Dear Guest_206~
Sorry, I don't have a thread about me and my story, I joined up to see what other's had I could use, then later started to give a hand to some, based on my experiences.
I do have a different thread though, it contains the good bits from other posters' lives that they can cheer themselves and other posters up with when down, it is here:
https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/staying-well/store-your-happy-memories-here-
Have a browse though if you like, the Forum can sometimes be a rather sad place and a bit of cheer can make a difference.
Not going to reunions, I'm with you. They are a bit like Facebook, a place where people show off, pretend glamour, happy lives, no problems, success. Plus also a place where old cliques can pick on those they picked on before. If I want to see a friend from the past I'll talk with them direct.
As for what I studied, the first time drama but dropped out, the second time computing, which went on to become a second career after I was invalided out of my first occupation. I'm not particularly suggesting study for you, I've no idea if you would like it.
I guess I have been doing what your psychs have been, and pointing out the triumphs in small steps, and if you judge yourself by the 'big picture' it is true, it can seem very small. However it is in fact a journey, as I found (and as the Chinese did with "Any journey starts with one step". Sticking to it can be hard, my impatience spoiled things quite often and I'd have to re-think again.
I found that doing things for yourself each day, something to look forward to and help get out of bed, is most important. It lets you know you are worth the enjoyments, a worthy person, no matter what life has thrown at you in the past.
This is why I ask you what you have had in your life you have liked or given you a lift?
Croix
