I'm really trying to feel better about myself

[Music_Freak]

I don't know where to start with this, there's so much in my head right now...

I've got nothing, but my cat...no job, no friends, far from a family priority etc. etc.

My mum died 10 years ago on 26.2 and I still miss her so badly, she was the only person I had who was in my corner. Everyone else (family, friends that currently aren't talking to me) say I play the victim and am all "woe is me"

My sister's said I look like a silverback gorilla and other such things. She's a bully who gets away with it all, because she's the favourite and "normal" (kids, married, no mental illness - although I have doubts about that last one). My dad's called me fat and said that "You're bent like your mother" (she was bipolar). He lives with me and getting him to do anything is such a battle, he doesn't feel like paying the rent, so it's left to me, goes to work when he feels like it, helps my sister with her house but won't with me etc. etc. etc....I could go on and on with them!!

I have a GP and a psychologist that I should go back to (sessions are free and they're within walking distance), but I wonder if it's worth it when my psychologist said me running an instagram account for a celebrity is me living in fantasy land

I won't write any more, because I can't see anyone replying. I've got nothing and nobody and just want to forget...

[Music_Freak]

Birdy, thank you for your reply and what you said about my mum. I actually had a little cry about her not being around to see what I'm doing earlier, before I read your post.

My exams are 50-60% weighting, so I'm pretty nervous and stressed. I'm actually ahead of schedule in my revision too, which is a worry. I was meant to finish tomorrow, but finished today. And still have five days to revise for my group work exam, which is Friday (the first on Monday is for applied psychology). I'm going to put all my notes on my phone and listen over and over...maybe it will sink in enough!

I don't know what kind of reward I should get, but it's my birthday on the 29th as well, so may be worthwhile.

Chikkenleggs, I'm sorry to hear about your health (and also sorry for my delayed reply), but I learned in applied psychology that such a diagnosis brings out a persons inner strength and positive attitude after the initial shock, so I'm sure you're there by now. Cancer stole my mum from me 11 years ago, so smash the big C and kick it to the kerb for me 🙂

[smallwolf]

Hi MF,

Have faith in you re your exams. You have passed your assignments, completed a group assignment... You can do it!

Tim

[Music_Freak]

Thanks Tim,

I don't have much faith in myself, so needed to hear this. I guess worst case scenario is that I fail the subjects and have to repeat the subjects. Psychologist says this isn't the end of the world, but still hoping I get through them with a pass grade.

Got a credit for the group presentation, so that's something...

[Music_Freak]

Sorry, I meant to say fail the exams and have to repeat the subjects...my brain is malfunctioning already 😞

[Music_Freak]

Exam tomorrow morning...oh my god...

I have major issues with switching from subject to subject with revising, can't seem to do it at all. Not sure how to fix that...

[Guest_820]

Good afternoon MF + Birdy77.

Thanks so much for your thoughtfulness + kindness shown to me by your Encouraging Words of Comfort which is Truly Appreciated. 🙂

Any Trials any of us may Ever Face in Life Isn't Always Easy YET with an Positive + Optimistic outlook, it can help to Overcome Any Fears.

That doesn't mean our challenges will come to a sudden halt, But we CAN look at things from a different vantage point. Having a positive outlook CAN HELP ALL OF US TO DEAL with Our Own Personal Challenges in a Better Frame of Mind..

MF + Birdy77 this Challenge isn't new to me. Yes, I do have Fears just like anyone else who have Their Issues to Contend with whether it's uni jobs relationships + so on. We need to be STRONG with the support from our friends family & Our Own Self Dermination. It's part of our genetic makeup.

The BB forum is Also An Excellent source of Encouragement to help each other with Those Challenges

We support each other....

Well Done Everyone!!!

MF after reading your posts, you seem lack of confidence in yourself. Since you're studying applied pyscology there are various methods that You CAN BOOST YOURSELF....

Write down Positive Affirmations on Sticky Notes + put them around the place, in the car or wherever, Reminding Yourself, Telling You, You're a Worthy Human Being Who Makes Mistakes Just Like Anyone Else Does + THAT YOU CAN TRY + DO YOUR BEST.

Should you Ever Fail, it's Not the End of the World.

Take each day as it comes. You have Other Excellent Facets that you can draw from..

Appled pyscology is Supposed to Teach You That...

Thanks again MF + Birdy77 for your support + keep up with your good work.

Take care

Chikkenleggs 🙂

[Music_Freak]

Thanks for posting Chikkenleggs.

I'm trying to keep the nerves, stress and anxiety in check, but feel like I'm failing really...oh well, exams are over for me after Friday (thankfully I only have two)...just have to get through this week, somehow...

I'm studying social work (applied psychology is only one subject) and wonder how it all fits together at the moment. I might think clearer post exams, maybe.

[Guest_820]

Hi MF

It's only natural to feel a measure of stress, nerves + anxiety whilst undergoing any task which seems to be rather daunting especially at examination time.

I personally had a similar this afternoon where anxiety levels reach out of control.

Good coping mechanisms did the job to help me settle down again.. 🙂

You had said that you're studying social work + applied psychology is included. In any field of social work applied psychology is a necessary subject.

What area of social work am I looking at here, please?

Take care

Chikkenleggs 🙂

[Birdy77]

Wishing you calm this morning for your exam MF.

Just do your best.

Remember to breathe.

It will be over soon.

Whatever happens, even if it does not go well, everything will be ok, promise.

You can do this.

🌻birdy

[Music_Freak]

Thanks Birdy 🙂

It went OK, stressful though. I think my passing is 50-50...

I don't get my results until the 8th...the waiting will be hell