Kia Ora, I am a 16-year-old boy from New Zealand and just immigrated to
Perth as of 23rd of December. I am going to rant, so thank you for
reading this if you do :] My sister, parents and I immigrated to Aussie
for the "better life-style." Better lif...
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Kia Ora, I am a 16-year-old boy from New Zealand and just immigrated to
Perth as of 23rd of December. I am going to rant, so thank you for
reading this if you do :] My sister, parents and I immigrated to Aussie
for the "better life-style." Better life-style my ass. The only thing I
enjoy is the beach, and I can't go down there without my mum and dad
worrying about sharks. Anyway, I come from the country-side and find
myself thinking about the long wavy grass in our paddock, and the fresh
cold air that would clear my nose as I stood outside in the mornings. I
miss it. I eventually moved to a small town in NZ where my old high
school was situated and it was lovely. I could walk down the street to
my mates' houses. I could get chicken and chips with them! I can't
anymore. Here I am. In this foreign place. Everything is so distant from
me, despite being in a suburb close to the city. I was extremely
confident (not in a cocky way) and was never insecure. That changed as
soon as I got into this new school. Everyone has great hair and
beautiful faces. I find myself worrying about my looks. Not only that,
but I fear people don't like me. I have that fear, despite making new
friends. They are lovely. I don't have to worry about a single thing
with them. When we split to do our things, I get quite lonely. I made
friends before these kinder ones. Though, one caught feelings for me,
but never dated me. We aren't fond of each other. She had a tendency to
insult me or made me feel stink about myself. She is mean enough to say
"Ew," whenever she sees me. She tends to whisper to people whilst
DIRECTLY look at me in the eyes, and sometimes she will even point. I am
getting EXTREMELY anxious when walking around. This is because people
stare and rarely approach me. I sit by myself in the middle of my
classes (apart from two which my friends are in, which is nice). In
these classes, I find myself getting bored or worrying about completely
different things. The only one which I hyper focus on is Economics, and
it is pretty fun and simple. Unfortunately, there is no Accounting in my
school, which is what I did in my old one. I chose History due to the
absence of Accounting (ps. History is interesting but it isn't fun for
me). Idk, lol. I would love to explore more of Perth; though, I am
trapped in our rental house, so instead I am at a table 24/7 indulging
in some lovely ADHD (I feel that I have it, not diagnosed, got autism
tho lol) burnout thingmabob because of the insane workload. My dad is
usually on swing. My mum is reluctant to go places and I love her too
much to get mad. Also as stated before, the school workload, hence why I
am trapped. Perhaps this immigration will be my "growth" journey or
something, lol. I was definitely happier in NZ. I apologise if this is
hard to read along as I tend to write with no specific order, by that I
mean I will write random things as they come to mind. I have a bit more,
though I don't know the word count lol. I also should sleep... school :[
I know my situation no where near amounts up to someone else's problems,
but I just wanted to share because I feel it would alleviate some
anxiety and stress or perhaps make me see the light of it. Nga mihi nui,
thanks for reading this :]
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