Hi there, I hope you’re well & that today has gone well for you. This is
my first time posting here, and I guess it’s because I’ve hit a
roadblock. A mental roadblock one could call it. I was diagnosed with
depression & anxiety 8 years ago. Initially...
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Hi there, I hope you’re well & that today has gone well for you. This is
my first time posting here, and I guess it’s because I’ve hit a
roadblock. A mental roadblock one could call it. I was diagnosed with
depression & anxiety 8 years ago. Initially counselling helped a lot,
for a few years I was genuinely happy. Around 2 years ago however my
mental health took a huge turn, mainly due to anxiety issues, I was
prescribed antidepressant and that’s been amazing. Anxiety issues are
essentially gone. (10mg, daily) However over the last few months,
depression has really begun to set it, I don’t feel worthless or
anything like that, just empty. I don’t have a strong relationship with
my parents, they separated when I was 8 (I’m now 24) and they’ve both
decided life is better exploring their own paths. I’ve made peace with
that, I still respect & love them so much. I do miss them however -
quite a lot. (There’s no bad blood between us, they are just
encapsulated in their own lives & seemingly have lost interest in me.) I
have an incredible support network, that I don’t utilise. I just can’t
and it’s not a pride or ego related issue. It’s more to do with not
wanting to burden one with my problems, I don’t know how to get over
that. but I digress. The issue now is that no matter how much I progress
in my career, physical activity, relationships, or personal endeavours -
the depression does not fade. (I don’t expect it to, and I understand
mindset is a significant factor, but I am 100% a glass half full kinda
guy.) I do not have high wants or needs in my life, I live quite
minimalistic in a sense mainly to keep things simple. I am literally
beyond grateful just to have been born & raised in such a beautiful
country. I must admit I have considered ending it, I won’t deny that,
but I do love life so much. I enjoy helping others, and that alone is
enough to keep me around, at least for a while. My question for you
today is, how do you keep going? What internal factors motivate you to
move forward. I’ve hit a point now where I am not sure if that drive is
within me to keep pushing. What also gets me down is that plenty of us
feel like this, all for our own individual reasons. I’m not certain if
this makes complete sense, but would it be reasonable to seek assistance
from a professional? Thank you in advance, I really appreciate any input