Isolated-cold-lonely and depressed.

[Guest_4987]

As i live in an isolated regional area with all the cold weather with my depression i am finding life very hard at the moment. I am not new to BB but have not posted for some months but find myself needed help as I am sliding into a dark place which i seem to carry with me…

With not that much support available in my area at night i decided to reactivate contact on these forums as it was helpful then so why not now. STS

[Wednesday]

Hi Wayne,

So pleased to hear back from you. I'm pleased that hokum have a nice GP and counsellor and better still you are going to see them.

Sorry if I am being a bit dense but I'm still not sure why you are losing everything that life has to offer. Is this that black dog talking or something else? Living with drama and pain is tough and does wear you down. Do you want to chat a bit more about what you mean by drama and pain?

hugs, xx

[Guest_5218]

Hi Wayne. Just sending you some good wishes for today and this evening. Has today been okay for you?

I hope you are having some success with Moon's suggestion that you let go of the negative thoughts and try to cling to something positive. What are some positives for you? Here are some possible suggestions: That the worst of winter has passed, and it wont be long before spring. That your new home is making progress and although there is still lots to be done, the really hard slog is done. That you have lots of little lambs running around boosting your stud flock as well as potentially your monetary coffers. That your friend in town obviously cares for you and was there when you needed someone last week. That you have your wonderful little constant companion, and hot water bottle, Lucy to keep you company. That you are looking at ways to help you overcome this latest bout of depression by considering therapy, medication and self help methods like mindfulness and meditation. That you have got quite a following here of genuine people who are very willing to reach out and offer support to a fellow sufferer of mental illness. These are all positives Wayne, and no doubt you will have a number of others that you can add to your list.

If you had a choice, what are the other things you wish you could do now? You said in your post yesterday that you feel as though you are losing your way, and everything good in your life is not longer available to you. That all you have left are pain and drama. Unfortunately thats what depression does to us all. Its a very significant symptom of depression, all you see is the blackness. You need to see past the illness, because there are still things in your life that are good and fullfilling.

I agree that sleep deprivation over a perios of time can be a huge problem and exacerbates the black mood. I know because I've had a problem with lack of sleep recently too. Thankfully the situation is improving for me thanks mainly to recent medication aimed specifically at ptsd-related sleep disruption. I think ongoing trauma therapy and my mindfulness course is also starting to have a positive effect overall, with both sleep and anxiety.

When you go to see your GP you could ask about something to help with your sleep. It may only need a short term fix to get you back on track again. Some ADs help promote sleep, where as others have the opposite affect, so ensure you tell your GP.

I hope today's been ok?

Sherie xx

[Guest_4987]

Hi Sherie,

Today was ok…needed to put 3 layers of clothing on plus thermals to keep warm it worked but i found it a bit hard to move around. Yes i have been doing some of Moons suggestions and it has helped me slip out that real dark space, off to the GPs on Tuesday i suppose i'll see then what he suggests and i will be discussing the sleep thing.

Your 100% right that depression makes ones mind think negative thoughts in reality i do have many things to be grateful for, when i'am down my mind tells me differently this is one of the things i've been addressing over the last few days…

I am so glad that you are improving your own situation with the help you have sort i do know that its all hard work and maybe confronting but i'am so glad for you.

On a lighter note my son Fabian is at the Parramatta and Titans match on the gold coast this afternoon he's such a Parra supporter even with all the teams trouble.

Lucy say's hello to you, she has had way to manny days inside with the weather I hope the rain stays away for a while and the wind drops a little.

Hope you had a good day and a hug from me and a nice rub on your leg from Lucy.

xx

[Moonstruck]

Another night falls Shaun the Sheep......if you have trouble sleeping tonight - and dark thoughts are troubling you - light a candle and look deeply into it....and know I am sending healing white light over to you.....you're safe!

All will be well........

[Guest_5218]

Brrr ........ , it sounds cold down your way! It has been a nice day here again. Very mild.

I'm glad you've made an appointment to see your GP next Tuesday. Hopefully between the two of you, you are able to work out an agreed plan of attack. (-:

Does your son live in Qld then, or is he up there visiting? I'm sorry he's a Parra supporter, given their many problems this year. My son in law is also a mad keen Parra supporter. And they lost today as well, so I hope Fabian is not too disappointed. On a happier note, my team the Canberra Raiders, won this afternoon. As did my AFL team, the Sydney Swans. Both tight finishes, but managed to get there.

I hope you get a fine and mild day tomorrow, and the wind drops off. Good for the lambs, and your mood.

Sounds like Lucy is getting cabin fever being cooped up out of the rain for a number of days. Thanks Lucy for the leg rub. And thanks Wayne for the hug. Its nice. (-:

Hug to you also, and I hope you get some sleep tonight.

Sherie xx

[Wednesday]

HI Wayne,

Just dropping by to say hi. I'm really pleased that you are seeing your doctor on Tuesday, good luck.

I've just made pumpkin soup, wish I could send you some via the post to keep you warm. Counting down to end of the really cold weather. I do feel a bit sorry for your new lambs I bet they are shivering too.

Speaking of lambs . My dog Happy looks bit like a lamb and a dog owner at the park asked his large greyhound cross doggy if he wanted a lamburger for tea, cheeky thing. Fortunately Happy can run very fast, phew.

Hugs.

[Moonstruck]

Well, hello beautiful girl!

Now that's the Sherie we all know and love.........

[Guest_4987]

Hi to all my friends, thank you all for your suggestions and thoughts, i'am a man of few words especially when i write.

I do read a lot of the posts but tend to be conservative with my replies.

Fabian lives on the Gold Coast Sherie and yes Lucy and myself had a good dose of cabin fever.Wedesday I like pumpkin soup seeing you won't be able to send some i'll just imagine eating some…warm and smooth..that will sure warm me up. Its about 1am now I can see its going to be a long night I tried to sleep a bit earlier but it was not to be i'm afraid there are no candles in the house at the moment Moon but I will get some tomorrow.

I managed to get a couple hours kip last night i was feeling a little comfy in bed I did get up when the sum was about to rise, when i could see the ground there was a layer of frost covering everything…wanting a warm drink I went to boil water in a saucepan but hey guess what it was frozen rock hard…coldest day of the year so far this year.

Hope you all have a good day tomorrow.

Wayne. x

[Moonstruck]

My son lives on the Gold Coast too- I was down there last weekend visiting him.........

[Guest_4987]

Hey Moon,

Cool.. bet it was good to spend time with your son! do you get to see him much? i'm heading up in December I've also got another son living in Brisbane my boys together have given me 4 grandkids…can't wait to seem them all…will be good times.. no great times, love seeing them all.