Hey guys. I'm back again. and I’m now trialing more antidepressants not
sure if I’ve mentioned it but I’ve tried a few medications that ended up
giving me really bad anxiety and the other one extreme tiredness. so now
I’m waiting to see the doctor to...
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Hey guys. I'm back again. and I’m now trialing more antidepressants not
sure if I’ve mentioned it but I’ve tried a few medications that ended up
giving me really bad anxiety and the other one extreme tiredness. so now
I’m waiting to see the doctor to change antidepressants. i also suffer
from autism and schizophrenia because one mental disorder isn’t enough
for one person apparently. and I’m really struggling with the problem of
things never going to be okay or perfect. I find the idea of having a
life less than what I want it to be extremely hard to deal with and it
causes me a great deal of suffering. i see my cousin having this
beautiful lavish life filled with three houses, cars for the entire
family, three two week long vacations and expensive purses along with
the trifecta of health, good looks and love and I am very jealous and
envious of her. I want that, I want to experience the good life, a life
of wealth and health. happiness in a word is wealthy to me. sure wealth
doesn’t buy you happiness but it makes life a thousand times better. and
the thing about me is I’m poor, I’m in poverty along with my mother, I
hate having this broken down stuff, the fridge, the slow and weak, thin
water etc i wish for a better life and it’s not just the wealth, it’s
the health, her and all her kids have great health. buy I don’t, I’ve
got mental and physical conditions. I’m sad all the time especially
because of my lack of energy, the fact I cannot even get out of bed,
shower, cook, clean, work etc I’m on the pension. i have no friends and
no family besides my mother and those on Facebook. i have no lover and
no past relationships, I’ve never had a boyfriend. And I’m over it all,
I also especially hate my side effects the dry mouth, the hunger, the
weight gain, the inability to enjoy a night out because I can’t drink.
its terrible so I’ve come back seeking more advice. what should I do? I
have asked for various advice before but all about bits and pieces now
here is the whole story. what would you do in my situation? when things
will never be perfect, when I will always be unhealthy and poor and
chained to my meds like a slave to the medical community?