I'm really trying to feel better about myself

[Music_Freak]

I don't know where to start with this, there's so much in my head right now...

I've got nothing, but my cat...no job, no friends, far from a family priority etc. etc.

My mum died 10 years ago on 26.2 and I still miss her so badly, she was the only person I had who was in my corner. Everyone else (family, friends that currently aren't talking to me) say I play the victim and am all "woe is me"

My sister's said I look like a silverback gorilla and other such things. She's a bully who gets away with it all, because she's the favourite and "normal" (kids, married, no mental illness - although I have doubts about that last one). My dad's called me fat and said that "You're bent like your mother" (she was bipolar). He lives with me and getting him to do anything is such a battle, he doesn't feel like paying the rent, so it's left to me, goes to work when he feels like it, helps my sister with her house but won't with me etc. etc. etc....I could go on and on with them!!

I have a GP and a psychologist that I should go back to (sessions are free and they're within walking distance), but I wonder if it's worth it when my psychologist said me running an instagram account for a celebrity is me living in fantasy land

I won't write any more, because I can't see anyone replying. I've got nothing and nobody and just want to forget...

[Doolhof]

Hey Pet,

Such a wonderful post describing an excellent use of visualisation.

Thanks for the reminder to use this technique in a very beneficial way other than for happy thoughts and nice places to take my mind when life is tough.

[Doolhof]

Hi Everyone,

Once again my heart is bursting with happiness when I read how people help each other in so many ways on these posts.

For me, it would be wonderful if this was transferred into real life more!

We all have days where we feel just YUCK, so having ideas and practises like daily plans, visualisation, music and so on as aids to help us through are so beneficial.

My problem is that when I become so low, I forget all of the stuff that can help! Ha. Ha.

Maybe I could make a list of things that help and have it somewhere handy, so on a not so good day, I can look at the list and consider what will be beneficial to me.

Sometimes a cup of tea and some gardening helps me immensely.

Cheers all, hope you all find some "get up and Go Power" today.

Cheers from Mrs. Dools

[Guest_5218]

So true Mrs Dools. I know all the things I should do to help myself when things get difficult. But like you say ... its when you are most in need that you are least able to think rationally, so you forget it all. And thats when the wonderful thoughtful people on these Forums are so wonderful, by reminding us of what she should be doing to make things a little better. A gentle prod here and there and a few suggestions help enormously.

Narelle - you always have lots of support here for whenever you feel you need it. I hope today is one of your better days. Good luck with submitting your job application, all you can do is your best. If this one isnt good enough, then perhaps the next one will be. All experience, all practice, all good. Dont lose hope.

Love and a hug to you Narelle, and a firm stroke along the back for Buddy. (-:

Sherie xx

[Wednesday]

Hi Narelle,

It's good that you have plan in mind for the day, have fun. It is a beautiful day here I hope you have the same weather, sun shinning just makes you feel happier somehow.

Like Carol I 'd love to see you go to your Doctor, huh whatdayathink.

Good luck with the callout the job, Carol's advice was great about looking up the business.

Hugs, xx

[Music_Freak]

Decided not to bother about the job, it was full time and probably not the best idea at this stage. Hopefully I'll be doing voluntary work this week...there's MYOB too

I'm going to walk to the chemist tomorrow and get some sun/fresh air, since I'm not doing anything else

Hopefully this is just a bad day and I'll wake up tomorrow feeling OK again

[Lost_Girl]

Hi Narelle,

Sounds good. I like your positivity in this post too. Little steps. Great work lovely!

[Music_Freak]

Yeah, I'm trying to not get too down, Carol. I'll keep looking at jobs, I'll have to start the jobsearch proper when my exemption ends anyway.

I've taken Buddy out a few times and he seems happy after being sick last night, which was a bit of a worry for me. He's sitting at his window now, so hopefully he's OK

[Wednesday]

Hi Narelle,

Sorry to hear that Buddy was unwell. It's awful when our pets are sick and cant tell you what is wrong. Hopefully whatever it was he has gotten out of his system. I'm sure walks would have helped him feel better.

I hope you're having the same sunny days that I am having. They make me feel a bit brighter, maybe it's the extra vitamin D or something.

It sounds like you are working hard to keep up and positive, good for you. Do you enjoy working on the MYOB program? I love the challenge of learning new things, though I'm not to good at accounting programs.

Hugs, xx

[Music_Freak]

Buddy seems fine now, he's back to wanting to go outside (been out twice, once with the car started)

I'm the one that's not well now, I feel fluey, but without the flu. The aches and headache aren't nice, although I half wonder if it's from spending too much time in bed. The chemist walk is postponed until tomorrow (I've set an alarm and everything)

MYOB isn't too bad, although, I do worry that I'll just forget how to use it in a few months, after the course is finished. I'm kind of disappointed that I didn't apply for the job, but with it being full time, I knew I wasn't capable of that (yet). I haven't looked today, since I'm still waiting to hear from my voluntary place.

[Music_Freak]

Well, a bit spur of the moment, but I applied for the job through the agency. All they wanted was my CV, so it's a start.

I realise I probably won't even get shortlisted, but I did it.