Meditation, Manifesting, Gratitude & The Law of Attraction

CMF · ‎21-06-2020

Hi everyone,

Not sure where to start so hope I can express myself clearly and maybe with others' input we can expand on this. I'm interested in people's thoughts/ experience with meditation, manifesting, gratitude & the law of attraction. I've recently started using the Smiling Mind app to meditate when going to sleep and sometimes when feeling a little anxious, like tonight. It is something i thought i could never do as my mind rarely stops, however, with persistence, I find I enjoy it. I guess i tend to have a negative mindset which I am determined to change.I always felt uneasy about thinking positive things as i thought i would jinx myself, and that whenever I made a positive comment or felt happy it would go wrong or something negative would happen. So i refrained from allowing myself to be too happy, I guess to 'protect' myself. Recently i have been feeling happier, stronger, expressing gratitude and taking note of when things have come to me when i needed them. Coincidence, or answers to what i put out to the Universe? I like to think the latter. A work colleague one day told me to manifest something i wanted, put it out to the universe , so I'm trying. Example, recently we needed to measure the floor space at reception so we could calculate how many people we could have in at one time. I needed a tape measure, which i did not have. At that moment our handyman walked into the office. Guess what he had? I am getting into the habit of practising positive thinking instead of thinking/expecting negatives. If something 'negative' does crop up, it can be dealt with, it's not the end of the world. I look for the positive in every negative situation. I am becoming more aware of being grateful for little things, things like getting a good car park at work, a warn cosy bed, a tidy house. I feel when i am expressing gratitude I am putting positive thoughts out into the universe and I notice more positives instead of focusing on negatives. Late last week we had internet issues at work and a colleague i found a little annoying. I've been feeling very drained, agitated, negative for a few days. This morning things were not running smoothly for me. A result of my negative mind perhaps? Little things became a big deal, my morning was crap. If i look back, it wasn't really an issue, i just did things in a different order which gave me more relax time this evening. The Law of Attraction, positive thoughts, positive experiences.

What are your thoughts?

cmf x

CMF · ‎03-09-2023

Synchronicity. Quite often, infact a lot, when I look at whatsapp he is either online or has just been online. In sync or maybe he's just bust chatting to alot of people. It actually does my head in. Who is he chatting to all the time everyday?

CMF · ‎04-09-2023

After a restless night I see 5.55am

the angel number 555 is associated with change. This could be a change in location, change of job or a relationship change. When it comes to five, it is a dramatic number, said Summers. Five energy can bring about "itchy emotions" and an overall sense of restlessness.

CMF · ‎04-09-2023

I had a card reading tonight & lot was put into perspective. Amongst it all it showed our connection ie all the signs I've been receiving.i do feel better. He called tonight, back in his dad's home town where it's not so much hustle & bustle & I can sense it. He sounds happy & things feel calmer. I feel as I did at the start of his trip. I was very unsettled when he was in his mum's part. Where they stayed was busy day & night which i don't like & I must have picked up on that energy.

Feeling much calmer 🙏

CMF · ‎10-09-2023

More signs. I have a necklace that he gave me for our 1st Xmas. It has 3 charms on it. 3 is a significant number for is. I took it in for repair after he left as the clasp was weak. They stuffed it up. One charm was back to front so it was sent back. I will probably get it back end of this week, when he returns. Took 3 weeks. He goes, necklace goes. He returns, necklace returns. I have 2 turtle doves that nested in a little nook on my back pergola few years ago & had babies. I messaged him this morning & said 'you're on the home stretch. Can't wait to see you'. I looked out the windows & the doves were back. When I look 1 always flys closer to the window, 1 stays on the nest. Wow. What signs 🙏

CMF · ‎10-09-2023

The week I went to pick up my necklace & it was wrong was the week of my meltdown. 3rd week of their trip. I hope the stronger clasp means a stronger relationship too. 3 us so significant for us. Anniversary 03/09. Together after 30 years. 3 of us in the relationship cos of sis. She is on her 3rd & hopefully final bf where she can move on. He was a Catholic school teacher. Father, son, holy spirit. Both our houses are multiple of 3. He's on his 3rd car. I've had 3 changes to my work set up. It just goes on 🥰

therising · ‎10-09-2023

Hi CMF

Exciting times with him coming home soon. Am so happy for you.

Mind, body, spirit. When those 3 are humming along in unison, the world feels like our oyster. A beautiful feeling, for sure. The best. ❤️

Richju · ‎11-09-2023

Dear CMF,

Yes, three is the number of fairy tales! Very best of luck to you all.

Richju xxx

CMF · ‎15-09-2023

A few 555's lately.

Love growing stronger. Itchy emotions...

CMF · ‎24-09-2023

Wow. Itchy emotions all right. I think it's over. He bought me a necklace from o/s. It had a short chain & choked me a little. I wore it with my other chain Friday & sis said 'you've layered it like 'we' wanted'. That was it. I can't deal. When I took them off the tangled. We had a nice Saturday night but today I went to put on my necklace, the original one & it was all tangled. The necklace with 3 charms, like 3 of us, tangled. The earrings he have me last bday were two rings 'intertwined like us' he said. I've been wearing them but now one won't clip closed. All these signs, not good ones. Today it came to a head. It all came out. He agreed he takes me for granted, that he's not as invested & he wants to be but can't. Doesn't know why. He said he knows he should have missed me more while he was away but didn't . All these signs, the numbers pointing to change. The necklace, the earrings. I gave him his necklace back, the one from o/s & told him I'm sorry I wasn't enough. Now he has no job, no idea what he's gonna do & no me.

Oh why? Was it never meant to be? Again? 😥

therising · ‎25-09-2023

Hi CMF

I wish there was something I could say that could lead you to feel inspired during such a torturous time. Nothing quite like the feeling of inspiration to ease a great sense of pain. My heart goes out to you.

Something else I wish for is that he had given you an answer when it comes to why he couldn't be more invested. I think anything would have been better than nothing. Stuff like 'I don't have much energy these days, to feel with' or 'I just feel down' or 'I can't see the way forward and I just can't feel any sense of direction' etc etc. This is one of the frustrations I have with my husband: Whenever I seek reason for why he thinks or acts the way he does at times, what I'm met with is 'I don't know'. It wears thin after some years. These days I'm inclined to say 'It is your job to know yourself'. CMF, I think sometimes the frustration we can feel can be related to all the hard work we put into coming to better know our self, why we can become so down at times, why we can become so anxious or stressed, what all our triggers are, how we can gain more energy and develop a stronger connection to life, how we can develop the skill of being reason able and the list goes on. I think it's reasonable to expect that those we share relationships with dive into a similar sense of wonder and exploration, as opposed to simply responding with 'I don't know' while leaving it at that.

While you insisted on growth in the relationship, perhaps he was not prepared for such growth. Whatever was/is holding him back, whether it be his sister, not wanting to move out of his comfort zone or something else, you deserve growth in ways that feed your soul. A lack of growth (aka comfortable sense of sameness, with little to no change) can definitely feel soul destroying at times, especially for those who seek to evolve.❤️