Hello! Not sure how to start... I feel like my life got stuck at some
point and I run out of motivation to change it. I live quite
comfortable, thanks to my husband. He is amazing and does everything he
can to cheer me up. But I often feel sad and fe...
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Hello! Not sure how to start... I feel like my life got stuck at some
point and I run out of motivation to change it. I live quite
comfortable, thanks to my husband. He is amazing and does everything he
can to cheer me up. But I often feel sad and feel like I'm wasting my
life, thinking about everything I could be doing, but I don't have the
energy...We have everything that we need but we could be better
financially. We have some debts so there isn't much spare money and I
feel bad that I'm not helping. Sometimes, the only productive thing that
I do in a whole day is a load of washing. I've been living in Australia
for 6 years, the only job that I could get since then is sales
assistant. I've applied for hundreds of jobs and never got a successful
outcome. I had a career before, I used to have confidence that I could
achieve things, but now I just feel like I'm dumb, I'm boring, I'm
inferior, I'm not good enough. I'm currently studying a Master and I
constantly feel that everyone is smarter and they are taking the course
way better. I'm struggling to focus on my assignments because I have a
lot of anxiety and worries about failing. I also feel that I don't
belong, that I am the "spare" friend. I never had too many friends
(still have some good ones overseas) but I feel like I'm not good in
terms of building strong friendships. I'm 35 and I'm feeling completely
lost and that I didn't do anything significant in the past few years.
There are some situations that I feel sad to remember because I couldn't
feel the plenitude of the moment, even if it was something really great.
I was feeling empty. I find it hard to stick to a routine, get into
hobbies, be motivated to exercise and finish whatever I started. I'm
just tired of doing things the wrong way and not doing my best (or not
doing enough) to achieve things. I still dream with a better version of
myself, living with purpose and sharing the weight of the
responsibilities with my husband. I look my photos from 5 years ago and
I was glowing, I miss being that person but I don't know what can I
do...