To day started out good, woke up, which is always a plus in my book, got
to spend a little time with my wife before she went to work, had a good
walk with the dog, was generally speaking in a good mood. Had lunch,
watched a good movie, and now I am s...
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To day started out good, woke up, which is always a plus in my book, got
to spend a little time with my wife before she went to work, had a good
walk with the dog, was generally speaking in a good mood. Had lunch,
watched a good movie, and now I am sinking fast into a depression, I
know how to fix this "little" issue and I will, its a simple matter of
taking the dog for another walk and more than likely despite the
physical pain the brain will kick itself back into a good mood. Of late
this has been an on going thing, up one minute, could be a few hours,
then down in the dumps the second minute, hell yesterday I went from
happy to sad to pissed off to super happy again, all with in a half hour
then back to what ever my normal is, I prefer to think of it as in the
middle ground. Normally I can control the mood swings, they are part of
my life, heck I can almost predict them, and some days I can stop them
simply by avoiding my triggers, but the last week or so I have had no
warnings, in some odd way I can handle the down swing better then the
upswing. Part of this I think is because of the stat class I am taking
for my MBA that has me a little stressed out, wont admit that to the
wife who says I am stressing out, I just can't admit to a woman that she
is right, goes against the grain and she might get a big head, only room
in this house for one ego and mine is big enough! And of course the no
work thing is driving me a little nuts, and have the inlaws coming over
for the weekend they are going to a monster truck rally and saddling the
wife with our great niece who is only 2, and I say saddle my wife
because she is the one that will be looking out for the munchkin! AH joy
the upswing is happening as I write this long post simply because a good
song came on so now I will be super high pretty damn soon, I think the
main reasons I hate the highs is that I can stop how fast or how high I
climb, then of course there is the screaming crash and burn after the
super high. So a question for anyone that can answer it or have any
ideas, how do you control the highs? The lows I know about, took a while
but I can keep myself from getting too low, the highs though I have no
clue how to stop and they scare me, and I think it scares the wife
because when I am high I am laughing to the point of crying over the
littlest thing, and I can't stop until the brain kicks my legs out from
under me then I crash and man that crash is physicaly and mentally hard!
Any ways going to go walk the dog in hopes it will kick the brain back
into neutral or at least get myself moving forward! Wish you all the
best in fighting the beast and remember there are people out there that
can help if you are willing to put your hand out!