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The ball is now in their court
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I just need one thing to work today which is get thru this breathing… then probably just probably that will give me a bit of something to hold onto with the hope of it building right back up again until I feel more stable and so that my friend can come back home with me…
hope that going to work to keep safe was a good idea and not a mistake… the voices are very intrusive and demands my full attention which I’m trying not to hence how this post has come about…
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Hi PocketRocket88,
Sorry it's been a while since I've touched base. I'm sorry to hear that you're actively hearing voices which is interfering with your life. I've not had much experience with hallucinations but have you contacted your doctor yet? It might be entirely appropriate to put off work until such time as your hallucinations aren't so demanding. This is only based off what little knowledge I have however. Hope this helps.
Bob
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I am thinking of it already Bob,. Just need to put things in place so that I can go back a better version of me, hope that’s what happens but it can still go side ways…
anyways, I’ve had the more frustrating and stressful couple of days with the confusion or not understanding what’s going on around me… I think I’m losing touch with reality… here’s why I think so, everyone seemed to know my care plan than me: firstly for all I know I don’t have one with anyone including my NDIS support workers. And yet everyone seemed to know my care plan more than me. All I know I haven’t got one and that I’m still working it out alongside my support coordinator to get one that would hoped work… So posting here gives me anxiety but I have to say what’s in my chest coz it’s bringing up negative things in my head that is not helpful which puts me in a greater risk to myself… lastly, My local acute care team has contradicting information as to who or who they can’t help, last Thursday I called them for help just to be told that they can’t help me coz their currently not looking after me, out of frustration I gave the ACT a call and was told that they help everyone who calls and needs it! So long story short, I’m questioning everyone’s intentions with me., do they honestly want to help me? I don’t know how I’ll cope at work today coz my head is at the point as to giving 0(zero) care about what happens to me if I act on these thoughts and urges….
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I am so over feeling the way I’m feeling eve try waking day, I truly just want a tiny (no matter how tiny it is) some sort of reprieve from feeling and having these urge… I need the voices to quiet down so that I can stop and think about where to go from here… all I am thinking of and having the urge to do is to put that long awaited dot to this never ending pain and suffering but I have work and am at work so I’m trying my best not to act on the plan while at at work… or atleast start the process off but the ones to take one of two steps in the ‘plan’ just to make myself feel better even just for a little bit but that’s where the risk lies as to whether I can only take one or I might take more than recommended… so should I take the risk or not?
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Thank you for sharing with us today, we can hear how difficult you are finding these thoughts and voices right now. It takes courage and strength to post and we want to acknowledge that.
If you feel like talking to someone, we are here for you on 1300 22 4636 or you can call our friends at Lifeline on 13 11 14.
If you are in immediate danger and unable to stay safe, it is important to call 000 straight away.
We think you are an incredible member of this community and value how you share your thoughts and feelings.
Kind regards,
Sophie M
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I’ve accepted my fate ages ago i that tinniest part of me just wants to fight… I already have things in place for when that day comes… the plan is solid and is at play everyday lately, just a matter of losing that 1% that still clings into my dear life,. Once that’s gone then that’s it for me., I’ve got nothing to lose but more to gain for when I act on the plan… for now I’ll enjoy what’s left of me and hopefully get thru this shift at work unscathe…
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We can hear how hard it is for you today. If you feel like you can't stay safe the best thing to do is to contact 000 or Lifeline 13 11 14. They are here to support you when you need it.
We hope you have a good rest of the shift and are able to reflect on the strength and reslience you have shown.
Kind regards,
Sophie M
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Hi PocketRocket88,
I'm sorry to see that you've been really struggling with suicidal thoughts. I've never been actively suicidal so I can't imagine what it's like but please reach out to your support team. It may be that you need some acute care or a hospital admission. How are you doing today?
Bob
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today couldn’t go any worse than this.! Woke up late for work which means I’ll be late for work. That’s was kinda oaky if that was the only thing that’s the only thing that’s going bad so far but to have every important things things that you need to get thru the day is sitting at home as well as not feeling safe enuf to be actually be at work but have to? Then I think that’s when I say F*** this day. I’m so over this situation. why hold back when nothing ever goes right with you anyways… F*** this life I’m so done and I want out already!!! I’ll try my best to make most out of work now … so done with everything this life is and has… the good part may never ever come anyways…
