Racing thoughts. Disconnected. Emotionless

Mjd123 · ‎09-10-2020

ive been battling this for 3 years now prior to this i was a very fit and succesful man, i did use drugs in my younger days but did not seem to effect my lifestyle , im 26 years old now the first 2 and a bit years was really intense disconnection, racing thoughts and a feeling of being stuck in my own head i could never be present within myself and feels like i am there but im not 'there' i would have periods of extreme highs and energy and i would be in the shower for example stairing at the wall so deep in my thoughts and scenarios i would almost forget where i was for a second,

i have had some periods( 3 months or so) where i feel completly present and in tune with my mind where i feel like i connect with people and have good energy, but the past 3 months has been so hard i feel like everything has intesified i feel like my energy and emotjons are all over the place i wake up extrmely down and anxious (thoughts about my parnter leaving me wich isnt true and nothing to go off, or just going to work n dreading it) i have woken up at 3 am and been so wired staring at the ceiling woth my mind feeling like its going so fast but i couldnt tell you what i was thinking of, i feel so disconnected from my self there is a feeling in my head i cant even describe but it is like i just cant feel and think clearly, racing mind (not of a percific thought just all over the place) i can be so anxious and down in the morning but i could be extremely energetic in the afternoon then back down again but the feeling in the mind never goes away,

i seeked proffesinal help they said they havent heard of anything with all these symptoms i am on medication (been on for 2 week) i feel like it hasnt helped at all (early days i know) ive also taken another medication it seem to make me feel better about a year and a half ago but i stopped for 6 months tried to take it 3 months ago but had to stop after a week because it made me extemely manic as they say

im just writing this to see if anyone has or is experincing this kind of thing and any help would be greatly appreciated thankyou

Nurse_Jenn · ‎14-10-2020

Hi mdj123,

Welcome to the forum. It is great you are seeking some support and connecting with others. After three years you must be feeling exhausted battling this intense rollercoaster of symptoms you are experiencing. I am sorry you are going through. It is really great to hear that you are getting some support. Sometimes talking with someone regularly can help.

You have said you are seeking professional help and I wonder if this includes a GP and psychologist or both? Medications can have side effects when you first start taking them and checking in with your health professional more regularly is normal when you are starting a new treatment.

I hope you get to the bottom of your symptoms and find some balance in your mood and level of stress. I have attached a few links to information on treatments both anxiety and depression for your interest.

https://resources.beyondblue.org.au/prism/file?token=BL/0762

https://resources.beyondblue.org.au/prism/file?token=BL/0556

Sending you strength on your healing journey,

Nurse Jenn