Hi Anzee,
Oh I'm really glad to hear that. It sounds like things have been really really hard lately, and I'm sorry to hear about the cycle.
I do though think that you should be very proud that you do keep reaching out to people even if that feeling of a positive mindset doesn't seem to last that long. That means that even if it is there for only a second, it's better than not at all. That sounds a bit dismissive and I don't mean it too- I just know from my own experiences that the idea of feeling better or recovery (or whatever that looks like) can seem so incredibly foreign. It's like a different language when we've never grasped the concept before. So it does make sense that it's hard to grab onto and believe.
I wonder if maybe there is something you can do when you're in that mindset to help you when you're struggling? Like writing some of the things down that your psychologist says, or even little affirmations that you can repeat to yourself ?
So to search, if you look up at the top of the screen on the left hand side is Beyond Blue in a big font, and on the right hand side it has the phone number, a button to chat online, email us and Blue Voices. But just to the left of that there's an empty bar with a magnifying glass next to it.
Hopefully that makes sense! For what it's worth, there will always be people here who can listen and respond to you.
Take care,
rt
