How do you deal with ALL your dreams and goals being crushed? Feel like
im grieving the life ive always wanted.- As a teen i wanted to be a
flight attendant because i loved travelling and flying. Then i got
pregnant at 16, had my son at 17. There was...
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How do you deal with ALL your dreams and goals being crushed? Feel like
im grieving the life ive always wanted.- As a teen i wanted to be a
flight attendant because i loved travelling and flying. Then i got
pregnant at 16, had my son at 17. There was no way i could be a flight
attendant and a mum at the same time. - I dreamed of having a nuclear
family. I grew up with my father out of the picture and only coming
around maybe a handful of times that i remember. When i found out my
sister was actually my half sister, that ruined me. I wanted to have
kids to only one person and at the time that was my sons father. My sons
father never stepped up to be a dad or partner, refused to study or
work, he was 2 years older than me. So i kicked him out. - I dreamed of
owning my own home. That will never happen as a single mum, the most i
could borrow is just over 300k, cant buy a house with that. Cant but
anything with that. Only way i would ever be able to buy is if i found a
husband who could put up with me and my broken soul or if i won the
lotto. See, impossible. - I dreamed of being a midwife as i loved being
pregnant with my son, i still find the whole specialty absolutely
fascinating. I finished my nursing degree and have ended up with PTSD
from working in aged care, never got accepted for a hospital new grad so
couldnt work in the hospitals without that hospital experience as an RN.
Started bachelor of midwifery, the responsibility scared me to death so
i quit half way through. Im not even working as a nurse anymore due to
these intense fears i have of going back. - I dreamed of getting married
some day, having a partner. That was crushed when i got back with an ex
(not my sons father) and there was emotional/psychological and financial
dv, came close to physical dv. Now the thought of dating again gives me
mini panic attacks. I end up ghosting anyone that gets too close. The
smallest thing i dont like, i ghost. I hate it. - I dreamed of having
another child, at least one more seeing as my son is now 11. Thats now
been crushed after getting my third negative result. Ive been doing IUI
using donor sperm for the last 3 months. Ill now have to go on to IVF if
i can afford it if i ever wish to have another baby. I truly feel like
the whole world, the universe, is against me. None of my dreams have
come true, they have all be crushed before my eyes and i just dont know
what to do anymore. Anything i put my heart and mind towards gets
crushed. I feel like i must have smashed 1000 mirrors in my past life to
have such bad luck in this one.. just wish a miracle would happen for me
for once.
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