Feeling desperate to make this stop

[Lilly99]

Hi there, this is my first post which is really scary. Anyway I am not good feeling really depressed and anxious . I have tried everything psychiatrists, psychologists. Mental health nurses. Medication , I even spent 4 weeks in mental hospital to have tms which obviously didn’t work . Anyway feeling like life isn’t worth living . I feel like I have had enough of this battle called life . No matter what I try nothing works . I couldn’t be more of a joke and a waste of space really what’s the point I am never going it get better . Do people ever truly get better?

[Saree_p]

Oh no Lilly,

Thoughts are with you.

Big hugs,
Saree

[Lilly99]

Dear Jojo and saree,

I am at home now . There isn’t anything I can do . Going back to the hospital tomorrow . My child is in a world of trouble with the law . My child will recover but will be in hospital for awhile . I know things could be worse . I am trying to think positive but ....

There isn’t any point seeing my g. p what can she do anyway. Things are never going to change with me and my family .

I have had enough of all of this .

Lilly 🌺

[Saree_p]

Please talk to us Lilly.

How bad is the trouble?

Please reach out for help, please.

[Jojo100]

Dear Lilly

You must be exhausted. Try and get some rest tonight as you’ve had a huge shock. How bad was the accident?

It might help talking to your GP about what has happened. Better than bottling everything up inside.

Please take good care of yourself as you really matter xox

With love & my prayers

Your forever friend Jojo 🌻🤗

[Lilly99]

Saree,

Possible jail time trouble.

I can’t do this anymore . I am not strong enough . Very emotional . I really can’t take the knocks anymore .

Lilly 🌸

[Lilly99]

Dear Jojo.

The accident was bad . Car totalled . I haven’t slept for 24hrs.

I cant sleep I am overwhelmed . Extremely worried and so panicky .

Lilly 🌺

[Jojo100]

Dear Lilly

My heart goes out to you Lilly. I just want to give you a great big cuddle and give you some tlc. Be gentle with yourself and try to destress with some herbal tea and a hot shower.

Try some deep breathing and see if that helps you calm down a bit. I hope you do eventually get some sleep tonight.

My thoughts & prayers are with you xox

With love your forever friend Jojo 🌻🤗

[Saree_p]

Wonderful Lilly,

Maybe it's time to take some time off work and get the support you need. Please.

You are exhausted and overwhelmed as you say, you need to take a break or you will break. Please do.

Work will understand with such a huge thing, but use the time to get some support and help. Please.

Thinking of you,
Saree

[Jojo100]

Dear Lilly

How are you coping with things today? Have you had any sleep?

I agree with Saree now would be a good time to take some time off of work to take care of yourself and get support.

How badly hurt is your son? It’s exhausting visiting at the hospital and can be stressful too. So please look after yourself. Try and get some sleep and eat properly.

Take good care of yourself xox 🤗

With love your forever friend Jojo 🌻

[Lilly99]

Dear Jojo and saree,

I am not coping and having no sleep .

Been at the hospital all day . My child is very badly hurt and a long recovery time and court as well .

I am trying to stay strong but my other child with health problems is very sick as well I have asked for a few weeks off work . Well I have too atm to go to hospital anyway .

I am in a emotional roaster ride . Depression is through the roof .

All I can do at the moment is try and get through every minute. It’s hard I feel like I am breaking . If there is any such a thing as a nervous break down I am having one.

I don’t know where to turn . I am exhausted . I feel like I could have prevented this from happening somehow . I feel so responsible for how my children are . Like I have always said . I am a bad mum,

Hope both of you are ok. Sorry I haven’t been checking posts .

lilly 🌺