Im 16 and in year 11 this year, living in a country town. I'm pretty sure I don't have depression, but i feel as though I'm gradually becoming more and more down on myself.
The worst its been is this year, my two best friends moved to the city for school and my sister moved over seas. I feel as though I am alone. I know I still have my family, and I know they love me but I've never been close with them like I am with my two friends and sister. Without these people in my life anymore, I don't fit in with anyone because being in a small town all the social standings are already sorted, friendship groups are full and aren't going to budge anytime soon. school has also gotten harder for me. I've never been a straight A student or anything but its becoming more and more of a struggle to the point where I'll get so overwhelmed that I'll break down in tears and and feel this need to hit or throw something in frustration and then have no motivation to do anything. I cant make decisions, I can't remember the most simplest of things, I can't do anything right for anyone and I've never been good at anything or felt as though I had a purpose and this really eats at me.
I don't really want to be at home, I don't want to be with friends, I don't want to be at school, i don't want to be anywhere and i feel have no one I can talk with.
Is this just one of those silly teenage things? or is it something else? is there anything I can do to stop it?
