Hi, I'm Jakon So, since last December I started seeing a psychologist.
I've had about 6 sessions now and I think they're going pretty well.
Basically, I'm at the point where I've think I have identified what my
issue/s are and I'm trying to address t...
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Hi, I'm Jakon So, since last December I started seeing a psychologist.
I've had about 6 sessions now and I think they're going pretty well.
Basically, I'm at the point where I've think I have identified what my
issue/s are and I'm trying to address them, but that doesn't seem to be
going very well. What my issue/s are is, probably, very common: I feel
like I am inferior, worthless and incapable of attaining the future I
want (largely due to childhood, choices growijg up, etc. That i'll be
working on identifying with my psychologist next). I am suceeding in my
uni studies (HD's, woo) but have been constantly feeling behind due to
an inability to motivate, manage time effectively, care, and so on.
Also, I've rexognized that a lot of my issue/s is (very) lilely to do
with fear: fear of confrontation, fear of rejection, fear of faolure and
so on. I'm also starting to more constructively assess when this fear
arises - fear tends to wear many hats, it seems. Overall, objectively
(so to speak) things are on track and I can plot out the next 3 months
or so and say 'this is pretty good'. But I feel hopeless. I feel it,
just there, under the surface, sometimes closer, sometimes deeper down,
like it's always going to be there waiting to bubble up until I
breakdown and cry, again. Like today. I know, again, that I have a good
framework for addressinf my triggers, thoughts, etc. That put me in this
place and that I just have to build on them over time and, quite
literally, get out more and engage more with people, and help others in
particular, to feel a sense of worth and progress. But thinking and
doing that are different things. My GP, psychologist and myself have
discussed me possibly going on SSRI's for depression/anxiety, but I'm
unsure whether they'll be effective. Will they fix the pervasive sense
of hopelessness my high lack of self confidence and self belief, as well
as the internal critic?