I believe I have suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my
life, some stages have been worse then others, and lately I have been
going through a really bad patch. I felt like it was putting a lot of
pressure on my fiance and that was the la...
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I believe I have suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my
life, some stages have been worse then others, and lately I have been
going through a really bad patch. I felt like it was putting a lot of
pressure on my fiance and that was the last straw. Recently I went to my
local GP to seek help, he straight away told me that medication wouldnt
help me without even asking any questions, at first I wasnt overly
worried about his comment as I am unsure if I want to try medication due
to the fear of becoming dependant on them. He gave me a referal for 6
visits to a psychologist whom only worked during the week so I had to
take time off of work to go see her, he told me to have 2 sessions with
her and then come back. I went to two sessions with the psychologist,
she was lovely but quite un helpful. The first session she just listened
to all my problems/stories nodding and agreeing like "oh yes that really
would have been awful" but not giving any advice, I felt like it was a
big waste of time because talking to my friends gives me more
satisfaction. She told me to make a vision board and write my problems
on a piece of paper and put it under my pillow. The second session we
spent doing her techniques for dealing with my thoughts, one was to name
5 then 4 then 3 and so on things I could see, feel, smell and hear
around the room, another was to picture myself standing near a river and
writing my problems on leaves and floating them down the stream. I am a
very logical person and I just felt like an idiot doing this, we didnt
even get through an hour session. I am hesitant to go back to the same
doctor or even a different one in fear of the same thing happening
again. I felt like he almost didnt believe me that I was depressed or
thought I was only there to get medication and now I have been very put
off of the whole seeking help idea. I feel as though I was doing a
better job by myself talking to my friends but I know that this can only
go so far and wont help me improve past where I have been before, which
unfortunately is still depressed. I was wondering if anybody has any
advice or has gone through a similar problem?
advice for finding a psychiatrist
