Isolated-cold-lonely and depressed.

[Guest_4987]

As i live in an isolated regional area with all the cold weather with my depression i am finding life very hard at the moment. I am not new to BB but have not posted for some months but find myself needed help as I am sliding into a dark place which i seem to carry with me…

With not that much support available in my area at night i decided to reactivate contact on these forums as it was helpful then so why not now. STS

[Guest_4987]

Hello Wednesday,

The longer i sit thinking of my future i get so confused and really i just don't know, there are positives in that i have some use back in my arm and leg and hope it continues, i manage to do the suggested therapy at home which does help but really takes it out of me.

In reality there are not many people that drop by and this is one reason i am feeling so isolated and a bit lonely. I'll be ringing Fabian later to night to see when he can come down i rally hope he could make down soon as i could really do with his company.

I do have the TV on a fair bit and i do watch shaun the sheep as he and his mob do cheer me up some and i think the show is so clever…i'm such a dag.

I love my veggies and needed to buy pre-prepared packs and microwave them as i can't peel them at the moment, tomorrow i try to steam some rice i will be plain but good anyway.

Thanks for the chat Wednesday getting tired typing so i'll sign off for now.

Wayne and Lucy o

[Wednesday]

Hi Wayne,

Don't be too hard on yourself. This is a tough time for you and everything has suddenly changed, boy is that confusing.

I think it is a very positive thing that you can see some improvement already. Have you been prescribed any medications to help too?

I have chronic illness and there are times that I can't see a future and my head goes to the dark side. But what I have found is that if I hang in there just a bit longer life changes again. When we are in that lonely confused state it feels like this is what life is going to be like forever. It's not true, life will and does change again. So many times now I've been told that the medication aren't working and there is nothing else on offer. It is pretty devastating, but life changes.

You are at the beginning of this journey and it will take a bit of getting used to. TV is a great friend at these times. Precious Lucy, arn't we lucky to have our little ones to keep us company, stay close and offer the odd lick.

It was good to read that you are making sure you are eating some good stuff. Tho I laughed because I never even think of peeling veggies (to hard), just cook and eat! I wonder what any visitors think when they get served the unpeeled veggie?

I hope you were able get hold of Fabian.

Take good care of you. Hugs, x

[Wednesday]

Hi Wayne,

How are you going?

Hugs, x

[Guest_4987]

Hello Wednesday,

I have been struggling a bit lately, can't seem to find much in the way of a positive…i just hate the way my life has evolved into what it is.

Wayne

[Wednesday]

Hi Wayne,

I feel much the same, I had a job and life and now illness has taken most of that away.

It is a rotten position to be in. You don't have to be positive, come and vent, lets us know how you really feel. Don't bottle it up.

Does that mean that Fabian hasn't been able to come and see you?

Thank goodness for our four legged pals, no matter what else happens they stay loyal, love us unconditionally and need us, that's pretty special to me.

Hugs, x

[Guest_1055]

Hi Wayne

Bah...bah....bah....( I felt a bit embarrassed writing bah, but I can live with that, if it helps you smile or anything) I have been thinking about you and wondering how you are getting along?

Have you been watching "Shaun the Sheep" . I am not sure if I ever told you this. But when I first came in contact with you, back in late November. I actually borrowed a dvd of Shaun the Sheep from the local library, because I wanted to see what it was like.... And yes it was pretty cute, and they never really talked.

Are you getting more and more use in your arm and leg Wayne? Is the exercises helping? I am really sorry Wayne. I wish I could do more in some way. I care. There is someone else who I know cares about you, and if she was here she would tell you so too. That person is Sherie..

How is your little dog Lucy going?

Sending you out a hug. Hope you feel better soon.

Shelley xx

[Guest_4987]

Hi Shelly,

Sorry its taken so long to reply things aren't the best at the moment. I still watch Shaun about the only laugh i get these days, I mis contact with Sherie!! Have some use of limbs on my right side but i need to contact my specialist in the morning as my left side is feeling like my right before the attack. My Lucy doesn't let me out of her sight..she loves me and i love her..don't know what i'd do without her.

I hope you are all right Shelly, nice to talk to you.

Wayne xx

[Guest_1055]

Hey Wayne

I am sorry you are struggling there, I am glad you have little Lucy though. It does sound like she really loves you, keeping you in her sight and all. Has she ever had any pups?

Did you end up speaking to the specialist? Were they able to advise you or anything?

Did you end up meeting with your son? Fabian...I have never heard of that name before. Is it Greek or Italian or something? Anyway it is a nice strong name.

Do you have a vegetable garden there or fruit trees? I am hoping to plant out some vegetable seedlings soon, after I pull out all these weeds in this raised bed that we have.

Do you like to read? I am just having a read through this quilting book.

Yeah....I am coping pretty good, other then a few headaches. All is well. Thanks heaps for asking Wayne.

Well not sure what else to say, so here is a hug for you if you would like one.

Bye now

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Hi Wayne,

I was thinking of you just now, hoping you are getting along alright there. I don't even know if you will read this, but if you do well please still know that I care. You were among one of the first people that I had contact with on Beyond Blue.

May you have a Christmas filled with joy and love, but not only Christmas but every single day.

You are in my thoughts at the moment.

Hugs

Shelley

[Wednesday]

Thinking of you Wayne. Hugs. xx