Not coping after disclosure

[startingnew]

Please help me. Im really struggling.

last night i disclosed something that ive kept with me for 2 years now. Im already struggling with ptsd anxiety and depression but the event that i disclosed also comes under ptsd.

I rang a hotline and the first time in 2 years ive spoken about it and im so embarrassed and ashamed. I hate myself and blame myelf for it. And im terriffied! !

[monkey_magic]

Hey Startingnew/butterfly wings/ wild wings,

Some things in life aren't easy to stomach, it's really OK.

You're doing incredibly well despite all the moment to moment, day to day and month to month challenges. It's reassuring to know that you have others in your corner too. ( Big Pepper cheers, what a gal).

I occasionally read along, because like you I get busy too, but been writing more on the forums recently- it's rewarding hey, can be scary, but I'm over that now. I see you around too.

Love that blue butterfly 🙂

We have many difficult decisions to make in life- like having a life of our own.

Just want to wish u luck and want u to know I have confidence in you to make those decisions.

There will always be things in life we don't always get correct straight away and sometimes we make the same mistakes over again but there does come a time when things can be easier or simpler. The world is a big place to explore. Things won't always be the same SN.

I called you wild wings because of your connection to animals, especially horses.

Love MM x

[Lici]

Hey startingnew (and everyone else in the thread and reading along 😊),

I'm sorry to read that things are so difficult for you at the moment. It sounds like you really need a break from it all. It makes me mad too, your family should start taking responsibility for themselves. You're your grandad's carer not everyone else's!

Something in your posts piqued my interest. As I'm into bird photography, seeing you say blue Willy wagtail got me wondering. There's actually no blue Willy wagtails, so I changed my display picture to see if what you're seeing looks like the photo I've taken. I'm pretty sure what you're describing is a type of fairywren, the amount of blue will tell me what sort if it does look like my display pic (once it goes up). They're one of my favourite birds! They live in little family groups and have such personality about them! You're so lucky if you have them in your yard, I wish I had them in mine!!

I hope things look up for you soon!

Hugs,

Lici

[Birdy77]

Dear SN,

It sounds like the universe is starting to shake you into wanting your own life.

That's a really awesome and powerful thing.

Just give it time.

There will come a time when it will shake you up so much that you have no choice but to make changes.

You are here for your own purposes, not just to make everyone else happy.

You have your responsibilities now, and that's ok, but other people do not have the right to impinge upon your good nature.

If you can stick to your actual responsibilities, and put up some boundaries around others, it will help you. It will feel strange at first, but it's worth it. I did not learn this until I turned thirty so ... if you do, you're ahead of me!!

Thanks for your message elsewhere. I'd rather leave that thread for when needed, if that's ok for now, as it's not in long-term, don't want to clog up the system of that makes sense? I always read yours and Pepper's and others that you're regularly on if you want to get in touch. Hope you understand.

Be well.

🌻birdy

[startingnew]

Thank you my wonderful friends for your posts, im abit 'blank' tonight but i VERY MUCH appreciate each and every one of you and the time you took to post to me.

Im not feeling well physically everythings seemed to happen all at once including my teeth, foot and now 'womens issues' (or mentally) tonight so am going to try for an early bed. hopefully more than an hr tonight would be great! ill come back to post in the morning if thats ok?

sending much love, hugs and butterfly wishes to you all

xoxoxoxoxox

[Ggrand]

Hello,little butterfly 🦋,

I wanted to visit you, and find out how your doing it’s been a while since I seen you around the forums...and I’m a little concerned about you..lHow are you feeling little butterfly?...

I hope your feeling better then okay...

Sitting here with you little butterfly, just bought you a few little treats..🍫🍧🎂🍬🥨🥦🥕⛄️....

Love and hugs...💜💜🤗🤗.

Grandy..

[demonblaster]

Hey SLD 🤗 hoping your poor bods giving you some reprieve.

Just a quicky to tell you I continue to follow your progress and as you know love care and thoughts often.

Hold in there sweetheart it sounds like some positive stirrings happening for you and your situation. How you're feeling and agree fully with our tweety you're your pops carer not everyone elses.

Be good to yourself love and you thought I'd forgotten didn't you 🍫

🤗extra one for more strength

❤ night darl/s

[Peppermintbach]

Darling Wild Wings (thanks M_M for that lovely name),

You sound really exhausted. Take your time with things, including posts...

Just sitting with you quietly to make sure you have company...

Sending warm, squishy hugs and much love

”Dusk till dawn”

Pepper xoxox

[demonblaster]

Hey SLD popping the kettle on, sorry I know it's early...

Apologies was just reading back and it wasn't Birdy (tweety) unless back further saying youre pops carer not everyone elses (you blow me away tweety, love ya heaps 🤗) but whoever said it I agree.

No rush or need to reply to either of my posts.

Hoping you're still enjoying your crotcheting, both would be getting pretty big now cause your Aunties was.

Have a better today love. Enjoy nature look around where ever you are take in all in with nice slow deep breaths and say relax on the way out darling.

Look after your bod hun, nice and gentle on it, if it means a jobby takes longer that's ok it's still getting done but not at your bods expense.

We have quite a mist here or probs a dew. Almost gauranteed a perfect sunny peaceful day after those or frosts. Birdies chatting away happily close and afar with their amazing voices. Priceless

Woke way too early so back to bed soon and more sleep with luck. Hoping you're managing more these days and feeling more refreshed

See ya darlin ☺🤗 ❤ love care and thoughts (LCT)

[startingnew]

Thank you for your posts guys

i dont want to worry anyone, its just hard to talk......

[demonblaster]

That's ok SLD really no pressure and thanks for the message.

Try darling and it's so hard but we can do it to think of other things too. Yesterday I was up and down in a mini mania and experimented starting with A in the alphabet thought of any word/s, not negative either neutral or positive eg; apple thought about it, what it looks like that they taste nice colours then another could be Autumn thinking about leaves colours on trees weather etc then B could be a bee balloon etc I got little happies and of course distraction and it wasn't hard work. You might like it hun.

The mist lingered ages, I'm not so sure it was a dew but not 100% of the dif, I think dew leaves moisture in the grass and mist more hazy and atmosphere.

So this end of the worlds goung to sleep now slowly quietening down as the sun sets ever so gently and peacefully, birdies nearly all settled in their branch beds nice and comfy that I hope you feel and sleep peacefully darling.

You've always got love LCT ❤💗 and many friends here Starts. 🤗😚

Take your time love with everything 🐣