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Recently got diagnosed with ADHD in year 12 and I keep spiralling

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Sorry if this keeps getting posted, my phone keeps freezing I recently got diagnosed with "severe combined ADHD" (as the psychiatrist put it) and generalised anxiety disorder After struggling for all of high school, my mum took me back to get tested ... View more

Sorry if this keeps getting posted, my phone keeps freezing I recently got diagnosed with "severe combined ADHD" (as the psychiatrist put it) and generalised anxiety disorder After struggling for all of high school, my mum took me back to get tested (I went in year 7 but was told if there was actually something wrong I would’ve been tested earlier, and I was likely faking it as it was a “fad after lockdown”) and I got diagnosed with ADHD and GAD The psychiatrist I see for the medication kept giving me different types with the same effect. Essentially all would work at first and pretty well, I felt like for the first time I could do my schoolwork with ease, but then I would get crippling side effects when it wore off, and they would wear off faster. For my earliest ones, I would spend class with such debilitating headaches and brain fog that I couldn't function properly. I spent my exam block trying too hard to concentrate but then the medication would start wearing off and it made work near impossible. It also made it near impossible for me to do my job too. But at least cause they were short acting I could just quit them and stop taking them cold turkey I'm now on a different medication, and this has been by far the lowest l've felt so far. The previous dose gave me severe side effects in the morning where I was an actual zombie, but in the afternoon I could function perfectly. Then weeks later the severe crashes began to happen, and they were horrific. The crashes are tearing me apart. I can't control my emotions at all. It's like I'm a host in my own body every single night when I wear off. I have huge breakdowns, just sobbing and begging for this all to end, or I have fits of extreme anger where I scream all night and toss everything, and I've put holes in my wall. My mum is scared. Every little thing sets me off once I hit the crash. Off the medication, I get severely depressed, I can't do anything, and knowing that something could help me function but it isn't working makes me even more depressed The psychiatrist gave me medication to help when the crash happens, and otherwise told me to take it as needed, but it doesn't help. I crash before I realise to take it, and taking it during the crash doesn't help. I don't know if this is just from the stress of exams/life or the medication, but the exams are only going to get worse and I can't function like this I’m so behind on my schoolwork from being off or being too sick to pay attention, so trials and the hsc will be so much more stressful Last Friday he told me there's essentially there's nothing more he can do, either grin and bare it, go cold turkey, or go to hospital for a while Now I feel utterly helpless

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How to talk about feeling?

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Hello! I'm Ever,I'm in year 10 and for 2 years now i feel like i've been really struggling everywhere; school, friends, self image, studies, family. Nothing to warrant immediate concern but everything's been building up so much it hurts. I've always ... View more

Hello! I'm Ever,I'm in year 10 and for 2 years now i feel like i've been really struggling everywhere; school, friends, self image, studies, family. Nothing to warrant immediate concern but everything's been building up so much it hurts. I've always been anxious, shy and have really low lows in my life already. Including panic attacks that and SH that i haven't been able to talk about how i wanted. Last when i tried to seek help from a counsellor i was brushed off, i'm wandering if it's my fault or i've blown it out of proportion or if my feelings are even relevant, i can't ever seem to tell others where they come from, even writing this i can't express myself.Anyone know how you actually talk about feelings like that? Or know what's going on, basically i could use some tips regulating my mental health, i spiral easily and am impulsive, terrible mix.

Why did I force myself to go to uni?

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I've been set on going to uni for as long as I can remember. I think it's because my mum never went and she'd always done so much for me, that I wanted to make her proud. From a young age, I always tried to get good marks so she'd be happy. Then high... View more

I've been set on going to uni for as long as I can remember. I think it's because my mum never went and she'd always done so much for me, that I wanted to make her proud. From a young age, I always tried to get good marks so she'd be happy. Then high school came along, and that no longer became possible. Especially with COVID, my motivation began to decrease, and I slowly stopped trying. Fast forward to last year, I finished year 12. I ended up with better marks than expected and was able to get into a uni in my dream city. I thought that since I'd finally be doing something that interests me, I'd be able to work harder. I was wrong. I joined uni without really knowing what I wanted to be in the future. I've always been a procrastinator and being in uni would never change that. I started off well, passing all my classes and even getting HDs. Now I'm at the end of Trimester 1 and I feel like giving up. I find my courses dull and excessive, which I should've expected as no one said uni would be easy. For some reason, I didn't think this would apply to me. My depression and anxiety are worse than ever before. I hate myself for forcing all this pressure onto myself. It doesn't help that since I'm in a new city, I have no friends I can easily talk to. All I have is my mum who knows nothing of this. Right now I'm writing this with 3 overdue assignments due 4 days ago. I don't know what to do. I feel stuck. I know I should just lock in and do it, but my brain is telling me "what's the point?" and so I just sit around and watch youtube instead and drown in self-pity. I hate that this is my reality. I hate that if I don't hand anything in in 3 days time, I'll get a 0. I should've never enrolled. I was never smart enough for it anyway.

Bullied and betrayed

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I made my first ever highschool friend on orientation. We hit off, she's amazing. Lets call her K. K and i were close and our group grew a lot from 2 people to 16. She is funny, kinda dark but your stereotypical teenager. She fit in the crazy side of... View more

I made my first ever highschool friend on orientation. We hit off, she's amazing. Lets call her K. K and i were close and our group grew a lot from 2 people to 16. She is funny, kinda dark but your stereotypical teenager. She fit in the crazy side of the group and lunchtimes were so funny. I ignored many things that she did, subtly fatshame us even though she's also overweight herself. Openly racist to the point i followed suit. Which i deeply regret now looking back. She started to fatshame my friend, telling her to commit suicide and get weight loss medication. Photoshopping her onto a fat mans body with blood and knives and needles everywhere. I was scared but i loved the few friends i had left so i took them under my wing, standing up for ourselves and telling the teacher with all the evidence i could rack up, screenshots, chats, timestamps. This was over the course of weeks and weeks of hard work and meetings and late nights. In the end, we won, they got their punishment and i felt so accomplished. The "friends" i kept under my wing? they betrayed me. all 6 of them. saying the punishment was too harsh, doubting their futures and being concerned that it would impact their future jobs like "what if they wanted to be doctors and a suspension or expulsion won't let them" keep in mind i have a super close "friend" who was also a victim alongside us which was around the same level of maturity as me and i thought she would back me up. I was wrong. She went along with it. It was the last day we were ever going to spend together at school, i was leaving for holidays and she wasn't going to be here next term because she was moving schools. I couldnt keep going on that day. i put my goodbye present in her bag and begged my mum to pick me up. I did. I only spent half of my last day with her. After coming back from my holiday and spending it fighting with my parents and ignoring all thoughts about school, it came back to me, making me break down and scream and shake and cry uncontrollably. I detached from the friends who were still going my school, the one i was closest with too. Today something happened at my mums work and she's upset. I took that into consideration and unpacked her bags, cleaned her room and went back to comfort her. Im thirteen by the way. I talked to her but she ignored it, asking how my chiropractor session went today. I told her the details but she cold and rude. I broke down 5 times in the last hour because she said, "why are you so sensitive?" Im. DONE..

Rant about my life in university <3

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I started university and I have met so many people but I just am struggling to connect with anybody on a deeper level. I'm not actually friends with any of these people. I know these people but I don't KNOW them. AT THE SAME TIME, I'm realising I mad... View more

I started university and I have met so many people but I just am struggling to connect with anybody on a deeper level. I'm not actually friends with any of these people. I know these people but I don't KNOW them. AT THE SAME TIME, I'm realising I made NO highschool friends, but it seems i'm gradually drifting from all of those too. How the hell is this possible? I get FOMO so bad now. I don't get invited to group stuff anymore. What even happened in my life to screw up so bad that nobody wants to be friends with me. The issue isn't that I'm not meeting people because I'm meeting people. God, I feel so fucking lonely. I feel so lonely and I don't think anybody cares how I feel. And recently, it feels like my best friend has stood me up twice even though it's probably just miscommunication but I'm just upset. I'm upset because I'm already alone but now I can't even rely on my best friend. I can't rely on anybody and I am by myself and alone and I am alone. I went out the other day, great stuff, and I came home and I just don't even feel happy. I don't even feel happy when I go out. I run so I can forget about stuff. The only time I feel good is when I'm dancing to really loud music in my room or when I'm drunk. Thank god I live with my parents because otherwise I would be drinking and going out for runs at night. Bless my parents. I just don't understand why it feels like nobody cares about me and if anybody would stop to check in on me and see how I was doing I would really appreciate it. I didn't even have that many friends in highschool either. I went out w/a guy and that has made it even worse because i'll think about him whenever my life is shit and then i'll get even more sad. the worst part is if my social life sucks, my work and grades should be good right? no. somehow all aspects of my life are going shit right now. I'm grateful for everything I have (my parents, a roof over my head, my sister, food) but god. GOD. I literally cannot do this anymore. I just gotta get used to having no friends because this is some real world shit but HOW is my friend making ten times the amount of friends I am. HOW am i losing all my friends. I am alone and I want to cry but I can't even cry so it's just a hollow pit in my stomach. And don't give me no optimistic bs because i've already heard it. I don't care. Worse bc my problems are small compared to other shit. no, i dont have rent, bills. I gotta suck it up and stfu.

I dont know how people do this.

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I'm in year 10 of high school and honestly don't know how I'm gonna keep doing this for the rest of my life. Getting out of bed every day just to go to school where i get constantly bullied and always feel judged is killing me and I've got so much go... View more

I'm in year 10 of high school and honestly don't know how I'm gonna keep doing this for the rest of my life. Getting out of bed every day just to go to school where i get constantly bullied and always feel judged is killing me and I've got so much going on i cant be happy for anything. My dad despises me, my mum is so stressed with work that she yells for no reason, my dog is dying soon etc etc. (For added juicy context, i have diagnosed anxiety so that's fun) My dad also wants me to get a part time job on top of allat but hell no. I honestly feel like i need to be placed in a psych ward because i literally have no way of coping for this. And i cant even talk to my parents because my mum is so busy and my dad doesn't believe in anxiety or depression or anything like that. Maybe its my medication, but everything just feels so dull and i don't know how I'm gonna survive like this. All i want to do is go back to bed and never wake up tbh

Specific Phobia Help

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Hi, I'm a 17 year old student (girl), going into year 12 next year. I'm not really sure where to start, so I'm just going to start rambling. While not officially diagnosed, I'm fairly sure I have a Specific Phobia (arachnophobia), as I have all the s... View more

Hi, I'm a 17 year old student (girl), going into year 12 next year. I'm not really sure where to start, so I'm just going to start rambling. While not officially diagnosed, I'm fairly sure I have a Specific Phobia (arachnophobia), as I have all the symptoms. It is limiting me. I am too afraid to go outside at night, my family are complaining that I never use the telescope they bought me, and don't really believe me when I tell them why. I really wish I could, but... Whenever I enter a room I have to check everywhere for any spiders, and if I see one I can not enter, no matter the size or distance (not so bad if it's a giant room, though). I have panic attacks when I get into a situation where I can't escape (lol when they're in between me and the door). It's ridiculous, I don't know why I'm afraid of them, I just am. I really, really wish I weren't. I feel faint whenever I come near a spider, and it gets worse if I can't get out the situation until I fall into a panic attack. I'm terrified it's going to happen at school - it nearly did once but I got away haha. The thing is, I've heard of the treatment things that work (the CBT thing), but I can't really trust anyone enough to ask. Whenever I've told anyone (best friends or whatever), all that results is them making fun of me for a few weeks until they get bored (pretending there's spiders on me or whatever). I feel like arachnophobia is just something no one believes is actually real. My family would never believe that it's actually serious, even mum who witnessed one of my panic attacks I think thinks I am exaggerating this. So how do I get rid of this stupid anxiety disorder thing, if I can't even trust anyone to take me seriously? P.S. anyone else with arachnophobia experienced being in the middle of a shower and a spider 'attacking'? xD!

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I don’t really like my friends at school. They keep running away from me and ignoring me/ running away from me. When I write this down it sounds so childish but it really affects me and I don’t know why they did that. One girl is so incredibly condes... View more

I don’t really like my friends at school. They keep running away from me and ignoring me/ running away from me. When I write this down it sounds so childish but it really affects me and I don’t know why they did that. One girl is so incredibly condescending and thinks she is better than everyone and is always trying to find something to make fun of me for. Another girl has pretty much stopped talking to me bc we don’t have any classes together any more. And the last one is kinda weird. Ik she has a lot going on but she’s not getting the help she needs. And she’s hard to be around bc she’s really negative and always apologises. I get why she’s like that but I’m like girl if things are that bad you need to reach out. Idk if this is stupid it’s just frustrating.

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My brother is living with me for the moment but he's homeless. I need him out of my house as he's having a big issue with alcohol and I have a young child in the house. He does not have a job, he has no place to go and I need him out. He does not lis... View more

My brother is living with me for the moment but he's homeless. I need him out of my house as he's having a big issue with alcohol and I have a young child in the house. He does not have a job, he has no place to go and I need him out. He does not listen to me at all and wants to do things on his own terms which doesn't work for me because I don't like having the alcohol or a drunk person in my home and around my child. What can I do ? Who do I talk to? How do I get him in his own place even though he has no job? Someone help

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Recently got diagnosed with ADHD in year 12 and I keep spiralling

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