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hello and im not sure

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hello idrk how to begin i just turned 15 and i feel kind of stuck in life, i believe i have depression or anxiety but when i asked my mum to see a medical professional she simply recommend my school counsellor. i feel constantly tired and was recentl... View more

hello idrk how to begin i just turned 15 and i feel kind of stuck in life, i believe i have depression or anxiety but when i asked my mum to see a medical professional she simply recommend my school counsellor. i feel constantly tired and was recently diagnosed with iron deficiency. i feel stressed about upcoming exams and about what i am going to do in senior school - im also feeling left out at school as everyone has their bestfriends and friend groups and i just kinda .. float. my birthday was a couple of week ago and no one at school remembered. i then had a big emotional breakdown i believe its cause i had been pushing down my emotions for quite some time. i lashed out at my family today and feel extremely guilty and i cant seem to control my emotions - ive also noticed i hit my head or my thighs when im overwelmed and ik its not good but i cant stop doing it. i often feel numb and find myself zoning out and either thinking negatively about myself or just thinking how stuck i feel in life. school is a not good and im struggling to get out of bed in the morning - im deliberating asking to be homeschooled cause school just feels like too much. i feel like im trapped in a constant cycle and often question if this is what my life is meant for. i have no motivation to do anything yet i feel guilty and stupid when i do nothing - i find myself short on time due to my bad timekeeping skills and yet ive signed up for many activites this year - i have something on everyday after school and on the weekends (i told my parents i wish to try new things but i think its cause i dont wanna sit and process my emotions) im also self-conscious about my body and my face but i feel like i cant or shouldnt speak about it cause ik everyone goes through it when they are my age. i took beyond blues anxiety depression quiz tonight and it said i can be very overwelmed which is true then i started reading through everyone's (idk what to call them) posts or discussions and i felt like i should write one myself. i wish to see if anyone else feels like i do and am eager for some advice. many thanks, idk.

I wasn't me! | Struggling with my identity

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Sorry if this post is late at midnight but I just felt to need to write this thing that i've been feeling but It just ended up being a short story vent.So here it is! I Wasn't Meby Asterix(This is a true story)(also there might be spelling and gramme... View more

Sorry if this post is late at midnight but I just felt to need to write this thing that i've been feeling but It just ended up being a short story vent.So here it is! I Wasn't Meby Asterix(This is a true story)(also there might be spelling and grammer mistakes) _________________________________________________________________________________my name is Asterix.I'm a Guy, 22 and Sometimes I don't recognize myself in the mirrorI've been having this issue were if I look at my reflection I have this feeling that what I'm looking at isn't me, don't get me wrong I know that it's my reflection but just doesn't feel right, I'm not saying I don't like what I see or that it makes me sad, I literally feel like it not me, there's someone else there! as if theirs a stranger looking back at me and when I turn my head, no matter what angle I put it I still don't recognize myself.I used to think this is just something that all men experience but that they just don't talk about it, so I just brush it aside mentally. I remember I tried to make myself look stereotypically "Masculine" by growing out a goatee beard and wearing an undone button up shirt with a t-shirt underneath.I hated it. It made me feel so miserable looking at my self, it made me want to scratch my facial hair off so I shaved it off and went back to wearing hoodies.This changed when I shaved head bald and I felt a spark, because I looked how I wanted to I felt as If was looking at me and I didn't hate it, I liked what I saw.Being bald and looking at myself at that state made me learn that I have different mental images of my self when I go day to day, sometimes I would imagine myself looking a certain way and other times I looking like something else but when I would look at my self in my reflection wither it be a shiny surface or the mirror I world feel surprised, like I forgot that I looked like that?Just the other day I was in the bathroom looking at the mirror, I look at my face, and I felt it againI stood stillI looked into the strangers eyesHe was standing and looking at me tooI felt as if the mirror was a window to someone else's houseI felt a bit vertigoI asked him "is that you Asterix?"And the stranger asked me the same question and I felt as if he was speaking to me directlyI wasn't me!I started to panic!I asked him with my other names"Is that you Alex!""Is that you Jaime!"I wasn't me!I went to my room and looked into the cupboard mirror and looked at my self. I took my hand and put it front my head so that i wouldn't see my face. I didn't hate my body but when I slowly put my hand away to see the strangers face, I was frightened!I put my hand back were it was, I opened my fingers and I saw the strangers eyes, I was scared!I jump away from my reflection and held onto the cupboard door, breathing heavily with fear!____________________________________________________________________________________I think I realized that this isn't something a can just brush aside anymore, this is a problem. I don't think it's normal to think this way. I don't know why I feel this way but I do and I don't want too. I'm not looking for attention, I'm not writing a Steven king horror! This happened to me! So yeah I don't recognize myself in the mirror. Let me know if you have a similar problem of if you have eny advise on what I should do to deal with this? Thank you,~ TheBlackRabbit

Chronic Depression

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I feel like a failure, I recently got out of a major depressive episode with the help of therapy and a new antidepressant prescription. I was feeling really good but now I feel myself slipping back into that feeling and its so frustrating because I w... View more

I feel like a failure, I recently got out of a major depressive episode with the help of therapy and a new antidepressant prescription. I was feeling really good but now I feel myself slipping back into that feeling and its so frustrating because I was just telling my therapist how much better I am doing and she was really happy for me and I told her I don't need as much sessions. But now I feel like a liar and a burden because I don't want to worry my family again. I just want to be better. I don't want a bigger dose of antidepressants either, im so sick of medication. I want to get better on my own and not be dependent on medication to feel half normal. Everything is a failure in my life, my mental health, my relationships, my job is a joke. I started self harming again. I just want to be better.

How do I tell my parents I think i’m depressed

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So I’ve been really tired and upset lately (for like a year) and it’s getting worse and I want to tell my parents but struggle to verbally communicate about these things especially with my parents. They are really supportive and loving but sometimes ... View more

So I’ve been really tired and upset lately (for like a year) and it’s getting worse and I want to tell my parents but struggle to verbally communicate about these things especially with my parents. They are really supportive and loving but sometimes I’d just rather not talk about it because sometimes my mum brushes it off saying it’s hormones or natural teen moods and my dad gets angry or annoyed sometimes. I find it really hard to bring attention to myself and about my problems but I feel like I’m getting worse and should probably tell someone.I tried once to tell them but ended in tears (my own fault,) and unable to talk, then I shut off for a week.

I cant talk to my parents about it

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I cannot talk to anyone about my problems, even my parents and it sucks. I havent been diagnosed with anything because ive been too afraid to say anything about what im feeling but Ive been in a sense of emptiness, and loneliness, for around 3 years ... View more

I cannot talk to anyone about my problems, even my parents and it sucks. I havent been diagnosed with anything because ive been too afraid to say anything about what im feeling but Ive been in a sense of emptiness, and loneliness, for around 3 years now, when I started highschool, making me think I have depression and or anxiety.

lost in life

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hello to those who see this. im 19, almost 20 in march, and a transgender male (pre testosterone, still struggling with the system). i feel as if i have been on a downward spiral since a young age. ive been in the system since 13; anti-depressants, A... View more

hello to those who see this. im 19, almost 20 in march, and a transgender male (pre testosterone, still struggling with the system). i feel as if i have been on a downward spiral since a young age. ive been in the system since 13; anti-depressants, ADHD medications, therapy etc. etc. my depression has begun to contort itself into a boiling anger. not at my mother, not at the world, but me. at the end of the day i am the one doing nothing with myself and i know it. i know i am floating through my life with nothing but a bone-deep melancholy and an empty soul. i wish people could look at me and know the extent my anger, my sadness, my hatred of myself. i am not in my body. i am not the person i know i should be. i am not the happy-go-lucky golden boy i should be. i am a malicious, hateful shell of a woman. i wish i had the power, the determination of joan of arc. i wish i too could be burned at the stake for a cause, for something bigger than i am. but alas, i am a pebble in a pond far too big for me. i wish i knew how to take care of myself, to show compassion to myself. but i look at myself in the mirror and have nothing but shame. my skin is the colour of the flesh of an apple. my eyes are those of a man who has lost everything. my teeth are stained yellow, born from years of neglect. my body is that of a being starved of a fruitful life. i wish my life was not my own.forgive me. my point is that i wish there was more to life for me than sitting in a room and rotting away. the internet no longer brings me comfort. i want a life, a physical life. no more of this digital life i have manufactured for years.i dont expect many to know what to say to someone like me, but even just an attempt to talk to me would bring me just a little happiness in knowing im not so alone as i feel.

is it bad to have anxiety about paying rent my mum asks for

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I am 18 years and a female. I am the youngest of my family, my sister (19 almost 20) has crippling anxiety and my brother (23) has autism, i have anxiety and have suffered from depression. A few months ago i’ve turned 18, my mum has told me that she ... View more

I am 18 years and a female. I am the youngest of my family, my sister (19 almost 20) has crippling anxiety and my brother (23) has autism, i have anxiety and have suffered from depression. A few months ago i’ve turned 18, my mum has told me that she expects rent from me which is fair enough, i was expecting it. What i was not expecting was not getting a lot of shifts at work (yes i have been trying to get another or a second job) to be able to pay my rego on my car as well. My mum told me she is expecting rent from me cause i have a lot to owe, here comes the issue, my sister does not pay rent, my brother gets money from centrelink and pays whatever his share is which i’ve never seen proof of even i have asked. Back to the issue, as my mum told me that i have a lot to owe, i said i will pay it when my sister starts paying rent.. She then claps back and says “she does not have a job” i then say that she has been trying to make me pay rent since i was 14, my first job wasn’t until i was 16 because of my anxiety at that time. She did indeed go quiet. I try defending myself against her but she uses everything i do against me and i feel so upset all the time and im constantly stressed out. I go to my boyfriends house to escape mine and she had barged into my room the other day (i slept in) and asked me what the frick was i doing, that all i do is sleep and go see my boyfriend and don’t come home till late. Sometimes i cry at the thought of coming home, i can’t move out cause she won’t let me. My parents aren’t together, my dad is remarried (5 years now) but i don’t feel like that would help me as my step mum does not think kindly of me. does anybody have any advice as i feel stuck

Body Dysmorphia - OCD about a flaw on my face

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Hi, Ive always been a perfectionist especially when it comes to my skin, i always had acne growing up and then again as an adult which always bothered me and i have quite dark under eye circles, i would get huge anxiety and panick attacks and cancel ... View more

Hi, Ive always been a perfectionist especially when it comes to my skin, i always had acne growing up and then again as an adult which always bothered me and i have quite dark under eye circles, i would get huge anxiety and panick attacks and cancel plans if my makeup didnt go right or when i was younger i would not go to school if i couldn't cover it properly so no one would notice my flaws. Ive always worn makeup pretty much everyday of my life since a teen, and as ive gotten older (37 now) my acne has improved (after medication) but my dark under eyes have remained. I ended up getting filler about 8 years ago which filled in the hollows but not so much the darkness. it was good for a long time and i continued to wear makeup to cover the darkness and didnt worry too much. Well back in november of 2025 i decided to put more filler in there because the hollows had come back slowly over the years with ageing and i had wrinkles i wanted to fill out, this time i went to a different injector, it was a huge mistake, i ended up with a lump on my left side under my eye, which the injector then dissolved after a week as she believed it was overfilled on that side. The dissolver was only supposed to get rid of the lump but it did too much and led to going back really hollow on that side, so i was completely assymetrical and i was left in a panick and felt awful. I had to wait for 2 weeks and then i ended up getting it refilled but much more conservatively, it does not have a lump now but the skin under that side is now crepey and more wrinkly than the other side, it has lots of texture and is still more hollow compared to the right side aswell (given she didnt want to overfill again) i dont want to put more filler in if i coukd help it and when i went back for a check shes said if we did theres a risk i will end up with a lump again. So its been about 8-9 weeks now since the refill and it really bothers me, its all i can think about from the moment i wake up to the moment i go to sleep. I am constanly trying to hide it with makeup techniques to disguise the area, I feel like its so noticeable to everyone and i constanly am checking in mirrors and taking photos in different lighting to see if you can see it or if its changed or gotten worse. its really getting me down to the point i have really bad depression and anxiety now because of it. My relationships are suffering, my work life is suffering and i just feel awful and down all the time. I havent wanted to go out and i havent been able to enoy life or look forward to things like i once did. All i can think about is how i can fix the area but im too scared to try anything else incase it makes it any worse or even more noticeable. I have even looked into surgery to possibly fix it but this is very expensive. The thing is my friends and family and my children all tell me they cant even see what im on about and its not even bad or noticeable at all. They tell me to forget about it and they dont want me to do any more filler or surgery or anything as they dont think i need it but in my head its all i can think about. So why is it so noticeable to me? Its ruining my life and i know it sounds so petty but in my head its a huge deal. My rational part of my brain knows we all have flaws and no one is perfect but its really affected me. I guess im just looking for support or if anyone has been similar and what i should do to help myself without rushing into more procedures which could potentially leave me worse off?

Feeling self conscious

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I am grateful to have a great set of friends/family and I mostly enjoy uni. However I feel lonely and I tend to experience bouts of self hatred. I have noticed when I express something, I have a lot of thoughts like “why would I do that?” or “why am ... View more

I am grateful to have a great set of friends/family and I mostly enjoy uni. However I feel lonely and I tend to experience bouts of self hatred. I have noticed when I express something, I have a lot of thoughts like “why would I do that?” or “why am I like this?” Something that shocks my friends is that I have an intense fear of posting on social media, just the thought of it makes me freeze up. Simplest decisions become hard; I am really scared of sharing things like my favourite songs or dressing how I like for what people may think of it, although maybe it is just my shy introverted personality. As a lockdown teen, the other thing is I am really prone to falling down internet rabbit holes for so many different things. I worry about annoying my family/ friends and being a burden with my concerns about my health, even mental health and avoidance of things like food poisoning which can get pretty annoying. I also believe the internet has had a big influence on my identity and I am worried someone will see right through my strange and/or influenced ways (e.g. political opinions, romantic preferences, seeking help, topics of interest). Regardless, thank you for reading and I hope you are doing okay and taking good care of yourself

I’ve suddenly started to feel a strong hatred to people, whether it be randoms or people I know

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I don’t know how to explain it, but my patience and tolerance for things has decreased. I am only 16, and have felt like I hate everyone around me. I’m snappy, prone to slam things and punch walls easier, I’m quick to anger, I get angry over things I... View more

I don’t know how to explain it, but my patience and tolerance for things has decreased. I am only 16, and have felt like I hate everyone around me. I’m snappy, prone to slam things and punch walls easier, I’m quick to anger, I get angry over things I never usually got mad at. As soon as I see someone walk past me, I immediately start thinking I hate them. In school, I hate teachers mentally, I hate people at the gym, I hate my own friends and I hate my family. I treat fictional characters better than real people. Life is also dull, my passion for basketball is fading because I’m still a fat loser rotting in his room. ‘Go outside and play then’ easier said then done, when it’s always 35+ degrees where I live during summer and also I can’t go to the gym because I have to rely on my nana to pay for it. I don’t have a tax file number, I don’t have a bank, I don’t even have a phone. I barely passed grade 10 and I already feel like I’m going to fail grade 11. And if you are wondering, I prefer to be alone, I hate people a lot actually, like seriously a lot. Like I can’t stand living around people, to the point where I just lock myself in my room and only leave when I have to and people have the audacity to call me lazy?

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I wasn't me! | Struggling with my identity

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Chronic Depression

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How do I tell my parents I think i’m depressed

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I cant talk to my parents about it

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lost in life

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is it bad to have anxiety about paying rent my mum asks for

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Body Dysmorphia - OCD about a flaw on my face

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Feeling self conscious

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I’ve suddenly started to feel a strong hatred to people, whether it be randoms or people I know

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New to this Forum? Please read this first!

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hello and im not sure

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I wasn't me! | Struggling with my identity

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Chronic Depression

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How do I tell my parents I think i’m depressed

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I cant talk to my parents about it

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lost in life

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is it bad to have anxiety about paying rent my mum asks for

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Body Dysmorphia - OCD about a flaw on my face

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Feeling self conscious

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I’ve suddenly started to feel a strong hatred to people, whether it be randoms or people I know

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