hello I have never reached out to mental health support services before.
So this post is my first ever attempt to do so. I have also booked a GP
appointment for tomorrow to start the process of getting some
professional help. I am not expecting any r...
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hello I have never reached out to mental health support services before.
So this post is my first ever attempt to do so. I have also booked a GP
appointment for tomorrow to start the process of getting some
professional help. I am not expecting any response to this post. But I
need an avenue to just write out how I am feeling, and hence this post.
I am 39 years old dad. My wife and I both have white-collar jobs, a
hefty mortgage and two lovely kids in school. Over the last few months,
I have been feeling depressed for a number of reasons: (a) While I have
a good job, I don't know where it is leading me, (b) i feel I have been
too focused on job, house work and family life and that I haven't
invested any time on myself - whether it be taking a couple of hours off
alone, or exercise, or keeping up with friends, (c) i am constantly
worried about our financials due to mortgage and kids' school fees; (d)
i don't have anyone to talk to (my wife wants to talk to me, but we
rarely find time with all the things in our life. And like most men, i
haven't invested in maintaining a good friend circle). In recent weeks,
i have found myself getting angry at small things - which is adversely
affecting my wife and at times my kids. I am ashamed about. What's
surprising is that I know what's bothering me - but I still don't do
anything about it. I need to: (a) change teams at work in order to work
with people who watch my back, or get a different job, (b) I need to
invest time in myself - perhaps join a gym or go on small hikes - in
order to to just mentally time-out from the daily grind, (c) I need to
see a professional to work through my mental health issues, (d) i need
to get back into office and stop working from home all the time - as I
need social interaction, (e) i need to reconnect with old friends, (f) i
need to control my anger. Today I cried after my wife and kids left for
their day and i was alone at home. But i have taken an hour out from
work to sign up to beyond blue, book a GP appointment. Thanks to anyone
who has read any of the above.