Feeling hopeless
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Hi there, I haven’t posted on the forum before, but I’ve been going through a really awful time lately. I’ve been admitted to the ward twice in the last 8 or so months and have changed medications countless times over the last 8 years (when I was fir... View more
Hi there, I haven’t posted on the forum before, but I’ve been going through a really awful time lately. I’ve been admitted to the ward twice in the last 8 or so months and have changed medications countless times over the last 8 years (when I was first diagnosed with depression, which is now dysthymia with major depressive episodes, anxiety, bipolar tendencies, and the list continues). I’m in a really dark place lately. Feels like life is getting on top of me and I’d really like it all to end. I have a really loving family and partner and I’d never want to hurt them, so I guess I find myself stuck between dealing with my own hopelessness and suicidal thoughts, while feeling like I can’t go through with them because I don’t want to hurt my loved ones that way. I’ve tried around 6 different medications over my journey, and have been on my current one around 8 weeks. I feel absolutely awful, and I guess I’m losing hope that anything out there will bring me out of this dark place. The idea of feeling this way potentially forever is exhausting, and it’s so difficult to deal with the idea that I might be a burden to the ones I love for the rest of my life. I guess I’m posting here looking for hope. Has anyone on here experienced a tough and long journey with their mental health, tried multiple therapies and medications, etc. and come out on top? Any kindness would be much appreciated.