Tired of fighting this battle.

[Beaser]

I hope im ok to post as ive posted so often on other  forums  but im feeling very desperate lately. 

Im just so tired of fighting. I left a job i was in for many years last year. I have since had some part time work that didnt work out.  Im lonely and going broke.  I was desperate and called triple o last week only to be left to my own devices again. I may be going into a facility called parc a non acute inpatient service but that thought scares me. I dont know how much more i can endure. I hope every one is well and thank you for reading      Brett

[Beaser]

Hi ER good to hear from you.

Nice to hear you caught up with some friends. Thats always nice.  Im sure they would have been very happy to see you too.

It was very hot here again yesterday a bit cooler today.

Yeh its hard to know where my anxiety comes from.  I think even as kid i was a very sensitive and nervous type.  I think i can remember my first serious bout of depression at about 13 but i can remember always being a nervous type.

The guy who im going camping with for a night has good intentions and i think he is trying to push me a bit.  I guess i need to remember its just a night and im going with a good person even though i feel a bit pushed at times. 

Im going to my local cricket club today for a family day so that will be a good outing.  

I hope you had a good restful day yesterday .  Its 9am here and starting to warm up a bit but not as hot as yesterday.  

Have a Happy Day.       Brett

[Eagle Ray]

Dear Brett, 

That does sound like a good mate who is looking out for you. See if you can look forward to it, knowing he is a good guy. It’s good you have someone in your corner so to speak who is looking out for you.

I was a nervous kid too. I first remember consciously noticing anxiety at 11 and then it really took hold at 13. But it was sort of always there even before that without me knowing what it was. It’s good to be kind, patient and accepting with yourself. I’m not sure when I first experienced depression myself but I was immersed in it from the beginning with a very depressed mother. I think it manifested in me quite a bit later with the anxiety being stronger initially.

The family day out at the cricket sounds lovely. I hope you have a wonderful day Brett.

Take care,

ER