I don't have any hope left.
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For as long as I can remember, my mother has been emotionally abusing me, whether she realises it or not. She has always punished or scolded me whenever I do something wrong, and then completely ignored me whenever I did something right. This might s... View more
For as long as I can remember, my mother has been emotionally abusing me, whether she realises it or not. She has always punished or scolded me whenever I do something wrong, and then completely ignored me whenever I did something right. This might seem like something stupid to get upset about, but over the years it has completely obliterated my mental health, and what made it even worse is that because of it I was always much more mature than my peers, so I could never even really socialise with them either. All of this has essentially conditioned me to hate myself and feel like I can never be good enough, and after researching the effects of this sort of thing when I questioned whether I was in the right to hate her or not I found out that this sort of thing literally causes the brain to develop and wire itself differently, and now I'm 18 so I'm way past my developmental period. What am I supposed to do? There's no way to rewire brains. I don't have any hope of getting help, and I don't see how it would be physically possible for me to get better.... Is there anything that I could possibly do that could help?....