A somewhat Positive Achievement

Eclipse0433 · ‎01-02-2021

Hi everyone,
I just wanted to share a somewhat important milestone for myself. A few days ago I went to a GP to get a mental health plan done. This was huge for me as I have a fear of doctors and feel like I don't deserve help. While I experienced some of the highest anxiety levels in my life leading up and on the day of my GP visit it went relatively ok. The GP I saw was respectful and understanding of mental health which is rare within the medical field. Also just a random question but has anyone done the dass 21 assessment? How did u find it? I think as a mental health assessment it isn't too bad.

The plan for myself is to start the process to go to a headspace clinic. This is inevitably going to be a long process as the wait times are always long (I have been to headspace before when I was younger). While this is not their fault as they do their best while fighting a difficult battle, it is hard knowing I will have to continue to fight my battle alone for a while longer. I know this sounds selfish as there are people going through worse things. To complicate things where I live we have gone back into lockdown (I am sure u will all figure out which state I am in so hello to my fellow West Aussies). While it is only 5 days and I both understand and respect the need for this lockdown (we have to do our best to protect the vulnerable and each other), it does mean my wait for headspace will be even longer. I know this sounds selfish as there are bigger things going on but I am really struggling.

Anyways enough about me. While I have the energy to write up a post I just want to apologise for not offering more support to everyone in this online community. I find that whenever I go to type a response or offer support it just doesn't sound right. I worry about saying the wrong thing. So while I may not respond, I promise that I see u, I hear u and I support u.

Guest_1643 · ‎30-03-2021

so the MH line is affiliated with ur local triage/hospital - they have on call staff who help ppl in MH crises.

they are staffed 24/7. If they are busy they will call u back and check on u

I alway thought that thre's nothing they can do really - or that u'd wind up in the hospital if you called them.

Nothing is forced on u

I'vee called them about 14 times. Never has that lead to a hospital admission.

The first time i called they did suggest I come in. I said I didn't want to. They said all good, call us back if u change ur mind in a few days.
The misconception I see sometimes is ppl don't wanna call becausee they'll "get locked up" -

tht is supremely unlikely. u have your choice at all times ,unless it is highly highly acute and even in that case, consent is a big thing these days. They can't push u to do anything you don't wanna do.

Guest_4643 · ‎30-03-2021

I must have gotten that wrong, I do apologise Sleepy and Eclipse. That was my personal knowledge of it but I haven't called them before. I'm sorry for misunderstanding and making a mistake about that. Thanks for clarifying it Sleepy. My mistake.

Guest_1643 · ‎30-03-2021

hey no problems i just see it a lot in life and sometims in the forums, on social media etc

ppl say they don't wanna call the triag bcause they don't wanna get locked up. This is so so unlikely and shouldn't prevent ppl from calling the triage (or lifeline, too!)

they don't hav the power to willy-nilly lock anyone up. I was never locked up. That is a very very rare situation and consent is a huge thing these days!

Happy to clarify from my experience, and no worries

Jstar49 · ‎30-03-2021

Hey Eclipse,

Big hugs. I'm just sitting here with you now, becos I know you're in a really difficult place atm, and even tho I can't help, and I don't know what to say, maybe me just sitting here with you will help, becos at least you have some company in this dark place where you're at.

Its really good that you can recognise that you need help.

My GP asked me that question that you're asking yourself, kind of. She asked me what stops me from carrying out any plans for ending my life. I told her it was my daughter.

Writing this I am reminded of the old saying, the darkest hours are right before the dawn.

Hang in there Eclipse. I'm holding your hand, and I won't let go. You are too important.

Be kind to yourself, as often as you can. Practice thinking kind thoughts about yourself, doing things which make you feel good. If it's too hard to go shopping, then don't. You could write yourself some

'get out of .............' cards (you fill in the blanks) Like a get out of jail free card in monopoly. Sure, mum is gona find it difficult, cos she's probably thinking it will be good for you to get out and about. And maybe it will be, another day. But if today is not the day, then, hey. Woolworths delivers to your house doesn't it?

My kindest thoughts for your wellbeing,

J*

Eclipse0433 · ‎31-03-2021

Thank u everyone, had another really rough two days. There is just so much going on I can't explain.

Sophie_M · ‎31-03-2021

Hi Eclipse,

We're sorry to hear that it's been a rough couple of days. There is no pressure to explain what is happening for you if you don't feel up to it.

Please do reach out for some support if you need it today - Kids Help Line is available 24/7.

We hope that this community is of some comfort to you. Please feel free to post whenever you need to.

Jstar49 · ‎31-03-2021

Hi Eclipse,

So nice to read your words, even when its just a couple lines. Thanks for staying in touch, it really means a lot.

It's been a rough couple days across the forums that I can see, so maybe that moon is making mischief.

Stay steady if you can Eclipse. Things are gona get better for you. One day at a time.

Hugs,

J*

Guest_4643 · ‎31-03-2021

hey eclipse, i'm sorry you've had a hard time. if it helps, i have too, and i'm sure many others, so you're not alone. i hope you're ok and safe. we're always here for you. i hope things improve.