Young people

Bipolar 2 and drinking

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So im 18 in a small town and the majority of people my age as well as my friends drink for fun on the weekends as well as drugs (i'm not one to do drugs) but i drink still and it seems to make feel super anxious most probably due the bipolar. Would i... View more

So im 18 in a small town and the majority of people my age as well as my friends drink for fun on the weekends as well as drugs (i'm not one to do drugs) but i drink still and it seems to make feel super anxious most probably due the bipolar. Would it be better for me to go sober or would i lose friends? I feel its the best thing to do however i just would like some insights. Thanks in advance.

Anxiety/Health Anxiety

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Hey everyone, I’m new to beyond blue! I guess I’m here seeking others that may experience what I do on a daily basis. I guess I’ve had anxiety my whole life but over the years it’s gotten worse. I’m 22 years old and I am so over feeling this way. Lat... View more

Hey everyone, I’m new to beyond blue! I guess I’m here seeking others that may experience what I do on a daily basis. I guess I’ve had anxiety my whole life but over the years it’s gotten worse. I’m 22 years old and I am so over feeling this way. Lately my annixety has been very health based. I will get so many symptoms, I get chest pain, acid reflux, aches and pains, my eyes sight has been effected I get visual floaters, after images, my eyes suck coming in from dark to light more so then I ever remember before this bad bad anxiety, I get headaches, I get sweating, I get heart racing, sometimes it even wakes me up in the middle of the night straight from sleep, I get panicking for no reason, I get the real flight or fight where I will run. I will be fine and start thinking about how this isn’t normal to be okay and that I’d usually have a problem and I almost talk myself into it. Lately thought it’s truly the health based stuff that gets to me. I have chest pain, I think heart attack. I have a head ache I think brain tumour, I feel like I can’t breath and I assume a allergic reaction to something or mostly any symptom I get I assume death is coming. It is so draining and I am over it. I’m even starting to not want to take any medicine or eat new foods and stuff due to thinking I might have a reaction to them and die. It’s like my anxiety has gone into over drive and it effects my life to no end. When I was on antidepressants I was fine. I didn’t worry about this stuff and if I got a head ache it was just a headache! Does anyone else have these issues/hyperchondria. If so how do you cope, what have you done to help yourself. Would be licensed to have someone to talk too. Sorry if this is in the wrong bit.

Love someone who doesnt love me

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Im 19 and I’ve loved this kid for 3 years in August its going to be 4 years. There might some of you saying youre only 19 how do you know what love is.. But im so sick of being hurt , we were close friends really close friends but I ended up falling ... View more

Im 19 and I’ve loved this kid for 3 years in August its going to be 4 years. There might some of you saying youre only 19 how do you know what love is.. But im so sick of being hurt , we were close friends really close friends but I ended up falling in love , couldnt tell him for 2 years, and when I told I knew the reply I was going to get wasn’t what I wanted to hear. We were doing a course this year together, he would always laugh with me, play around with me, have play fights and we were close then I thought we might have a chance so I opened up to him but again no, he says his really sorry that he can’t love me like I love him, I’ve dedicated my 4 years for this kid. Whenever his in pain I feel it, whenever he needs something I’m always the first one to help him. I know for a fact that no one is ever going to love him as much as I do. Im sick of crying myself to sleep every single day. For 3 years ive been smoking and lately I’ve gone worse by smoking 1 packet a day. Someone help me please

Hi I’m new and I need help

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Hi, I’m a 22 y/o enrolled nurse currently studying to be a registered nurse. Whilst studying I work for a nursing agency giving me the freedom to work when I choose. All my life I’ve been living with anxiety disorder which has then stemmed depression... View more

Hi, I’m a 22 y/o enrolled nurse currently studying to be a registered nurse. Whilst studying I work for a nursing agency giving me the freedom to work when I choose. All my life I’ve been living with anxiety disorder which has then stemmed depression, panic attacks, OCD, insomnia and many phobias. My problem is that I’ve only recently been diagnosed. I always new I was different, I was just never really educated on mental health disorders until I studied it through nursing but the main thing that made me realise what I had was an add on tv for anxiety. It was one of those adds that are like “If you suffer from the following you may have anxiety”and I realised that yes I suffer those things everyday but I thought everyone did? When I finally realised straight away I went to my GP which then referred me to a psychologist. My problem at the moment is that I’m finding it really hard to cope. I just feel like I’m not getting any better and that I will never get better and it’s making me very very sad to the point where I don’t sleep at night, I find it difficult to get out of bed and shower and pretty much do anything and I just don’t know what to do. My psychologist doesn’t seem to be helping very much, she talks about herself a lot but because I’m new to it I’m just not sure how it is supposed to work. I live with my parents and they really don’t understand me at all even after all this time. During a panic attack they yell at me to stop and then start to laugh at me which obviously makes its much worse. Sorry for rambling I just find it very hard to talk about these things in person so this is a lot easier for me to let it out. The depression is definitely affecting me a lot at the moment and I really am not liking it but I don’t know how to make it stop. I need help.

struggling with 'depression labels'

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Hi, I'm new to the world of beyond blue and was hoping someone could possibly help. I'm don't know if I've got depression or not, no one in my family has a history, but I've done some research and I'm beginning to think maybe I do? It all started whe... View more

Hi, I'm new to the world of beyond blue and was hoping someone could possibly help. I'm don't know if I've got depression or not, no one in my family has a history, but I've done some research and I'm beginning to think maybe I do? It all started when I was 12 and contracted meningitis and encephalitis, (I'm now 21) and am still dealing with chronic daily pain for the last 7 years, I thought I was handling it, but recently I've noticed a lot of behavioural, mood and physical changes in myself. I don't see my friends as much as I used to, I find that I don't have the patience for people anymore, sometimes I even snap at my mum and sister which makes me feel awful afterwards but I just can't control my feelings at the time. I'm can't even tell you what I was mad about I just suddenly get irritated or emotional and everything feels too much and I just sleep for days. I know that having the same pain for most of my adolescent life probably has had an impact on my health, but I feel as if its more now. I don't find pleasure in doing my usual hobbies/activities. I can't even hold my focus on a book for half an hour, and I used to read all day everyday and it made me so happy. I don't think I could tell you what makes me happy anymore. But even as I write this, I can feel myself beginning to feel guilty for having these thoughts, I don't even know why... maybe i'm embarrassed...ashamed? Maybe it's all of the above. I've tried talking myself into going to see a doctor and talking about this, but again i start to feel guilty, like my problems aren't important enough to go and see a GP about. Anyway, if there's anyone else out there with some of the same feelings or maybe you've gone through something similar, I'd like to hear your story.

Life sucks eternally

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So the school holidays are finishing up, and since it's the start of the year, it's the start of a new grade and all of that. I'm going into Yr 9, and now it's sort of dawning on me that soon I have to think about getting a licence, and tricky school... View more

So the school holidays are finishing up, and since it's the start of the year, it's the start of a new grade and all of that. I'm going into Yr 9, and now it's sort of dawning on me that soon I have to think about getting a licence, and tricky school stuff and growing up... The thought of growing up was never really something I fantisized about as a kid, like I just never thought It'd happen. Like something would happen, and I would never really get past "Now". It's a bit tricky to explain. But year 1 turned to 2, and 2 turned to 3 and so on, and now I'm in year 6 after a horrible incident just after graduation just feeling eteranlly sick (Anxiety sucks) and wow I finally think year 7's over and oh boy year 8's gone and now I'm here. And I don't like it. I've always felt behind kids my age when it came to maturity in a way. Kids in my grade are currently posting stupid picture of themselves on the internet and beaning each other with apples, and I don't feel I can reach that yet. I have a learning disability as well, so that might explain stuff. The actual thought of growing up, getting a job, having to drive and just do everything just makes me sick. The whole "Something will happen and you won't get past now" thing is only starting to really wear off, and I can't calm myself down much. I also don't really feel hungry as much as I used to, and I've been told I look a bit pale (To be fair, I'm pretty white though). Like I just can't handle things like I used to. Middle school already sucks, and it's completly drained me, I don't have the energy for much anymore, and I now have weird habits, like I rub my hands together a lot, and my foot just can't stay still while I'm sitting. And I massivly pace. That, too. I think the only things that have kept me sane for the past two years are a few friends, my favorite movie, and my imagination (I used to get paranoid it would go with age when I was like 12). I'm running out of characters, and time, so yeah. I'll leave it at that. I spewed my words a bit, so sorry it's long. Sierra

I feel like I’m going crazy

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I am 16 years old and recently I have been feeling like I’m going mad. I feel tired a lot of the time, at night I can’t sleep I seem to be blacking out for short periods of time, everything seems a bit unreal and hazy. Can anyone please tell me what ... View more

I am 16 years old and recently I have been feeling like I’m going mad. I feel tired a lot of the time, at night I can’t sleep I seem to be blacking out for short periods of time, everything seems a bit unreal and hazy. Can anyone please tell me what this is and a solution for it

Controlling parents

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Hi. I’m new and I just want some help dealing with my family and how they make me feel. My parents control a lot of my life they ban me from doing anything hanging out with people they don’t approve of (these people have never gotten on trouble with ... View more

Hi. I’m new and I just want some help dealing with my family and how they make me feel. My parents control a lot of my life they ban me from doing anything hanging out with people they don’t approve of (these people have never gotten on trouble with school or the law) stopping me from going out stopping me from participating in community and school activities. But lately it’s gotten worse i want a job and my parents are lecturing me about getting a job but every job I have looked at or gone to apply for my parents and sister have said there is no way I would be hired that I wouldn’t get it that I shouldn’t even try. I’ll ask to do something and my parents won’t answer me until after the event, or ask me a question that no answer is correct for. For example I wanted to go away with friends and my mum asked how I was getting there and I asked if her or dad could take me and she yelled at me for assuming that they could do stuff for me. A few days later (she has been ignoring me) I asked again and said that my friends parents could take me and she got angry cause I didn’t rely on her. She then ignored me Untill she left the state despite me continuing to ask and telling her that I had to pay soon. When she came back a month later the day After i was meant to go away she told me I could go even tho all my friends had already left and it was a two night thing. My parents have also told me there is no point getting the degree I want at university cause there isn’t any jobs in it, and I won’t get enough money to survive or pay back student loans and am just wasting my time and money. They also tell me how I’m not smart enough to get in and how I won’t be able to pay to live (I have to move out to study). They are currently talking with my sister about how stupid going to uni is and how I’m going to end up broke and homeless and that even tho I’ve applied for scholarships, youth allowance and have a job I’m wasting my time and life. My parents will also send me to live with my grandma if I don’t do what they want or annoy them in anyway. I just need to know how do you deal with a family who makes you feel like a failure, and how can I leave this household whilst not ending up in the streets.

I’M FINALLY REACHING OUT FOR HELP

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I’m 20 with a 21 year old male partner & a 4 month old baby girl we’ve been together for nearly 2 years. I’ve been having trouble even since my parents seperated when me & my 4 brothers were younger. I really need some advice with help so that I can ... View more

I’m 20 with a 21 year old male partner & a 4 month old baby girl we’ve been together for nearly 2 years. I’ve been having trouble even since my parents seperated when me & my 4 brothers were younger. I really need some advice with help so that I can be happy again, feel self confidence & my relationship won’t be so dead full of toxic fighting that’s unnecessary. Clinical Depression Disorder: I’ve lost all happiness & interest in daily activities that would normally be fun. Anxiety Disorder:I’m always scared when alone, always jumpy looking around here & there, always fearing that something or someone will do something to me or us including ourselves & this interferes a lot with daily activities I lock myself in my room & hate silence. Bipolar Disorder: I have a lot of episodes multiple times a day, week, month year my moods are so uncontrollable they go from feeling as low as wanting to be in the ground to as high as wanting to be in the sky. Dementia Disorder: I do not remember my childhood or anything positive from my childhood as much as I try it’s only negative stuff. Attention Deficit/ Hyperactivity Disorder: I have a very low attention span I get bored very fast, I don’t pay attention unless interesting to myself otherwise I have a difficult time maintains attention to anything & everything. Schizophrenia Disorder: I don’t think before doing things especially if my anger is so high up there. I feel multiple feelings at once nothing is a clear feeling & I behave irrationally towards everybody & anybody. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder: I’m obsessed with my partner but it always leads down the worst path possible & the outcome’s always the same. Autism Disorder: Social interaction with others i’m not familiar with or others I don’t know is very very hard to the point where I have no friends at all just my partner, his family & some of my family. I find it very hard & difficult to communicate & explain exactly what i’m trying to say or exactly what i’m trying to do & everything goes downhill. Post Traumatic Disorder: I failed to speak up & speak out when I was sexually assaulted multi times growing up until I was about 12 & it’s just like a flash back like a scar I can’t get rid of out of my head, my partner always tells me to just forget about it & leave it in the last but how do you when they were so very close family members I have never been able to recover. Please I really need advice & help!!!

Always feeling lonely and as if everyone hates me

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Hi there, I am new to this website so I'm not really sure how to start this forum thread. I'm here for advice on my feelings and situation. It seems as if I've always felt like everyone hates me. I was shocked to find an old journal from when I was a... View more

Hi there, I am new to this website so I'm not really sure how to start this forum thread. I'm here for advice on my feelings and situation. It seems as if I've always felt like everyone hates me. I was shocked to find an old journal from when I was around 10 (I am turning 16 soon) where I wrote that the thing that made me most sad was "all of my friends hate me" because almost 6 years later, that feeling and fear hasn't changed one bit. I always feel lonely. I've never had a best friend, someone who I am confident likes me just as much as I like them. Every lunchtime, I feel as if I am unwanted by my friends to sit with them. I just had my high school ball. I found out afterwards that everyone else in my group attended a ball pre-party that I was never invited to, nor was I made aware of. I'm not sad that I wasn't invited, I'm just sad that it seems like everyone planned something without me even knowing. If I was invited and someone else in my group wasn't, I 100% would've asked the organizer if that person could attend, or told them about it. I guess it just stung quite a bit to see the people in my group post photos of them having fun together all over social media afterwards, especially since I have always felt excluded. Is that normal or am I overreacting? I am so tempted to just switch groups, but I can't. My other friends all sit in separate groups, & if I was to join one of their groups then I'd just feel really anxious that the rest of their friends in that group wouldn't want me there either (does that make sense?). I would honestly rather just sit on my own at lunchtimes now, but then I am anxious that they would talk crap about me behind my back even more. I found out that one of the friends had screenshots of what I had written on twitter on her laptop. When I confronted her, she denied it and then finally admitted it but would not show me the screenshots. I have worried about it ever since. I am worried she sent screenshots to other people, because it was a private account I made where I can vent my true feelings. I am so sorry this thread is a mess. I have never gotten professional help, as I'd feel like I'm stealing help from someone who actually needs and deserves it. So I guess I'll just post my many problems on here for now and see how it goes. If you have read all of that, thank you so much for reading. If you can, please do share some advice on how I should deal with my feelings at this point in time. ~ Spicyfoodlover.

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Bipolar 2 and drinking

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Anxiety/Health Anxiety

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Love someone who doesnt love me

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Hi I’m new and I need help

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struggling with 'depression labels'

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Life sucks eternally

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I feel like I’m going crazy

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Controlling parents

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I’M FINALLY REACHING OUT FOR HELP

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Always feeling lonely and as if everyone hates me

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Bipolar 2 and drinking

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Anxiety/Health Anxiety

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Love someone who doesnt love me

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Hi I’m new and I need help

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struggling with 'depression labels'

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Life sucks eternally

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I feel like I’m going crazy

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Controlling parents

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I’M FINALLY REACHING OUT FOR HELP

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Always feeling lonely and as if everyone hates me

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