Hi, Newbie here. I have recently had a mental break, that was triggered
by severe insomnia for about 4 weeks. My mind wouldn't stop racing and I
was unable to function during the days, not able to work, crying all the
time and a downright mess. I hav...
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Hi, Newbie here. I have recently had a mental break, that was triggered
by severe insomnia for about 4 weeks. My mind wouldn't stop racing and I
was unable to function during the days, not able to work, crying all the
time and a downright mess. I have had a history with GAD since 2004 and
was able to overcome it with natural therapies specifically acupuncture.
Fueled due to my severe fear of antidepressants and my research of them.
My recent breakdown I couldn't use any natural remedies, acupuncture was
not working nor meditation. Being so crippled I decided to see my GP for
sleeping aids, just to try get past the first few weeks of insomnia. But
taking the medication and not sleeping well triggered my GAD to
resurface, also with the added effects of depression I ended up being
curled up in a ball just crying and not able to use logical thinking to
calm myself. I went back to my GP and told them how much of a Mess I
was. I have young kids 5,3, and 7 month old and a beautiful wife. Our
family home is great, I have a good job although stressful of late, I
had at the time been unable to pin point the triggered for me to regress
so badly. My GP prescribed me medication. Under ANY other circumstance
for example if my doctor prescribed me medicine to heal a festering
wound which could lead to infection I wouldn't hesitate or even think
twice about taking the medication. BUT for this... my fear of the drugs
is high. I have pushed through that barrier using logic, but I am still
unable to accept the medication and be calm about taking them. My side
effects have been nothing really. But my anxiety is still crippling me
at the moment and I fear the drugs are not treating it properly. I have
now been on them for 4 weeks. I have been told to stick it out for 2
more weeks. I am also using medication to combat nights of
sleeplessness. Which I also have fears of using. Not matter what logic I
try to apply I am always fearful of these medications, and struggling in
accepting them. I have just started to see a Pshyc, have had experience
before, am trying to implement CBT of what i remember. I have created a
Mantra for myself that I use daily to try re-program my through
behavior. I am not a patient person, and I recognize I need time to
right the right medication that will help me the most. But I struggle
with accepting the use of medication. The fear is constantly there.
Anyone else have this experience?
Feeling blah
