OCD and Anxiety sufferer introduction.
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Hi, I was diagnosed about eight years ago. I was 35 at the time, and we just had our first and only daughter. This is when my anxiety and OCD thoughts started to overtake me and my mind thought of vulgar behaviour and anxiety that came with it. Altho... View more
Hi, I was diagnosed about eight years ago. I was 35 at the time, and we just had our first and only daughter. This is when my anxiety and OCD thoughts started to overtake me and my mind thought of vulgar behaviour and anxiety that came with it. Although I would never have gone through with any of it, it scared the hell out of me. I thought I was going crazy, mind racing whirling over and over. Eventually, I got referred to a Psychiatrist who put me on some heavy anti-psychotics, making me a walking zombie, I was also put on another medication to help with ongoing crushing headaches. My initial diagnosis back then was Schizophrenia and OCD. Later we moved to Queensland, got a new GP, saw him as I needed a script for my medication, usually do not give out scripts on the first visit, but he trusted me at the time and is now my regular GP. I wanted to come off the medication and we started my taper, this is when things went bad for me again, reducing it my mind started playing havoc again, thoughts swirling around non stop head feeling like it was spinning as well as feeling agro or frustration against small things creeping into my head, short with family and my 8-year-old daughter, I was going insane. I felt like I need to go live somewhere in the bush secluded and away from everyone, as I reflect, likely because I hated myself being this way to my daughter and family. I went back to my GP and told him some details and was referred to a Psychiatrist in Queensland, who diagnosed me with severe OCD and anxiety. We tried another medication for a bit, and that wasn't working, just put me to sleep and tired all the time. I was then placed on another medication and remain on it, I did try dropping the dose, and my mind started racing once again. Being on this medication has helped tremendously in regards to the whirling and intrusive thoughts. I am also on other medication to help cope with work in a contact centre where you get abused most days. Am looking for new work in my primary field of expertise. I have been off one particular medication now for about 3 weeks, so that is a win, GP said that this was likely masking some of my mental health issues as well so coming off this brought it out so we could then treat the proper symptoms. Some days like today I want to go and bash something or break something. Have settled now and calmed down. TY