Meditation, Manifesting, Gratitude & The Law of Attraction

CMF · ‎21-06-2020

Hi everyone,

Not sure where to start so hope I can express myself clearly and maybe with others' input we can expand on this. I'm interested in people's thoughts/ experience with meditation, manifesting, gratitude & the law of attraction. I've recently started using the Smiling Mind app to meditate when going to sleep and sometimes when feeling a little anxious, like tonight. It is something i thought i could never do as my mind rarely stops, however, with persistence, I find I enjoy it. I guess i tend to have a negative mindset which I am determined to change.I always felt uneasy about thinking positive things as i thought i would jinx myself, and that whenever I made a positive comment or felt happy it would go wrong or something negative would happen. So i refrained from allowing myself to be too happy, I guess to 'protect' myself. Recently i have been feeling happier, stronger, expressing gratitude and taking note of when things have come to me when i needed them. Coincidence, or answers to what i put out to the Universe? I like to think the latter. A work colleague one day told me to manifest something i wanted, put it out to the universe , so I'm trying. Example, recently we needed to measure the floor space at reception so we could calculate how many people we could have in at one time. I needed a tape measure, which i did not have. At that moment our handyman walked into the office. Guess what he had? I am getting into the habit of practising positive thinking instead of thinking/expecting negatives. If something 'negative' does crop up, it can be dealt with, it's not the end of the world. I look for the positive in every negative situation. I am becoming more aware of being grateful for little things, things like getting a good car park at work, a warn cosy bed, a tidy house. I feel when i am expressing gratitude I am putting positive thoughts out into the universe and I notice more positives instead of focusing on negatives. Late last week we had internet issues at work and a colleague i found a little annoying. I've been feeling very drained, agitated, negative for a few days. This morning things were not running smoothly for me. A result of my negative mind perhaps? Little things became a big deal, my morning was crap. If i look back, it wasn't really an issue, i just did things in a different order which gave me more relax time this evening. The Law of Attraction, positive thoughts, positive experiences.

What are your thoughts?

cmf x

CMF · ‎01-09-2023

Also, 3 is a significant number for us for various reasons. This weekend it is our anniversary, father's day & his late Father's bday while he is in his dad's home town. There have certainly been lots of signs whilst he's been away.

CMF · ‎02-09-2023

I've also noticed it was a long, slow week for me. Their first 10 days away they were with family. Busy every day & night catching up with people. This week they relaxing by the beach. Doing their own thing. It's been more "holiday mode ' as they've slowed down but my week felt slow also.

Richju · ‎02-09-2023

Dear CMF,

I agree with everything you say. Meditation has been the greatest thing in my life. I began at 35 and still do 3x15 minutes practise a day. I had a severe breakdown at four years old and was an a solute mess until I began my meditation practice. I'm now seventy two and almost normal now!

Keep going CMF. There's much in life to be grateful for.

Warm regards,

Richju xx

CMF · ‎03-09-2023

I'm anxious & confused. I had a beautiful message to send for our 5th anniversary. It said i hope we find places to go & make our own memories etc. He called & I mentioned being home sick. He doesn't get home sick but mentioned I do. I miss the routine etc. So I guess he doesn't miss me, the routine of being with me on weekends. Having too much fun. I debated whether to send my message as his reaction would tell me alot. He sent a video of his boys doing cheers on the beach & wishing me happy anniversary. I commented they looked like they didn't want to do it. He said they were embarrassed as people around. I asked if he had any comments about my message. He sent 🥰. So I'm feeling hurt. I wore my heart on my sleeve & he crushed it. Then I saw 444.

In terms of love, the
appearance of 444 angel
number is often a sign of
stability and harmony in your
current relationship. Your
angels may be trying to
remind you that you are in a
strong and healthy
partnership, and that your
love is built on a solid
foundation of trust and
respect.

therising · ‎03-09-2023

Hi CMF

I'm so glad you found reassurance in divine guidance. Btw, I smile while imagining the embarrassment of his boys. Kids are so fearful when it comes to what others think of them. Society tends to have that kind of impact, not just on kids but adults too. Ahh, to be completely fearless of judgement, hey. The amount of convincing it must have taken to get his boys to do that is a reflection of how much he cares about you.

I suppose people can miss us but be too busy to miss us all the time or super intensely. They may be too busy feeling so many other emotions besides the emotion known as 'longing'. They can still sense that energy in motion (emotion) known as longing, within themself, but not necessarily at super high volume. I think sometimes too how others can still fill a strong connection to us no matter where they are but don't feel longing through that connection. Maybe they feel a sense of intense love through it instead. As long as that connection or channel is open, we can feel a whole stack of different emotions through it. I believe we can send emotions through it too. For example, you can be thinking about someone you haven't seen in ages and all of a sudden they phone while beginning the call with 'I have no idea why but suddenly you just came to mind from out of the blue'. Funny how so many people use the phrase 'From out of the blue' but don't necessarily give a lot of thought to it. In some cultures 'the blue' is along the lines of 'the ether'. While invisible, so much exists within it and travels through it. An interesting concept. Perhaps nature give us a kind of wi-fi. If so, the question remains 'How to tap into it?' 🙂

CMF · ‎03-09-2023

Hi therising

I'm do glad you saw my post & gave me your insight as I feel so lost. I feel like he stomped on my heart from the other side of the world. I saw the video as a cop out. A way to not acknowledge my feelings & respond himself. I think he read between the lines & didn't like it cos it makes him acknowledge that we haven't had holidays together or that his sister crowds our space. I hesitated to send it as I was nervous for the reaction. I think I gor what I expected. Avoidance. I've been wanting to book another card reading but was waiting till after I sent my heartfelt message. I definitely need it now as I'm lost & hurting.

Cmf

CMF · ‎03-09-2023

I also knew he'd make a comment about the time. It was 4.30am when I commented about his son's & he said 'Happy 4.30am'. I'm do confused. I feel I know how he'll react, good or bad. Is this a good thing? Maybe the distance is just making me overthink & I'm scared when he returns he'll act like he was never gone & he & sis will carry on with sis as per normal. I'm scared it didn't make him think or open his mind at all about the last 5 years.

therising · ‎03-09-2023

Hi CMF

You love beautifully and intensely, the sign of a passionate person. Not sure if it will be of any help but I found that's the way I used to love my husband until I realised he didn't love in the same ways that I did. He loves in calmer ways or you could say more sedating ways, compared to me. He loves through hugs and kisses and verbal expressions of love. I love to love through a shared sense of adventure, laughter, imagination, a sense of wonder and and through the path of an open mind, open to possibilities and potential goals to be reached together. They're more of what I'd call 'high energy' emotions. While the following sounds incredibly blunt, I suppose it's because I reached the end of my tether after 20 something years of marriage and trying so hard and not being loved to life in high vibey ways. I said to him 'Your form of love feels more like some form of sedation rather than excitement'. Yes, blunt. For years I was longing to be loved through a mix of excitement and peace and didn't necessarily realise it. His response to me expressing what I'd found at times to be a depressing, soul destroying and heartbreaking lack of excitement was 'That's just not me, that's not who I am'. I think we can suffer through 1)a lack of excitement and 2)our partner choosing to remain who they see themself as (as opposed to discovering new aspects of themself or bringing some old much needed aspects back to life). Sounds a little self absorbed but I think sometimes it feels like 'Dude, you're doing me no favours simply loving me in the ways that suit you and you alone. I'm just not feeling the love in ways I can really relate to'.

So, you can put your heart out on your sleeve while in a state of excitement (in regard to how you really feel about someone) and in response feel a much lower vibe from them. You can feel the sudden 'downshift' to where they are. That doesn't change who you are though, 'I identify as a passionate lover or certain people, even the low vibey ones'. I found the question to be, in my own life, 'Do I want to keep coming down, to meet him on his level?'. While compromise is a good thing at times, it's typically only good if people are coming up to meet us half way a percentage of the time. I refuse to regularly go the whole way down to meet someone. 'Down' is no place to remain, in order to suit someone else. Maybe you've hit the nail on the head and up, for him, means shifting his consciousness to a higher level so he can see (imagine) and feel (sense) the lack of adventure and quality alone time from your perspective. There can definitely be a lot of uncomfortable and confronting feelings to be faced within the shift up into a higher state of consciousness. Some people don't like to feel those feelings yet the question remains 'Do they want to become more conscious or not?'.

CMF · ‎03-09-2023

Thanks again,

I saw he was online so called as we are both in 03/09. Our anniversary. He asked how I slept so I told him. Not well. Told him I sent what I thought was a beautiful message & got no response. He did say he was on the beach & couldn't read it properly. Anyway, I made my point. My message tells him how I feel & what I expect. Up to him to acknowledge & meet me half way.

therising · ‎03-09-2023

Hi CMF

It can be a challenge to open our partner's mind to reason. Whether they see good reason to express noticing the time of year or time of day (as they know this is something that will bring us joy) or they see reason for expressing to us why they could not manage something due to a challenge they may be facing at the time (such as divided attention), either way these are expressions of them being less unreasonable and less closed minded.

Overthinking or deep reflection, whatever it is we're facing in a relationship, time out for contemplation is an opportunity to make better sense of things. Definitely feels like a form of torture sometimes, all depending on what part of us is thinking or reflecting. While the analyst in me will pick everything apart down to the finest detail (in the way of pure logical analysis), the stresser in me will set off my nervous system, the optimist in me will only be conscious of everything that's good. The critic in me can be down right brutal at times, that's for sure. The inner sage has such a zen-like feel to it. Such a lovely feeling.