Relapse ??

[Scared91]

Hey I posted on here in May of this year

i wasn’t doing to good but everyone was very helpful and super nice and supportive ..

i am on ADs was on diff ones back then that weren’t working then got switched to the ones I’m on now .. they were working really well or atleast so I thought??

i was doing fine felt like my usual self for about 4months I reckon. Then the long weekend came and BAM I WOKE up and felt like crap just meh and crying and just felt like shit anxious feeling in my stomach pending doom just craziness.. I did drink a fair bit I don’t know if that has some affect on my tablets ? I know ur not meant to drink on ADs but was a good night a good time (AT THE TIME)

and so im rambling here sorry

is relapse something I can expect should expect I mean I’m not anywhere near as bad as I was ... and I’m not anywhere near as good as I was .. I just wanna get back to my happy place and stay there forever ... please anyone good advice saying that it will all be over soon anything reassuring please ...

TIA sorry about the all over the place of the post don’t really know what I’m asking I guess ....

[Scared91]

Thankyou both for your responses

sorry didn’t mean to make any of you feel bad ... nothing for yous to apologise about at all ... everyone has their own lives and own things to deal with so I understand it takes a while to respond to people 🙂 I appreciate the response no matter how long it takes 👍🏿😎

thanks agin and I went back to my doc today and he said to stay on the dbl for a month as it takes 10-14 days to kick in so here goes ...

hope Yous are going well and keeping safe 😎

[geoff]

Hello 91, thank you so much for getting back to us, I do really appreciate it.

Please let us know how things are going, and with depression, for anyone, it's one day at a time.

Best wishes.

Geoff.

[Scared91]

Yes thankyou keep telling myself that but on the bad days it’s not so easy to believe haha

thanks again and and will keep in touch

[blondguy]

Hi '91

you havent made anyone feel bad at all.....Its great to have you posting with us and good on you for being so proactive with your health and having such a great GP too 🙂

Those bad days are a pain for sure '91. I understand you with the roller coaster of highs and lows we go through

I hope you can stick around '91

my kind thoughts

Paul

[Scared91]

Does anxiety make you feel this way or does depression ???

Im really trying to figure out which one is controlling my thoughts .. and for the life of me I can’t figure it out I’ve googled haha and taken online tests even the one on here and it says I have high anxiety and only mild depression 🤔🤔 don’t know if this is something anyone can help shed some light on for me ... if not all good thought I’d give it a shot ..

and thanks its it’s good to have somewhere to post your thoughts and feelings to people who have lived it and have more experience with it than myself

[Scared91]

Also I thought I was doing so well I was good for 3 days and today I woke up and I’m crying sickly feeling stupid thoughts ...

why does this this keep happening. I wish I could just stay good and keep going good ...

just keep telling myself it’s one day and you’ll wake up feeling completely different tomorrow and then I’m like ha no you won’t ...

so easy to get to this crappy mindset yet it’s the hardest thing to get out of .. crazy crazy crazy :.. sorry and Thanks

[Tina_B]

It's awful isnt it good one week or day and not the next heaven knows why,but the feeling through my veins and tummy feel awful just want to go to bed,but pills seem to work for a while then we must get used to them or some thing and add a stronger pill or different ones so the merry goes around and around .You want to sleep you cant stop crying you dont want to go out mix talk to any one .Its awful.I only go out now when I've got to like drs chemo dentist etc yes I've also got cancer but that's ok it's this depression I've had on and off I hate.So good luck to you,and it's great we can get on hear to let the experts understand about us more ,as it's just not a feeling of being fed up.Like my mum used to say to me when your fed up stop what your doing and go and do some thing else.dont think mum new what depression was,like a lot of other people but we have this group which I picked up a card at the hospital while I was waiting for my chemo so thanks for this group.And I do hope you get help and start to feel better.

[Scared91]

Wow Tina B

thanks for your response yes indeed it does suck ...

i don’t get it..

like i don’t see why innocent happy normal people get this stuff done to them but yet the people who do horrible crimes etc get jail .. I feel this shit going on in my head may possibly be worse but then again I’ve never been to jail ...

and i am am so sorry to hear you have cancer 🙁 what kind /stage if you don’t mind me asking ??

You are an incredible person to be battling two enormously horrible illnesses at the same time like wow I take my hat off to you and I feel kinda of stupid for complaining about my problems now 😕😶😶...

hope you start to have better days soon or even at the least more good days than bad ... what i keep telling myself as long as the good days out weigh the bad I’m winning

[geoff]

Hello 91, and Tina my sincere apologies and I'm so sorry about you having cancer and added to this depression, a very unfortunate situation and hope we can help you along with 91.

We never know why or when we get depression, it could happen to anyone, rich or poor, successful or not and it doesn't matter whether you're well known in the community, it can strike everyone.

One day your anxiety maybe worse than depression or it could well be the other way around, we can't predict it unless we know what's going to happen then it could be balanced.

We must all join forces to beat this illness and one day in the future this will be done, at the moment we need to help each other.

Best wishes.

Geoff.

[Tina_B]

Thank you for caring I've got breast cancer 2005.then 10 years to the day got it back in 2015.so its grade 4 and terminal, it's ok it's this dam depression I'm running from I hate it.and dont feel sorry for saying you feel bad as we all have to let it out as it is just horrible for every one that has depression of some sort ,I just want to be cured I just hate it coming and going and not wanting to do any thing because of it..I know some of my friends think I should be doing more and I try and force my self but gee I cant do it.

So all are on this round about arnt we.i live in qld and it's a bit warmer as when living in Melbourne it was cold and wet and that makes you feel worse I reckon.Any way I'm hear if you want to talk I'm an older lady so feel free to chat ,got dentist so got to fly.hope your feeling a little better today