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Meet your community champions!

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Hi everyone, We wanted to share with you the way that our wonderful Community Champions are here to support you. You may have noticed that a few of our Forums members are labelled ‘Community Champion’. Community Champions are volunteers within the Beyond Blue Forums who: have the time, skills and empathy to support other members regularly; help to welcome new members; are actively engaged members that help set the tone of our community. Our Community Champions are regular contributors to many conversations across the forums. They are a consistent and friendly voice that have committed to sharing their experience and expertise with this community. They are not health care professionals or clinicians. Like you, they have an experience with a mental health challenge or diagnosis – either for themselves or someone they care for. This forum is for people who understand what it feels like and have a lived and living experience of mental health challenges. Our Community Champions help everyone feel comfortable and confident by demonstrating what excellent peer support is all about. Click here to find out more about how you can become a Community Champion! This incredible team are excited to introduce themselves below, and we are sure you’ll see them around the forums in conversations important to you.

HELP..Am I posting in the right section?

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Welcome to those who are considering posting for the very first time, welcome. Thought I would repost part of the words that Chris B posted awhile ago, (2014) as I can hear that people are unsure if they are posting in the right section or worried that they are posting "the wrong thing". 1.A good title makes the difference Just like a headline in a newspaper, when scanning the dozens of threads to click into, it’s only natural that people will choose the ones that resonate with them most. A title that entices the reader, or asks a question, is likely to get a better result than something non-descriptive like “Depression” or “I don't know what to do”. If you think you’re not good at choosing titles, leave it till last. Spend time writing your post, then perhaps choose a sentence from what you’ve written as the title. 2.Join in threads that have already been posted We all have our own unique stories, but part of the reason for joining a forum like this one is because you know that you will have a lot in common with others who are posting. Before starting a new thread, have a look through the current topics being discussed and see if there’s a conversation you can join in with. It can be quite common to have a handful of very similar threads happening at any one time, with members seemingly unaware that there are others right there who are going through the same thing. Talking to other members on their threads is a great way of getting yourself known so that when you post a thread of your own, people may respond quicker because they recognize your name. 3.Choose the most appropriate section for your post Many people browse the forums looking for stories specifically to do with pregnancy and parenting, employment, grief, loss, separation etc. Going straight for the “Depression” section may seem like the easiest option, but this section is often the busiest, so your post is more likely to get lost among the threads. Making good use of the different forum sections not only helps keep the forum relevant, but you’re more likely to find others who are going through the same experiences as you. Also, if you're wanting to discuss issues of trauma, abuse, suicidal thoughts or self-harm, it's really important you post in the designated section to avoid triggering others who may not wish to read about these topics. Mostly..just come and chat, we are here for you. Our amazing wizards in the background will see your message ends up in the right spot. Sarah

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Hey peep's, I thought I'll introduce myself since I'm new to the forums. Well, I'm transgender and gay, still in the closet and will be until I move out of my home, I'm currently suffering from depression and anxiety, I get massive panic attacks, massive mood swings, I've been to beyond blue a while back, but decided to stop going as I lost the energy and motivation to get out of bed. I've decided I'm going back to my doctor eventually, as I've gone down hill, and have been feeling miserable hopefully, I'll be put on medication, to help me, if not than I don't know how I'll cope. I feel as I'm at my lowest point right now, hopeless, sad, isolated and everything I do results in my hating myself and feeling like I'm worthless. Been feeling very isolated, soulless and lonely lately, haven't had the motivation to do much, my depression got really bad around 15 when I discovered I was gay and transgender roughly the same time, I kept telling myself, no I'm not and denying it, but I've accepted it now and feel very guilty about it still. Although my depression is unrelated to my sexuality and gender, It did go downhill once I discovered it.

New member saying hello

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Hello everyoneI'm almost 43. I was first diagnosed with clinical depression when I was 19, since then I have had good and bad stretches of my life, sometimes years with 'being normal', then BOOM, something happens and I'm a mess and back to the bottom of the well. I've attempted suicide twice. The current stint of feeling worthless began around almost 3 years ago. I lost my dad and then my wife and I became pregnant all within 3 months of each other. That was the start of a very slow descent to rock bottom. Once I got back to my then workplace, I was bullied and ridiculed by my then boss, who ensured I was made redundant in a management restructure, whereas I was the only redundancy in a organisation of over 30,000 people. Since then I have struggled to find a point to my life. This has caused my wife and I to become more and more distant, our marriage is on the rocks and my belief is we are only together for our son. Throw into this mix the fact I am desperate to leave Australia and return home and she is desperate to stay here and not leave, and you have me as I am. Wanting to never wake up each day, having no support network, trying to find a reason to simply exist.So, that's my happy life in a nutshell.

Some Days Are Diamonds.

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Hi my name is Barry, but everyone calls me Baz. I'm 59 years old and was diagnosed with bipolar in 1992. In a way having a name for the feelings of nervousness and depression was a relief. I'd always thought I was just weak. I compared myself to others especially my three brothers all of whom I thought were better men than I was. When I look back to my teens I can see now that I was suffering from a mental illness. I moved from job to job. From relationship to relationship and as a result felt like a real failure. I was 40 when I was first put on anti depressants and mood stabilisers it was shortly after that that I saw a psychiatrist for the first time. Since then my journey has been very up and down, but then that is the nature of the illness. I've had quite a few stays in hospital and more recently a stay in a respite facility not far from where I live. Last year I was taken off anti depressants because the doctors felt that they were causing me to bounce from depression to mild mania. I remember thinking at the time, 'How will I cope without them', but the fact is I'm doing much better. In the past I'd get a bit manic and take on a new job in a flurry of mania, only to end up a couple of months later anxious, lost and severely depressed. For my wife and family watching me on this endless cycle caused them a lot of worry. After my last admission to hospital My wife and daughter convinced me to forget paid work and think about doing some volunteering instead. For once I listened to their advice and now volunteer at animal shelter a couple of mornings a week. I still have times when I feel that I'm not a productive member of society, but when these feelings arise I try not to fuse with them and so avoid a downward spiral. I guess for me my illness had two sides to it. Firstly the anxiety of everyday living and secondly some pretty unhelpful childhood memories. With the help of a great GP and the support of a community based mental health team I've been able to tackle my illness on both fronts. I've made peace with myself about things in the past and I'm trying each day to work on my anxiety. There's a line in a John Denver song that goes", Some days are diamonds some days are stones," and I reckon that's true for everyone who suffers from mental illness. I'm slowly learning that the secret is not to panic when I have one or two bad days. That life and living are about making the best of things despite being bipolar.

New to the forum

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Hi, I'm new to the forum and share my story after years of having it concealed. I'm 44 years old and have two children 13 and 10. My struggles started at 19 whilst at university but I didnt know what they were. I suffered from major depressive disorder and remember several things happening to me including riding around on trams avoiding lectures and tuts along with many other symptoms of depression including thoughts of shame, guilt. I finished my degree with all this going on but never sought help. My need to withdraw from people for periods of time or not being able to keep up with all of the socialising I put down to a personal weakness. One period of time which still hurts is after getting married at 27 to an amazing husband and father to my two children. The period of time I refer to is after the birth of my first child. I experienced my first manic episode, extreme euphoria and manic symptoms on day 6 of my childs birth. I remember instantly feeling lifted and only having 1 hour sleep roughly per night, pacing the house and sometimes running down the hallway to accomplish 'urgent' tasks. My brain was driving this insanity. My baby was putting on weight nicely, beautifully cared for by myself but I couldnt recognise that I was actually ill. I kept on the pursuit of looking after my babys needs and being the most nurturing mum. During my hospital stay I was convinced on day 2 that my breastmilk would poison the baby so I ordered formula and told the nurses it was best. When then enquired I got short with them telling them I'm in control of this but not revealing the reason. When we were at home I then started thinking the formula can was poisoned ordering my husband or 'instructing ' him with brute force to purchase new ones on my demand. Despite these behaviours I never sought help, my husband became worried but I kept telling him I'm fine. After all, the health nurse always complimented me on a job well done. When the mania ceased, my motor ran down to depressive side, feelings of extreme guilt took over. I couldnt leave house for a few months and only reconnected us to a local playgroup when my baby turned 10 mths. As my kids are now 10 and 13 I feel immense guilt and being diagnosed bipolar. They have been protected and I have never experienced mania again thankfully. I have been well for some time and my children are doing well in school and socially still the diagnosis and isolation in not tellling anyone still grinds at me.

Hello, sad and new to the site.

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A bad day and just want to feel connected to someone. I know in so many ways that I am lucky I hate feeling sorry for myself. A life time (30 plus years) of depression and medications have kept me here ... I have severe chronic health issues (though a new medication may help). My children are adults and have their own lives, I had to resign my job because my illness makes it difficult to work. My partner of 7 years, is lovely but very anxious and doesn't understand. His children don't see me as part of the family. I'm lost and struggle to keep my perspective.

cant stop crying

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Hi, I am new here. I have spent all weekend crying...cant seem to stop,,,,not unusual for me as I have done this in the past and I know it will eventually pass and I will come out the other end and get on with it....just wish stuff would stop hijacking me and holding me prisoner for days on end...sorry sounds overly dramatic but honestly I get so tired of this stuff and then pulling myself together and being the person everyone expects me to be. I am sure that people here will understand what I am saying (after reading some of the posts I feel safe expressing myself and I thank you all for the support that you give to others) it has encouraged me to speak. I have experienced anxiety and depression since my childhood and I am now 62. I remember as a child withdrawing and waiting, watching and trying to understand why I felt so upset and so alone and trying so hard to "fit". My story is sometimes hard for me to comprehend and understand and I was there, I feel others would probably see it as some sort of "soap opera" type thing...it has been one event after another...I really can not go there right now...I just have to rise above this overwhelming sadness. I have had counselling since my mid twenties, been on and off medication, read everything I could, done courses, asked questions, have a diploma in counselling and I consider myself intelligent and logical but that doesnt stop the dark times from creeping up on me and consuming me. I do understand I will always have this and I will always have to cope .....It isnt logical it just is. My family label me as over emotional and I withdraw and hide until I am in control again and can deal with "stuff". As I get older I have found it harder to cope as my life is not as busy and I am not needed....I had to give up work about 3 years ago due to an injury and that took structure away from me...working made me "pull myself together"....I volunteer now but have not been able to do anything for that last two months as I had a fall...but I am due to go back soon....not sure what triggered me this weekend, probably lots of things and once I started the familiar cycle had a life of its own. Well thanks for listening....deep breath...have a warm shower and put on my happy face and try to climb out of this pit...I can do it...been doing it all my life. Thanks again for this safe place.

New to the forums

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Hello my name is vince. I'm new to this forum. I am a 21 y/o in western Australia and i'm here hoping to find help in order to stabilize my mental health as its been going downhill destructively fast recently. I hope to get to know some nice people a... View more

New to all of this- what am i doing?

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Hey guys, Not sure what to say here... in a bit of distress at the moment but im sure it'll pass. My diagnosis is... a cocktail, along with my medication. But overall right now i have no reason to get up in the morning (so I don't), I'm super lonely. .. yeah i guess that's it. Some people would say to me "find a reason to get up. Find a hobby blah blah" but i know, a lot of you would know, it's just not that easy. I hope to connect with someone soon. In good health x

I feel happy! Like a weight has been lifted!

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Hey everyone! I've been lurking the forums for quite some time now, seeking help, comfort or guidance in that maybe some other people may have experienced or been in familiar situations such as myself and how they've dealt with it or recovered. I felt as though i wanted to get my experience out there in the hopes that it can be beneficial to other people who may be experiencing a similar struggle. I'll try and keep this fairly short and direct without going into detail as the character limit is quite small. Im currently 22 years old and have just finished my first year at university as a mature age student (being slightly older than the average student). I was bullied a lot through highschool, it hit me pretty hard and i had developed social anxiety and a mild form of depression. I didnt realize it at the time but i found it difficult to fit in, to go out and socialize in any forms and meet other people. I became very timid, not making eye contact and kept to myself. Although, if somebody talked to me you probably wouldn't realize it, i still spoke quite well - Introverted, but not shy. I met a girl in one of my study groups at the start of the semester and we bonded a little outside of classes. Going for coffee after class, having small talk, discussing classes, work, details about ourselves etc. It felt really nice, it had been a long time since i had genuinely had a conversation with somebody and feeling accepted. I felt as though id regret it otherwise, so i wrote her a note discussing my situation and that i had appreciated her company this semester and thanked her for helping me through a tough time. I didn't hear back from her straight away, and i didnt expect to. I know giving a note may not have been the optimal thing to do but i felt as though i couldn't do it any justice speaking to her myself so i felt as though writing would be best. Anyway, after the class exam she approached me and handed me a letter that she had written herself. Because of her, i was able to come to a realization in letting go of whatever resentment or baggage that once held me down and i felt unburdened and currently still do feel like my life has just started and i have the opportunity to start to regain control. To stop looking in the past and to get a sense of who i am and to finally start living! People like i once was, who run, will never have a real life until they change whatever it is about themselves that they're runnning from. Be happy with yourself!

New here - Introduction / a bit about myself

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Hi all,Firstly, I have come here as it seems like a great community of people who actually understand what mental illness is and how it can affect ones life.My story starts a few years ago when I nearly lost everything from a bad business decision. Our family home was almost repossessed as I ignored calls and shut off the outside world. I regularly contemplated suicide - but couldnt do it to my wife and children.Every day consisted of me putting on a brave face and telling everyone I was OK, whilst I was being eaten from the inside by depression, guilt , helplessness and loneliness. I turned to drinking quite frequently, and would often come home late just so I didnt have to face reality.I eventually took a few months out to clear my head and took back control once again - we kept the house and I felt great.A couple of years past, and life was not perfect - but a lot better.Earlier this year, we started experiencing some financial difficulty again - but nothing that we couldnt get through, however all the prior feelings I had experienced a few years ago came back a lot stronger than before. I choose to ignore them, but each day I started becoming more and more anxious - almost avoiding talking to anyone.My anxiety levels are at such a point where I have taken this week off of work, and I sit here typing this to share my experience and learn from others that have been or are going through similar situations.Thank you for reading!

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