Hi everyone, I'm back.

[Guest_4643]

Hi everyone, mb20lover here. I wasn't sure where to post this.

It's been a while since I was on the forums, so I just wanted to make a post saying that I'm back. However, I'll try my best to limit my time, comments, etc on here.

I won't bother tagging anyone, and I'll try to keep this as my only open thread that I have created.

I've missed everyone I've spoken to on here, and I hope to talk to some new people. I have been using my offline supports - my Psychiatrist, GP, Parent support of course, and a Social Worker. I'm in the process of finding a Psychologist but I'm having no luck.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in and say hello, and also I hope I haven't upset anyone on the forums or anything like that because nothing was intentional, so I deeply apologise.

An update on me, I recently turned 21, can't do much with COVID though, it's a hard year for everyone unfortunately.

I also have a milestone, an achievement, I've been seeing my Psychiatrist for a year which is the longest I've stayed with a therapist. And I also finally have a GP I feel comfortable with. I'm on different meds that seem to be working a little but I still of course have my moments, but these meds I've been on the longest for out of any of the ones I've tried.

Other than that, please don't feel pressured to comment anyone, although it would be nice to connect with some people, old or new, but like I said that's okay. I just wanted to check in.

If you've read this and made it this far, thank you. Stay safe and take care everyone, as much as possible with the unfortunate COVID circumstances.

Thinking of all the Beyond Blue Mods & Users. I've missed everyone.

- mb20lover.

[Sophie_M]

Hey Tayla, 
 
Thank you for sharing this. We're sorry you're feeling ignored. We don't want you to feel that way, so please know that extra support is always here for you when things are feeling like too much to cope with.

Please remember that immediate support is not available through these forums.  They're moderated, so posts made will not appear straight away. For immediate support, we'd urge you to reach out to the Beyond Blue helpline 1300 22 4636, or you can use our webchat or email here.  
 
We'd also recommend checking in with our friends at Kids Helpline (1800 55 1800), Lifeline (13 11 14), or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467). It can make a real difference having someone to talk to. These are all available as webchats, also:

• Beyond Blue 
• Kids Helpline 
• Lifeline 
• Suicide Call Back Service

 Is there anything you've been doing that makes you feel better that you could share with us? You mentioned your favourite music and shows, would you like to share more about those? 

Please don't feel alone, our helplines are here for you. We really hope you find some comfort and distraction around the forums.  

Kind regards, 

Sophie M 

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Tayla....

I’m sorry your feeling ignored...I feel a little way as well...I have and are here for you.... I feel you do want want to talk to me....maybe I’m not your age group but I do care about you...

Like you lockdown doesn’t phase me..I only go out once a week to my volunteer job and a bit of shopping....

Sophie has given you some really good contacts..Please Tayla if you feel really overwhelmed, please give them a try...

I am sorry I haven’t been of any help or support for you...but I still will keep trying to support you, because you are in need of it...only if you want me to be...

My kindest thoughts..

Grandy..

[Amanda2000]

Hello!

Just read your post dated 8/8 now. Yes I can certainly relate to the feeling when no one is responding in this space. I often wonder whether anyone reads what I write. But then again - the writing helps me so I suppose the latter is only secondary. It would be good if there's a chat function and we can see who is online at the same time.

Re your American "friends", I recently had an incident where a co-worker (who used to be my friend) made some rude and aggressive remarks over the phone to me. I was going through a very tough week. That incident left me feeling shattered for days. I know it was not worth getting upset over but I just couldn't shake it off. When my emotions had settled down a little and I was able to think rationally again, I tried to step into my co-worker's shoes. Basically those remarks came from a very insecure person who has a miserable life of their own! This person would not have dared to behave in such an unprofessional manner in the office in the presence of other people. It might be the same with your American "friends"?

I'm also struggling with the lockdown. I can't stand having my family at home 24/7. I need my space!

Hope you're feeling a little better today! Giving you a virtual hug.

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Tayla....🤗..

Just popping in to ask you how your feeling.?

Love with some hugs 🤗🤗 and care...

Grandy..

[Jstar49]

Hi Tayla, Hi Grandy and all,

Tay, I'm going to start with your response to my question, what du want...And thanks for responding to it. You said...."Just one family member (other than my parents), and just one friend, i'd be happier"

And then, straight after that post, on the 4th, Grandy posted a lovely, helpful, stand-up -tall-and-love-yourself- first kinda post, which you didn't respond to.

Now, I'm not brilliant at making friends, but I do know that, to have friends, you have to recognise the ppl in your life that you already have. Honour them, appreciate them, and invest in that relationship. Grandy takes the time to be kind and caring to you becos she cares about you,I think it would be nice if you recognised and responded to that instead of focusing on how alone you feel. Who knows, from little things big things grow.

It's said that gratitude, the energy of being thankful, can trigger amazing things in ppl's lives.

I'm not suggesting you wish your way back to health, but maybe, by turning twds the good things, the lovely things, your face will grow sunnier......like a sunflower (my fave flowers).

Take care Tayla. It's not easy, but you can do it.

Cheers,

J*

[HamSolo01]

G'day Tay

Was thinking of you today and how you have been. Haven't been on bb forums for a while.

see ya round mate 🙂

Looking forward to hear from you

[Guest_4643]

I haven't even been on the forums, on any thread for ages. I've been struggling a lot so I don't come here. I'm not ignoring anybody, I just haven't come on the forums at all. No need to attack me for no reason because i didn't respond. I barely even come on the forums anymore.

Grandy, you do help, and it doesn't matter about your age, of course I want your support, thank you.

Amanda, hello. Sorry about your friends. I don't care for the ones i mentioned much anymore.

J, i found some of your comments harsh, such as the ones where I could at least respond. Yes you're right but I haven't even been on here otherwise I would've replied at the time. I'm not ignoring anyone. Sometimes I'm not sure what to say but that doesn't mean I don't wish to respond or care, because I do. So I found that harsh.

Hams, hello, thanks.

[Guest_4643]

I'm not going to check the forums again, but thank you for the support. I do appreciate it regardless. I see your point that I could've responded J but I've been struggling & in a dark place. Just because I don't come on here & update, it doesn't mean that I haven't been working on things, I have, including your suggestion about focusing on the people I do have, including those on here.

I'm going off here for a bit.

[Guest_1643]

Hey Tayla,

I think on the forums no one can really to be sure if you or any user is online, available, needing support, etc, sometimes ppl may need a little encouragement to keep writing and responding, so acknnowledgement of the responses might just help u get more traction on ur thread.

I'm glad you can take a break if that works for you and that you have things youre working on and other supports that you find beneficial. Keep well!

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Tayla...

I really hope that you don’t leave these forums...

You are a lovely member of our community...

Please sweetheart....remember that we are here for you, whenever you feel to pop back in..,,

Most importantly, Tayla, please be gentle on yourself and give yourself plenty of self care...

!y kindest thoughts always Dear Tayla..

Grandy...👼🕊