Extremes, life on a herdy gerdy...

[white knight]

I'm not sure if its my bipolar, my depression or both that dictates my extremes in mood from ultra positive to my world as I know it...ending. Ending meaning marriage collapse and becoming a hobo, sad, homeless individual.

I'm sure I'm not alone, that some reading this will relate to the happy times only to regularly fall in a heap.

For me to be joyous everything must be ok. Finances ok, car running well, wife and I on the same page, the weather fine, no one demanding attention in the family etc. But of course nearly every day something occurs. Thats enough to believe life is fragile. My mood thereafter for a number of hours is desperate, its like you just want to escape but you know from your early days 35-40 years ago that that doesnt work, all it does is create more problems needing more answers, not to mention the hurt it causes others and family and friends dont deserve that.

For just one month to live a stable life, to string along many days whereby life is the same. No mania, no sadness, no self harm, no conflict or uncertainty. No feeling like you just want to enter a hospital...Medication I've learned can only do so much, the rest is huge challenges.

I'm a really positive individual but I've learned that my ills do not allow me to keep my chin up all the time. Its just not possible.

"You've got the theory down pat" said the psych nurse but putting it in practice isnt so easy.

I think with mental illness one has a major problem advancing beyond a certain personal ability. After that its beyond our capability.

Erratic mood, do you have that life of swings, roundabouts and herdy gerdies? If so what has been you best remedy? I'd love to know.

Just to ease the pain.

Tony WK

[blondguy]

Hi Tony

You have more guts than I do. I used to love traveling...and even camping too until my brain started to complain

I just dont have the strength you have by not only the travel (however enjoyable) but to sleep away from your own bed that represents the semi solid sleeping pattern that we have tried so hard to master.

I havent read your thread about what you have been through Tony. I was just in awe of what you have done. I wish

My Best. Paul

[Guest_3712]

Hey Tony,

So glad you are feeling better - yes nothing like your own bed for sure, although I'm still searching for that elusive good sleep pattern , Oh well

Take care

Stressless

[white knight]

Hi Paul

I wished you had read this thread

Hi Stressless, yes my psych in 2003 stressed the importance of sleep. Since then Ive had sleep studies and use a cpap and try to get my 8 hours...if the brain isnt racing. Muscle tensioning exercises help before bedtime.

Tony WK

[velvetfaerie]

Sleep thing is a huge thing for me too.

My go to is an exercise flogging then melatonin. I'm managing 6-8 hours a night but still feel knackered.

I need more travel. I get itchy feet. It's on the agenda for next year.

😁

[quirkywords]

Tony,

sleep is so important not just with mental illness but for general health.

I like the idea of building a bigger van for bigger beds. You are very clever to be able to build vans.

I have often wondered how I would be if I had better sleep.I have mentioned my problems before so won't bore people.

I am glad you have worked out what helps you .

Quirky

[Guest_128]

Holly crap batman,I just saw this,sorry😩

Thats unreal Tony, a new project. I am very excited for you.🤗

I said to my mum a couple of years ago,if Dads not coping tuck him in to bed,cause that's the best medicine ever. She often does say to me,that was the best advice anyone has ever said.

Awsome, then you guys can come stay with me,free camp sites.

Dory

[white knight]

Hi Dory

We've spent 4 days preparing our tiny caravan for sale. We built it 18 months ago, toured Australia and just went to Bundaberg return. Its 3 metres long only but has a shower! !

once sold we are going to build a larger van about 5 metres long with a dining room, shower if course and a better kichen and....bigger beds.

We do mostly free camps or low cist, showgrounds and lion parks (no lions Dory lol) as we are pensioners, caravan park once a week maybe.

Yes when I have a project I'm at my happiest.

Do you have hobbies?

Tony WK

[Guest_128]

Hobbies um,fishing all sorts beach,boat inside outside,rivers and in our backyard,love camping we have a place at Merriwa that friends own that we have helped build sheds toilets and all our children have been brought up at. Dare I say shooting,love all animals except the shooting ones,have a few rentals and have always renovated and hardly ever pay for tradies. Oh cooking yes it's like a science. My plants are my friends and I get a lot of piece helping them grow,bit like an artist,I can't stand seeing half d leaves sucking up all their food.

Cant believe I wrote all that,I feel guilty talking about myself.

I do need to clear something up with you,way way back I told you about a bus we had and we were doing it up. I wanted to and still do want to do it up as a permanent guest bus on our property,still in the pipeline but it won't be able to be registered.

Thanks for your care Tony and I'm really happy you are getting a better sleep.

your a good boy.

Dory