HELP ME OUT, my anxiety is getting out of control

[Ardenrose]

Hi guys,

Its currently 2:10 am and i am wide awake. I was meant to have work in a few hours which requires me to wake up in an hour however there is no way I could do it especially with no sleep at all.

the thing is, I have tried to go to bed early last night around 9;30 and managed to fix everything on time. I tried heaps of things just to fall asleep but none if it did work. - In this case I knew my anxiety is getting worse. I had this a week ago, literally did not sleep at all and woke up at 3am to get ready for work. With no sleep I went to work really exhausted and physically and mentall drained...

So today i tried not having any nap at all JUST to make sure it wont happen again. Unfortunately it did.. In fact i felt my anxiety kicked in at around 7 pm, feeling so anxious going to work and stuff.

At some point, i also believe that because Ive had very frustrating moments in the past weeks and months, the effect of them was my anxiety has gotten worst. Probably its all these stress thats keeping me awake. My mind just doesnt stop thinking literally about everything that happened or whats going to happen.

im planning on seeing my gp real soon. I cant handle this anymore. Its ruining my life and career.

im only 20yrs old and just started my new job and I dont want to lose it despite of how anxious I get most of the time.

if anyone of you could give me some advice, i would really appreciate it. Thank you so much

-Arden

[blondguy]

Hi Arden

Welcome to the forums and thankyou for having the strength to post too!

2:35am here...just read your message...You are in a difficult place right now.....I have had severe anxiety for many years and I understand where you are coming from...

The stress (anxiety) is keeping you awake....you are right. You are a smart person for booking in to your GP...

As you mentioned...overthinking can be a pain. Because the forums dont operate instantaneously where responses are concerned I will keep my post brief...

Just a quick question if I may ask you Arden.....what is the worst possible outcome for you with your new job today?

Right now your career is fine....your anxiety is real and usually means you are over sensitized....over thinking etc as you mentioned....

I have been recruiting staff and a white collar senior exec for years.......Talk to me....

There are also many very kind people like yourself on the forums.....you are more than welcome to post back as many times as you wish Arden

I will be awake for a while longer. If you really need a voice to voice conversation Beyond Blue have super kind counselors 24/7.....on 1300 22 4636....They are there to listen....never to judge you

You are not alone here Arden....

My Kindest Thoughts for you......Paul

[Ardenrose]

Hello Paul,

Thank you so much for responding to my msg. I honestly didnt think I would get any reply especially at 2am in the morning.

I didnt sleep not until 6am. I was crying around 3am didnt stop at all... I knew that once i fell asleep I would feel bad for not going to work and stuff, which I would say is true because, well, I already feel bad and useless for not going to work..

to answer your question about work, I think the reason why I get anxious most of the time is because Im new to it and i feel like Im not skillful or qualified enough to be even there. - I work at a very prestige hospital as an assistant nurse and most assistant nurse there are either in their 2nd yr or 3rd year of uni.. Whilst me being on nothing as i wont start uni till next year.

Altho ive had tafe qualifications for me its still not enough that in result, I make mistakes at work all the time or dont know what to do.

Paul, i didnt end up going to work.. I feel very upset.also im thinking of asking my gp prescribed some anxiety medication and sleeping pills, do you think It would help??

thank you again for your reply. I needed it.

-arden

[Kimberley-Fay]

Hi Arden,

I truly feel your pain right now as I have lived through the same ordeal for months. I suffered from severe anxiety over my children and work. I wasn't sleeping at all and going to work physically and mentally drained. When you are in a high anxiety state it's extremely hard to see things clearly. I agree with Paul in saying that your career is fine, but your anxiety is real. I had to learn to calm myself with deep abdominal breathing first. Learn this technique and use it every time you fall into anxiety, every single time Arden. You have to get your mental state relaxed before you can address the problems. Right now you are highly sensitised and you need to bring yourself down to a state of calm. That way you can look at your career in a better frame of mind. Did you know if you a running on adrenaline all day long it disrupts your sleep at night? This is why I say you have to do the deep abdominal breathing all the time, even during the day, this will help with calming yourself at night.

You also need to become your own detective. It sounds crazy but start looking into all your thoughts.... example. "I'm not going to be able to learn this new technique today" Is there any real evidence to back up that thought? Or have you been able to learn new techniques before in your life?? Because if you have been able to achieve it previously then you can again, don't let your anxiety tell you that this time you can't, because your detective work just proved that to be wrong!! This is what you need to do with every negative thought. Question the negative thought and prove it to be wrong with real facts. I still have to do this every day. I have to dissect every anxious thought I have, because that's all they are. They are thoughts that are usually very irrational and haven't happened yet, there fore I'm giving my power away to an irrational thought.

Definitely go and see your doctor and talk to someone professional if it will make you feel better. I too went on sleeping tablets, but for me in the end they were just a bandaid for the real issue. I was using them to get through rather than dealing with the anxiety and the cause for it. As Paul said... you are not alone. All my thoughts are with you Arden, you can get through this !!