I am seeing a therapist about the development of forming and being aware
of the feelings of others and myself. We looked at a brain diagram in
relation to the thinking brain and the 'caveman brain' how it forms
responses and how to go beyond instinct...
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I am seeing a therapist about the development of forming and being aware
of the feelings of others and myself. We looked at a brain diagram in
relation to the thinking brain and the 'caveman brain' how it forms
responses and how to go beyond instinctual processes like fight, flight,
freeze and appease. We talked about what activities can exercise the
'thinking brain' and this term in this session ignited a series of
memories that always feel like they're following me. It was my
relationship with acne medication, COVID and the strain that I felt was
imposed on me after my grandpa died. Medication is something that should
be explored more often. I was on a medication to treat acne, of which my
epidemiologist told me and my parents that a primary effect of the
medication is exhaustion and depression. The odd thing was the only real
way I came to my feeling was after my prescription was increased, and my
parents said I felt off and description. The happiness I felt after
getting off them was something I was not conscious about, which I feel
carried over throughout COVID. And then I hit a wall. Surrounding all
the topics listed above, my senior year level experience was terrible.
It was in Term 3 Year 11 that my grandpa passed away. He lives in
England, and so my dad was the only one to go to his funeral. I became
irritable and mad at the world, and while I'm teaching myself to live
and move forward, I couldn't and still can't wholly forgive the
trampling behavior of former and even current friends and family. I
wasn't only that I wasn't brave enough to say something felt off, but it
feels hard to dissect into tinier pieces when it can spiral out of
control. I often feel alone; I've never been in an intimate or best
friend relationship, and I still don't completely know why it's okay to
negatively chat about things. I can't really argue about how it feels
sluggish, but it simply feels overwhelming. Everything, Nothing and I
can conspire against me, and it leaves me without any steps into any
conceivable direction. That's all I have to say really. Sorry if parts
feel cryptic or go against the second point of the guidelines. Part of
me says this is to vent and move on but it would be nice to receive
different approaches I should go about if situations like these or even
new arise.