Suggestions for Help
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Hello, I am in a dark place in my life. I am struggling to be taken seriously by those around me. I am crying out for help and have started visiting a Psychiatrist, however I was placed on medication and sent on my way. I feel myself changing into so... View more
Hello, I am in a dark place in my life. I am struggling to be taken seriously by those around me. I am crying out for help and have started visiting a Psychiatrist, however I was placed on medication and sent on my way. I feel myself changing into something that scares me. I am losing control of myself and I can feel a monster building inside me. I have always thought about hurting people in revenge because of how they hurt or took advantage of me... But I was always able to somehow suppress it, due to my gentle nature. I have stopped working because I fear what I will do in response when people disrespect or bully me. Now, I am no longer Mr. Nice Guy... I can feel something deep inside me that is roaring, it is telling me to respond with violence, to hurt people to show them I am serious. I have been to my GP, I have been to a health retreat, I have been to a Psychiatrist, I have tried seeking advice in chatrooms, I have tried a holistic approach, I have tried being open and honest with everyone around me as to how I am feeling, I have tried contacting Lifelife, I have tried everything to be heard. I have not been diagnosed with anything despite spending every last dollar of my savings on professionals, but they just say the same thing - take these pills and be healthy. But I am healthy. And I do take the pills. I don't want to go to jail, I don't want to hurt anyone that does not deserve it.... But there is only so long I can fight a burning desire inside me to do something unspeakable. Please, does anyone know if I can admit myself to be thoroughly assessed and NOT just sent on my way within a few days? I just want to get better and maybe one day live a normal life. I don't want to go to jail, but it seems that is the place I am going to end up and if that's the case, I might as well go out with a bang you know?