Hello, It is my first time at this so bear with me. I'm so confused. Something 'traumatic' happened to me about a month ago, and i was supplied with an over-the-phone therapist. Since then, I have started getting over the event. However, i am struggling with what i think is depression now. My over-the-phone therapist thinks it has to do with the event, but I really don't believe that. I'm constantly crying, angry inside, feel tired and sick, always want to give up, i have even self-harmed for the first time. I don't know whats going on, but absolutely no-one seems to understand; despite the endless "you are not alone" talks (which frankly I think lack any depth or truth, because it is one thing to say you are there for someone, but to actually be there is another). I can't do school work, I find it hard to concentrate etc. Im seeing a therapist face-to-face for the first time tomorrow and I'm scared. Also, I'm leaving home for a week for a school trip soon and I'm anxious, upset and worried because right now I think i need some stability and i fear that being away will not help. I do not worry about the traumatic event very much anymore, but I feel like some sort of depression has stemmed from it, and no one can help. I don't know. I feel petty and stupid for being so sad when i know i have such a blessed life. Everything is just a big "?" right now. I am unsure of how i feel.
And to make matters a little worse, my father has started being rather bitter and unsupportive. I know how he must feel. Asking someone "if they are okay" and knowing they aren't, but being told "everything is fine" must be frustrating for him. Any advice or thoughts?
