Relapse ??

[Scared91]

Hey I posted on here in May of this year

i wasn’t doing to good but everyone was very helpful and super nice and supportive ..

i am on ADs was on diff ones back then that weren’t working then got switched to the ones I’m on now .. they were working really well or atleast so I thought??

i was doing fine felt like my usual self for about 4months I reckon. Then the long weekend came and BAM I WOKE up and felt like crap just meh and crying and just felt like shit anxious feeling in my stomach pending doom just craziness.. I did drink a fair bit I don’t know if that has some affect on my tablets ? I know ur not meant to drink on ADs but was a good night a good time (AT THE TIME)

and so im rambling here sorry

is relapse something I can expect should expect I mean I’m not anywhere near as bad as I was ... and I’m not anywhere near as good as I was .. I just wanna get back to my happy place and stay there forever ... please anyone good advice saying that it will all be over soon anything reassuring please ...

TIA sorry about the all over the place of the post don’t really know what I’m asking I guess ....

[Dyfri]

Hey There,

Alcohol is actually a depressant, so as far as I understand it can be directly counter-intuitive to anti-depressants and although in the moment it gives you that buzz of happiness, it can actually increase anxious and depressive symptoms which sounds like it might have been what happened in your case.

Personally I don't feel like being on anti-depressants should prevent you from going out and having a good time, but maybe just keep that in mind so you know the possible consequences and can moderate how often or much you drink with regard to that.

It's totally normal to have these periods where it feels like you're slipping when you're tackling depression, but try not to let them feel as though you're relapsing. Four months is impressive and the fact you're not as bad as you were sounds like you've made progress. Although there are highs and lows, they are relative to how you're doing at the time and as long as you maintain that general upward trend you won't likely slip back too far.

Dyfri

[Scared91]

Thanks so much for replying ...

yeah i I asked my doc if I could drink on them ... but i was having like the odd few on the weekend here and there and then a couple more and then the long weekend I went waaaay waaay waaay to far I think like think I’d probably feel like crap if i wasn’t on the meds to be honest .. so I’ve stopped until I get back on top of things and when I’m back on my normal level I’ll see how I go with just 1 or 2 if I happen to be in a scenario where drinking is happening ... or I may not who knows haha ...

thanks heaps yeah everyone around me says they feel like I’m handling this a lot better like I’ve got a hold on it and I guess I don’t really see it so much as that way but if other people are noticing that’s gotta be a plus I hope haha.. I went to be doc and he upped my dose to try and help get me back where I was so fingers crossed it does the trick and I’ll jisy keep this shitty feeling in the back of my head whenever I think of drinking haha ....

thanks again for taking the time to read and reply to me means a lot 🙂🙂

[blondguy]

Hello Scared91

Thankyou for the super nice comments you made in your post above 🙂

Dyfri is spot on with the excellent advice they provided above....(and thankyou heaps Dyfri)

Ive been on SSRI's for a while now for my anxiety and they have worked really well too! I just wanted to say that you are an amazing person for having posted to us again. The crappy feelings will go away Scared91

That happy place does exist for sure. Sometimes it can be like a roller coaster ride with some downs too. These are still only feelings....(bad as they are) Sometimes having too much alcohol (especially spirits) can really bring us down.

Really proud to have you as part of the forum family '91 🙂

you are not alone

my kind thoughts and appreciation (thumbs up!)

Paul

[Scared91]

Thnks for the reply ... awesome hearing I’m not alone and stuff in these situations and that what’s happening is “normal” in a way :..

i dont drink spirits only beer but I guess alcohol is alcohol hey... I’m just taking it one day at a time ... hopefully it won’t take to to to long to get me back on the right track but as long as I don’t get worse I feel I can do this ..

its just crazy how it’s so easy for our minds to get us into such a horrible place yet so hard to try and get ourselves out of it ....

thanks again for the reply..

this place is full of such lovely kind helpful people

You both are amazing people yourselves willing to help someone yous don’t know from a bar of soap. Don’t know your stories but yous are doing an awesome job and keep up the good work 🙂🙂

thankyous again a million times over.

[geoff]

Hello Scared, and a warm welcome to you and actually your comment is a very good one.

I used to drink when I was suffering from depression, now I only drink socially, that's not the reason I'm replying back to you, it's because of what you have said.

Firstly with depression, it's known that anyone can have a relapse and I've had them numerous times, since I've overcome depression, sometimes it's not because of the amount of alcohol I've drunk, (as it's only socially) but because of different situations that have suddenly happened.

Everybody is different, some people can take an AD while someone else can't tolerate it, the same happens with alcohol, it changes people, not in the same way, and I've seen this by running 2 different pubs.

A person can come into the pub as pleasant as anything, nice, friendly and quiet, but as soon as they have a few drinks they totally change into an argumentive, aggressive person, so it's possible that when you drank too much it changed you, creating a relapse.

I'm so sorry this happened, but what I learnt is when you drink you develop a time or a stage when you know that's the limit, if you drink any more you may suffer the next day, you may already know this.

A relapse can still happen even when you're taking AD's and drinking alcohol as we already know, but when I have them, sure they aren't any good, but I know that in a few days I will be OK, and by having that feeling is a way that I support myself.

Anti-epileptic medication also restricts my alcohol.

Best Wishes.

Geoff.

[Scared91]

Thankyou Geoff

i went back back to my doc and he is having me take my tablets morning and night for a week to see if that helps ?? I don’t know if this is a good thing or not ....

but it’s been 4 days of this and I feel sorta worse today I guess maybe more anxious than anything .. I’m very scared person in general so I don’t really know what is going on atm ....

how long do relapses usually last like rough estimate ?? Like 1-2 weeks month to 2 months etc ....

I keep trying to tell myself I’m fine it’s just a feeling it will go away etc it’s just the not knowing the end date etc

i have 2 Kids I need to be here and strong for and I have everything in the world to live for so I don’t know what I have this rubbish in my head... if that makes sense ....

sorry and thankyou for all the replies and helpfulness and insights and your own experiences

[Scared91]

Update for those who are curious and possibly no1 is curious but atleast this way it’s somethint I can look back on that will more than likely always be here so I know how I have done in the past etc ...

yesterday I woke so sick and worried and felt like it was going to be the worst day ever :.. but after about 3 hours it felt like a dark cloud was just lifted off of me and I was happy and me and felt normal again (idk if this is a normal thing to expect or not ) but I liked it haha ... and I was fine all night I woke up this morning SLIGHTLY anxious because I thought yesterday was to good to be true but I am happy and me again I feel like I’m me genuine me .... I’m having mini mini flea like symptoms like get a bit dizzy here or there I’m a bit warm n sweaty but all bearable and I have like a tiny nagging voice in my head for a split second telling me this won’t last but it doesn’t last anywhere near as long as it was doing...

im hoping this is a normal experience and it means I’m on the right track and I’m going to get back to enjoying life and everyday with my kids ??? 😎😎😇😄 If anyone can shed some light on my lil experience over the last 2 days that would be amazing ...

thanks again to all you amazing people who take the time out of your own days and own problems to help others in need ... 👌🏼☕️👍🏿

[blondguy]

Hi Scared

Thank you for posting back and for the kind posts too 🙂

You have a good GP as he is concerned about your well being. GP's wont prescribe medication unless they really have too and good on you for giving them a go

They can make us feel different to start with....yet give them a go as they can take some time to have a beneficial effect. You have nothing to be sorry for at all. You are looking after your health which in turn will benefit your children too

You have everything to gain and nothing to lose 🙂

Be Gentle with yourself '91

I hope you can stick around the forums

my kind thoughts

Paul

[geoff]

Hi 91, I'm sorry I haven't replied back to you, but it's hard to tell how long a relapse is going to last because everybody is different, but more importantly, I'm so pleased you are feeling better.

That nagging voice you have, push it away, now you seem to be much stronger and remember even someone who can achieve a perfect score in whatever they do, can always have that slight feeling that something will go wrong, that's only natural, again my sincere apologies.

Please keep in touch, we want to see how you are going, that's important for you as well as for us.

Best wishes.

Geoff.