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I have been off alcohol for over 3 years which I used to alleviate severe anxiety/panic for many years, resulting in severe damage to my body. (I have an underlying genetic condition unknown to me all my life - my mother died from it when I was a chi... View more
I have been off alcohol for over 3 years which I used to alleviate severe anxiety/panic for many years, resulting in severe damage to my body. (I have an underlying genetic condition unknown to me all my life - my mother died from it when I was a child). Grog will kill me if I go back to it, so I won't. My GP thank God, prescribes a mild sleeper - I simply cannot function without some sleep - which I have never abused, making them last a long time. Some days my anxiety is through the roof....I've felt a panic attack coming on while driving. I have asked several times for something to help me, or just have on hand during the day if I need it (I would not abuse it) but she refuses. She says "It is easy to become dependent on them - they can be very addictive, so I am reluctant to do so"......my life has taken some severe blows over the past months (hence seeking support from BB who suggested this Forum which has been a great decision). Recently I have begun dipping into my sleepers to curb severe anxiety during the day because I have nothing else. I often read here about your reactions, lowering or upping doses, feeling better, and in general discussing your "meds". And I think "How come they have some meds to help them...and I don't?" It would be SO EASY to walk into the club, plonk a couple of $ down and get a wine or a beer!! The bar attendant would not say "you can get dependent on this stuff - I don't think I'd better give you any", would she? Surely my GP can see meds would be the lesser of two evils? I have an appointment tomorrow, before my psychologist appt...and I will ask AGAIN. I have mentioned to my psych that I need some during the day - she said to talk to the GP also warning "You can become very dependent on them"..YES, I KNOW THAT!! Some forum members will advise telling my GP that I dip into the sleepers during the day but I am scared to, in case she takes THEM away too! Maybe seeing another GP? - how can I just walk in, a complete stranger and ask for meds when that GP would know nothing about me or my medical history? He'd probably say No also - as I could easily be a "doctor shopper" or something. When I ask my GP tomorrow I don't know whether to be casual about it."Oh by the way can I have.." as I don't want to sound desperate (which I am ) and beg and plead for some, like a crazed addict! What will I say? Why are some members on here allowed to have meds for help and I'm not? love to hear your views Moon S