l've never been morning person , and l mean l'm that dopey when l first wake up l can't even put together what someone says to me and l couldn't care less l don't wanna know anyway, just stay away from me. People don't understand it though but usually try not to bother me mostly non the less. lf they do though honestly, sometimes l feel like roaring at them to just get the hell outa my face leave me alone and l have sometimes too. l always feel so ashamed and guilty for days after if l did and l'm all oligopolies later when l wake up properly and having to explain my morning thing yet again. But if they'd just give me a bloody hr , all would be well in the world.
At any rate , as l've said l've been training myself well over a yr now back into sleeping again but now that l do l need more and more and l'm tireder than ever. lt's crazy. A few times lately l go for siesta after work and l just wanna keep sleeping later when l do wake up , rest of the night from there. Might only be 5 in the afternoon or something though, it's crazy.
And , on top of that l'm getting mostly a good 7, 8 even 9 hrs at night too now lately, but sometimes siesta could also end up going 2hrs on top of that too, so that's a lot of sleep. Yet l'm tireder than ever. My gf's like that but at least she has an excuse with the stress and mess she's going through atm but she sleeps at least 12 hours a day usually more , 13. 14, with few hrs in the afternoon in that too. lf she doesn't get her afternoon siesta she's just a mess the rest of the night. She's as bright as when she is awake though and full of life , at least that's something. Well when she's here at mine she is again anyway but when she's up home and with everything she's going through there nah, she's mostly depressed and stressed when she is awake , very understandably though.
Can't work myself out though. l'm def' sleeping again though that's for sure, more than ever, yet l'm tireder than ever.
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