I've been writing a list of my symptoms because I am up for a "review"
of my pension with centrelink because of my age. This really doesn't
help (the stress of not knowing if I will be able to pay my rent next
week/feed myself and my son or worse, be...
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I've been writing a list of my symptoms because I am up for a "review"
of my pension with centrelink because of my age. This really doesn't
help (the stress of not knowing if I will be able to pay my rent next
week/feed myself and my son or worse, be forced to return to work before
I am well enough. I'm a single mother to a 3 year old, I can't take the
added stress of work (especially since it was my previous job that
pushed me over the edge with my mental health (years of workplace
harassment and excessive workload).A list of symptoms I had written a
week ago are here: Bowel issues- Dioreah, constipation, wind pain,
cramping, bloating, discomfort, pressure. Physical issues- aching, tight
muscles in arms, legs, neck, shoulders, back. Constantly hot/cold, head
aches, blurred vision at times, heart palpitations, dizziness,
reflux.Fatigued, trouble sleeping.Mental issues- anxious, stressed,
depressed, tired, irritable, lack of concentration, easily overwhelmed,
flashbacks/triggers cause panic attacks.Feel like everyone is looking at
me/talking about me,Will go to extreme extent to avoid going to certain
places eg major shopping centres, areas I used to frequent/live, public
transport.I can't stand feeling trapped anywhere eg, crowded places
where I can't get away quickly if I need to.Emotions tend to run high,
when I'm upset I feel extremely upset, when I'm irritable I sometimes
overreact. Thoughts can feel like they are consuming me- it's often
difficult to take my mind off problems.Trust issues, a feeling like
everyone is out to get me.Always looking over my shoulder.Constantly
worried about "tomorrow". So I seem to be getting increasingly worse
with the added stress (my appointment isn't until next week), I can feel
myself getting increasingly agitated, upset, depressed, anxious ect.
Thoughts of self harm are popping up frequently (I have no intentions of
following through but it's just not a nice feeling to have)I've been
feeling irritable with people close to me and I just can't hold myself
together. I had a panic attack until I vomited and I've just been
feeling really sensitive since.I've rang and organised counselling,they
can't see me for another month.It's going to cost $165 per hour which I
can't pay for if i lose my pension. I don't know how to calm myself
down. I'm so stressed I just want to vomit. I've recently had my meds
doubled, I'm hoping it should start to kick in soon. beyondblue's
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