Relapse ??

[Scared91]

Hey I posted on here in May of this year

i wasn’t doing to good but everyone was very helpful and super nice and supportive ..

i am on ADs was on diff ones back then that weren’t working then got switched to the ones I’m on now .. they were working really well or atleast so I thought??

i was doing fine felt like my usual self for about 4months I reckon. Then the long weekend came and BAM I WOKE up and felt like crap just meh and crying and just felt like shit anxious feeling in my stomach pending doom just craziness.. I did drink a fair bit I don’t know if that has some affect on my tablets ? I know ur not meant to drink on ADs but was a good night a good time (AT THE TIME)

and so im rambling here sorry

is relapse something I can expect should expect I mean I’m not anywhere near as bad as I was ... and I’m not anywhere near as good as I was .. I just wanna get back to my happy place and stay there forever ... please anyone good advice saying that it will all be over soon anything reassuring please ...

TIA sorry about the all over the place of the post don’t really know what I’m asking I guess ....

[Tina_B]

Yes it would be nice to find a cure for cancer,we can only hope and pray for that ,but isnt the drug company's making to much money,they say eat green vegies but when your on chemo every thing tastes yuk yuk and more yuk haaaaa,and no sugar they say ,but I like my sugared tea .so cant win.But this horrid depression is worse and I wish I did drink,but have never really liked it much only those nice sweet mixed lady drinks fluffy duck or fluffy some thing and they were $15 a glass on a cruise we went on plus I'm on very strong drugs I'd be bombed out all day long ,as I already sleep alot now.but just to numb your mind for a while would be great.So all of you try and have a great day try I said. I'm off to the dentist ,ok until next time be good and dont do any thing I wouldnt do haa doesnt leave you lot much does it .

[Scared91]

Hey Tina thanks for writing back

sucks that your going thru double hell but yes I know what you mean I just want some miracle sure to fall out of the sky and fix me and everyone else who is suffering ...

they say “god” only gives us what we can handle but I’m telling ya I feel like I’ve been given a liiiil bit to much and maybe a lil of someone else’s share ... as you probably feel that 10 fold ...

yes Geoff I hope one day this stuff will end .. j fear im going to give this to my kids like a genetic thing and I feel soo sick and horrible about it but hopefully it doesn’t happen and if it does hopefully there is better things to help out in the not so distant future ..

i am am doing better today thanks ...

hope you you are all going ok :.

hope the Dentist went well ...

[blondguy]

Hi '91

Thanks for posting back. You mentioned "Im really trying to figure out which one is controlling my thoughts" The anxiety/depression is not controlling our thoughts at all. Thats the symptoms we have with anxiety or depression talking.

We are only enabling these awful feelings by not having the counseling we really need. Its no different to a physical illness....its takes visits and treatment. How are your visits going with your counselor?

Tina B.......Im really sorry about your Grade 4 diagnosis. May I ask if your health professional has prescribed some basic AD's to help you? Can I ask if your diagnosis was recent? Excuse I for the questions...just trying to provide more effective support

I hope you (both) have some peace sooner than later

my kindest always

Paul

[Scared91]

Blondguy

i am not seeing a counsellor nor has it been offered to me really ....

[Scared91]

Should I be seeing someone 🧐🤨

[blondguy]

Hi '91

sorry about the confusion...you mentioned (on the 9th) that you saw your doc. I should have more specific about the word 'counselor'.....It can be a doc/GP/Psychologist/Psychiatrist...my bad!

The more we talk to our doctor (counselor) the better we will feel. My doc put me on AD's a while ago and they have worked well yet we need the frequent visits to 'our doctor' to help us find some real peace in our lives

The meds do provide us with a solid foundation on which we can heal yet they are not a 'fix all' unfortunately

Sorry about saying counselor instead of doctor '91.

my kind thoughts

Paul

[Scared91]

Hey na all good sorry I’ve been tossing the idea of a therapist around in my head for a while To try and help make sense of what’s going on so when you said that it. Was like ooo should I be seeing someone already ... nothing to be sorry about :.

I have ave been back to my doc he’s very vague in what he says to me he is very reassuring I’m going to be ok he’s a good doctor don’t get me wrong lovely man and everything but yeah he’s old so don’t think he really remembers to much ...

i have been doubled up on my meds for a month and then told to go back down to 1 dose ... and that ppl my age generally stay on these for 1-3 years 🤨🤔 ad then come off them ... I don’t think I will ever come off then again but who knows

[blondguy]

Hey '91

Thanks for understanding 🙂

Just wondering if there is a younger doctor at your clinic that may have a focus on anxiety/depression?

you are amazing with your health '91. I am the same as you with the meds....I take them to offset my anxiety and they work well

I wont be using 'jargon' anymore....(counselor)....oops!

Paul

[Scared91]

Hey blondguy

you can yous jargon if you like haha I may just try to take u a little less literal 😂

i have seen many diff docs over the few years I have been dealing with this and yeah this doc is very comforting idk if it’s becos of how old he is and how many people he has seen who’s situations are way worse than mine and he gives it to u straight like he doesn’t sugar coat shit if that makes sense ...

the younger doc I saw made me take a mental health test type thing and all I got out of that was that I have high anxiety and low level of depression

ive been told it’s a a chemical imbalance

a hormonal thing

a postnatal thing

depression

anxiety

panic disorder

all of them combined

pcos

becos of this

becos of that it’s very rollercoasterish haha I’m just going with it and thankful for the good days i have

and very thankful for this site site to talk to ppl like yourself and everyone else who have taken the time to read my issues and respond