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Welcome to the Suicide and Self-Harm Section

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Hi there, Welcome to the Suicide and Self-Harm section of the Beyond Blue Forums. Life gets pretty hard sometimes, and many people here on the Forums have had times where they have thought about harming themselves or ending their life. This can be a deeply distressing experience, and this section is here to support members who have had these experiences. This section is not a crisis support service. If you are in crisis or need immediate help, assistance is not available via these Forums. Please call: Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 (24/7) Lifeline on 13 11 14 (24/7) If it is an emergency, contact emergency services on 000. This is a place to share where you are at, seek ideas for support and know that you are not alone. We are here to create a safe environment for everyone. Please do not provide any details about any plans/ideas that you may have had to hurt yourself, and importantly, help us to understand if you are safe by letting us know in the post. For some people this section might be difficult to read – if it is not helping how you feel, then please consider moving to another section. This section, like the rest of the Forums, is closely monitored and all posts are reviewed by moderators before publication. Moderators will also ensure that anyone needing follow up will be provided with information about how to access further support. If after a period of time you no longer wish others to engage in the discussion you have started, please use the 'Report Post' button and request the discussion be locked to prevent any further replies. Thank you for being here, we're glad you're here. Treat yourself gently as you read through this section. Beyond Blue

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Do you have a safety plan?

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Safety planning involves creating a structured plan – ideally with support from your health professional or someone you trust – that you work through when you’re experiencing suicidal thoughts, feelings, distress or crisis. Your safety plan starts with things you can do by yourself, such as thinking about your reasons to live and distracting yourself with enjoyable activities. It then moves on to coping strategies and people you can contact for support – your friends, family and health professionals. The safety planning model was developed in the US by suicide prevention experts Barbara Stanley and Gregory Brown. It has been used extensively by US veterans’ health organisations, hospital emergency departments and high schools, and there is strong evidence that it works. Many health professionals in Australia also use some form of safety planning to support clients experiencing suicidal thoughts or feelings, or after a suicide attempt. beyondblue has an app you can use to create a safety plan, called BeyondNow. The BeyondNow app takes the principles of safety planning and makes it even easier to use – so rather than carrying around a piece of paper, you’ve got it on your phone at all times. It’s free to download from the Apple Store or Google Play. If you don’t have a smartphone or would prefer to use your desktop or laptop, BeyondNow is also available to use on our website. Do you have a safety plan? Do you have questions around how you might create one, or fill out some of the sections? This thread is for discussing ideas around creating a safety plan, and sharing tips about what has been most useful about this process for you. Below are two videos featuring Peter and Nic, who have both used safety plans successfully. Peter Nic

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So I’ve been in a relationship for nearly two years now and have been increasingly unhappy in it for about half a year. It isn’t concerning in any way, I just no longer feel happy with my partner and long for a more nurturing relationship, or just to be single again. Unfortunately I am on a multiple-month trip with my partner and cannot break up with them, despite my disposition. Besides that, I’ve been having less and less energy and feel so isolated from everything. I’m worried about sharing my concerns with others, as many of my thoughts just aren’t good and I don’t want to scar anyone with them. But I also can’t deal with all my worries alone right now. I’ve had suicidal thoughts in the past and I’ve self harmed too. I am terrified of having those feelings again and try everything to stop them whenever I drift into a more negative headspace. I’ve worked on creating a safety net for times like this, but since I’m traveling I can’t spend time with friends and family and simply can’t talk to anyone in person. I get scared of what will happen if my headspace gets worse. Right now I’m clinging to the hope that it’ll all get better after these few months, though I know that it might be too long for me to deal with healthily.

I keep fucking up

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lately i have realised that i am just a horrib;e person. all of my friends have left me because of my actions, my negligence, my erratic behaviour. I always seem to say the wrong thing or not say enough. I cant treat anyone correctly. even my own boyfriend. I forgot his birthday (he says its fine but i hate myself for it), i'm always burdening him with my episodes and I'm never fun to be around anymore. I have been in an intense depressive episode for the last week. I've started sh again. Ive stopped eating. I can barley bring myself to talk to anyone. I havnt seen anyone aside from my family in a week. tonight I asked if my boyfriend could come over and he said yeas but he was really tired so could it wait until tomorrow? I said that was fine but that I wished he could have seen me sooner instead of spending every night of the last week at his friends place. And that's not really fair, I never asked him to come over, I never made it clear that I wanted company and in fact explicitly stated that I wasn't up for communication much less seeing anyone. idk I just got really depresdsed tn and realised that Im jealous of his friends and i miss him and i must not be good enough for him if hed rather see them than me. i know these thoughts arent reality but i did think them. And i feel horrible for it. i cant trust anyone. i hate so easily i mistrust so easily. I keep making people have to walk away from me or take a break bercause of how full on i am, and then i get angry or defensive or grovelling to make them come back and it just causes so much stress. I'm an unhealthy presence in everyines lives. I can't change. Ive tried. Im going to be like this forever. I rreally think that I have to die in order to make things right. I hate the person that I am. I hate her. I cant do this to people anymore

Home

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My mum and I have been arguing and mum just said I make her want to kill herself and she told me to pack my bags. I don't know what I did

My story

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I would like to share my story to those who need it. I have anxiety and depression , I have attempted 3 times and used frequently self harm. Im still recovering though I am 4 months clean, I still struggle everyday and would like for everyone to know how important they are. Even though I don't know you and don't know if you need this. You are amazing and you can get through it just keep trying.

I don’t know how to stop

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I’m a 14 year old female and I’ve been struggling with mental health since I was 11. Last year I was severely bullied, I had just started high school and it seemed like I was the perfect target. Months on months of relentless taunting and harsh comments said towards me and one day I just couldn’t take it anymore. I hated feeling like crap all the time, so I started harming myself as a way to cope. At the time, it felt like the only way to distract myself from the pain. I was feeling inside. Now, over a year later and I feel like I’m stuck in a cycle I don't know how to break. I still use this behavior to cope, even though I know it's not helping in the long run. It's become a way to feel something or punish myself for feeling empty or numb. I hate this feeling and I don't know how to stop. The first time I ended up needing medical care because of this, I remember seeing how upset my mum was. I've never forgotten that moment, I have never felt more guilt in my life. I want to change, but it's so hard when these feelings take over Now I feel trapped and desperate. I know it doesn't make sense but I can’t seem to stop. Please someone tell me how I can move forward.

Tired

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I’m so tired of life. The only reason I keep going is I’m all my kids have. Their dad cut them out if his life 3 years ago because they look like me. I’m so exhausted. My youngest has autism, I work fulltime and do work on the side and I’m just so ti... View more

It hurts to much to keep going

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My husband of 20 years told me in Jan 2023 that he wasn’t sure what he wanted anymore. I suffer from extreme GAD with a lot of panic attacks, and have never been fully treated - tbh I’ve only just come to understand how bad it has been and how miserable I made our lives. I alternated between needing to control ever aspect of our lives, to refusing to get out of bed some days.All last year I tried to fix things, but it was too late, I had pushed him so far away that the love had vanished. He was a wonderful husband. Kind, generous, thoughtful and tolerant. But I didn’t appreciate him.He was so unhappy, rundown and overworked for years. He took on all the financial, parenting, home burdens.In January this year, he moved out to work on his own mental health. I tried to balance working on my own, while suddenly becoming a single parent. I was starting to feel much better and learning to cope, and decided to ask if we could gradually try again. Then two weeks ago I was given the bombshell - he has been seeing someone else, since March. Too scared to tell me because he knew how terribly I would react.I don’t want to do this life without him. I am completely destroyed. I still love him with all my heart and soul. I don’t want to hurt my girls and leave them without a mother, but most days I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up. I’m scared to be alone because the thoughts and the grief are overwhelming. He has our youngest today, taken her and the new girlfriend to his family for Christmas. I used to easily sleep 9-10 hours a night. Now I wake at 3am and start crying and wondering if I would be better off gone as the pain is unbearable.

Thinking of ending life

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Hi, I am 37 and a mother of 2 boys. Lately, I have been feeling very low and no self-worth. I have been thinking of ending my life. I don't know how or when but I just want to disappear and not be a burden to people. I find it hard to tell my family about my thoughts because I don't want them to worry about me, especially with Christmas happening. I want to just go somewhere and not take anything with me but I don't know where else to go.

Passive suicidal ideation

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I am 65 and have suffered anxiety and depression for most of my life. I am now struggling with the wish to die but not suicidal. It’s Christmas and I just want it over with. I have lost all ability to enjoy life

I want to do it but there’s to much to leave behind.

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Hi I’m a 13yo with 2 sisters and my mum and dad. I’ve wanted to harm myself on and off for a while but there’s so much left to do. When I look back on life everyone go’s “oh you’ve had such a good life” but when I look back all I see is sadness depression and bullying. I struggle with school, home, friends, family and myself. I HATE myself and I want to kill or harm myself but I know that it won’t fix anything in a good or bad way. I just don’t know what to do.

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