Hate this.

[Rothman]

Hey.. need advice. 28 (nearly 29) yo f.

Been self harming, not eating, depressed for.. damn.. 18years now.

Cant go to gp alone, boyfriend says "go ahead off self if that selfish"

Cant hospital.. ambo/cop (will get family evicted.. already happened twice lol)

Social anxiety, phone phobias, no webcams.. what.. do i.. its everyday now and no one cares?

[Rothman]

I'm not okay. I can't anymore with reality.. eating disorder Victoria called.. someone reported me. Said wrong number sad

[tranzcrybe]

Hi Rothman,

Thanks for keeping in touch.

"eating disorder Victoria called.. someone reported me" - I see why you are sad that you didn't take the call, but I can appreciate the shock may have caught you off guard. Do you have a reply number?

Is there a distinction between 'being reported' and 'showing concern'? "someone reported me" sounds harsh, but "someone was concerned for me" may be the reality (the reality you can't cope with?).

I hope they call again (or you call back) as addressing this may provide a pathway for more assistance where you have been struggling to make contact.

Don't be too hard on yourself, just try to allow yourself the help you deserve.

t.

[Rothman]

Blocked number. Told boyfriend and father about they.. really don't care. I can't even express how much they don't care cause the way I am, things I do, things I say.. I don't understand. If either of them did/said/acted like I do.. they'd be committed already because I love them. So.. what the.. pardon my French!!

[tranzcrybe]

Hi Rothman,

I'm sorry about the lack of support at home for you - silly really, since you provide so much for them.

"EDV provides Helpline phone support 9.30am-4.30pm, psychologist services, support groups, online forums and education seminars." Phone: 1300 550 236

If you can give your name/phone number to them when/if you call (please do), you might be put through directly to the consultant who rang (you'd be okay asking that? - just say they called you...).

You are so caring, Rothman, and deserve much more, - I hope you can start the process. Don't be afraid, people are out there who want to help you.

Thanks for the update.

t.

[tranzcrybe]

... or you could email: edv@eatingdisorders.org.au

t.

[Rothman]

No one else cares/normalized. So don't care. Happy birthday to me. I'm alone cause boyfriend forgot to put leave form in. And no present from bf/father again cause "didn't have time" again. A year isn't long enough? Oh well. Hope y'all well

[tranzcrybe]

Hi Rothman,

🎂Happy Birthday from me and everyone at Beyond Blue - you're not alone!

I know what 'forgetting' feels like in the pit of your stomach but be sure to treat yourself any way you can - order a pizza, put your feet up, and leave your chores and worries behind you for a day (or how about the whole week? - a friend of mine would celebrate with a birthday week, lol). Perhaps your 'missing' present could be letting family cook/clean for you, or at least for themselves for a day?

Give yourself a break - you have earned it and deserve something special... 🎁

Best wishes from me. Happy to keep you company if you want to chat.

t.