Hello, I've decided to join these forums today and share my experience
after having my first appointment with a clinical psychologist and
discussing the possibility that I may have Bipolar disorder, and trying
to express my issues with this illness. ...
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Hello, I've decided to join these forums today and share my experience
after having my first appointment with a clinical psychologist and
discussing the possibility that I may have Bipolar disorder, and trying
to express my issues with this illness. I had seeked her out,
specifically, because she was the only psychologist that listed having
'experience with Bipolar patients', along with vague text about being
able to make 'assessments' and 'diagnosis' for clients. So, I believed,
this was the best place to start my mental health journey with, what I
now believe, is Bipolar disorder. For reference, I'm 18 and have been
feeling definite symptoms since 11/12, and this runs in my family. I did
not go into this appointment with any prior expectations, but I came out
feeling invalidated. Straight away, she noticed I had ticked the
'Bipolar' box, and we talked about what I was feeling. Her tone, and the
way she approached what I said / diverted the topics, made me feel like
she wasn't acknowledging my problems. I felt like this because, after
everything I had said to her, she mentioned that 'this doesn't sound
severe / drastic enough for Bipolar' - specifically referring to my
elevated state, which she mentioned: 'this is how normal people feel'.
She never talked about mental illness, or even Bipolar in general. She
latched onto, and told me, that: 'people feel how you're feeling because
they eat crap food, take medications, and don't exercise'. She also went
on to say that: 'it would just be best, if people didn't have Bipolar in
the first place'. How is this supposed to help me at all? I acknowledge,
like any person would, that a healthy diet, good exercise, good routines
and (generally) a lack of UNNEEDED medications benefits everyone. But I
really did not like how she went about this. What about the people who
have this chronic illness? What about those suffering from something
like, Schizophrenia? Are you going to tell them to get off their
medications, eat a healthy diet, and go on? I found this pretty
insulting, not just for myself, but for those that are actually
suffering with these things. I felt like, ultimately, she didn't
'believe' in these mental health issues, and that everything can be
fixed with a healthy lifestyle. I hope these feelings of mine are
justified. I came out of this initial appointment feeling as though my
last 8yrs of dealing with my inner turmoil was nothing.