had to bury my beloved 16 year old cat on Friday. I am numb, sad, and feeling a bit lost without her. Her absence is palpable, it is the first time I have been totally alone in this home and it just doesn't feel right. Those who love their pets deeply will understand the emptiness I am feeling this weekend. She was pure love, not a mean bone in her body, and got me through some of the worst years of my life. I knew the day she came into my life, that she was there for a reason, I just didn't know what that reason was until a couple of years later. She kept my heart open when I could have very easily closed it off to the world. Her unconditional love was the only thing that kept me going for a few years. We know when we welcome an animal into our lives that we will (most likely) outlive them, but we do it anyway because the bond we share makes us feel connected, particularly those with mental health issues. Animals are so intuitive and give us what we sometimes can't get from another human due to the traumatic events we have been through. This is not the first time I have been through this, there have been others in the past so I know I will recover from this loss. It is just difficult at present to accept that her physical presence is no longer here with me. To everyone who is going through the loss of a beloved pet, my thoughts are with you.indigo